Happy 4th of July!!!!

Well we finally heard from my brother Billy.  He said boot camp is fun.  Should have known he would think it was fun.  He has a ton of energy and the sicko loves punishment, lol.  Maybe that is why he was so hard to punish, he enjoyed it too much.  He loves pushing himself to the limit.  He has always been a hard worker too, not a lazy type.

I thought this 4th of July would be a little relaxing but it's turning out to be very busy.  I guess some people want to have a party Friday night.  We are meeting other friends at Sports world Friday afternoon.  My grandma Irene's husband's family (long I know) has this huge firework display by their house on Saturday.  Thomas's buddies want to meet out at the lake Saturday night.  Plus Thomas got us a room for the entire weekend at the Broadview Hotel downtown.  They have a huge fire work display on the River 4th of July, so he wants us to watch it from the hotel (it's right next to the river) and then if we want we can just go back inside and not have to mess with downtown traffic.  This is his first fourth of July in America.  His family is usually back in Germany in July and they don't celebrate the fourth of July.  He did get fireworks in Florida for New Years day before, but you have to be 21 to buy them, so he always had to have his brother get them for him.  So we cheated a little and had our own fire work display tonight.  My 91 year old grandma came out to watch them, since we did them on her side street.  I loved this golden frog ball he bought me so much that he went and bought me some more after we got finished.  Gosh that guy spoils me, lol.  I thought we were just going to go play tennis but I guess we wouldn't really have time to shoot fireworks off anytime later.

That also reminds me.  My 21st birthday is in 5 months and people are already planning for it.  I thought I would wait until the following week so that Thomas and I could celebrate our birthdays together, his is on the 12th.  He is talking about us going out to dinner then bar hopping in old town and then catching a limo or taxi back to a hotel room.  I always thought mom would be the one to go with me, because I thought she would be the only one I could trust to make sure nothing bad happened and that I got home safely.  Hey she said she would buy the first rounds for me and my girlfriends.  Now Hoang wants to take me out with our friend Heather.  Heather will turn 21 in November, Hoang is 22 so she said she would watch over us instead.  She said all three of us need to ditch our guys and go to town, lol.  Poor Thomas, he wanted to go with me so bad.  He worries because when I get drunk I get hot and start taking my clothes off.  So maybe I can do a double party.  December 5, could be the all girls only party.  Then on December 12, it could be guys and girls.  Just doesn't sound fair I know, but I can't say no to Hoang, lol.  She has really been thinking on it for sometime.  I may even let her plan my next Bachelorette party.  Nothing as wild as the first one.  Now that I am divorced I can tell you that one was not pretty either.  They hired me a stripper because some of my male coworkers wanted to do the stripper act for me.  Tara knew I would be embarrassed and knew Dustin would be pissed.  Anyway the stripper brought another stripper friend with him and they both danced up against me, one in front one in behind.  I kept telling the guy to go dance with someone else, but he just kept rubbing himself all over me and even kissing on me all over like my shoulders and face, I think they were there for over an hour doing that.  I was later told that strippers aren't supposed to touch you.  They even asked if they could stay a little longer.  The girls gave me a shot of everclear to loosen me up a bit, but yeah I felt gross the way he kept pulling me closer I think he even was on top of me at one point.  My father would have had a cow, I think there are still pictures somewhere.  I deleted most of them.  You know if we have to go that route again, Chippendale comes to town every 3rd week in June.  Those guys definitely don't touch like that. Thomas will probably want to have a co-bachelor/bachelorette party.  He's so cute the way he worries about me.  This week I got a phone call from that guy who got my number at the club last month.  Since I wasn't returning his calls he was going to pop in on me at Butler, so Thomas came and sat in my class with me for all  three hours.  Kind of thought it would take care of that guy in my class that was bugging me too, I pointed him out to Thomas.  Nope the next day he was coming up to me again.  First of all the guy has a girlfriend already.  I don't know if she is in Lawrence or not though.  For someone seeking to get laid desperately they have internet.  You know the sickos do web cam sex or meet up with strangers they have never met before for one night stands.  You know those kind of people really scare the crap out of me.  I mean think about it, they don't care if they are meeting a psycho or not.  What if a girl gets pregnant, think 9 months later she could give birth to a clone of the bucked tooth psycho that is basically a gene pool reject.  Hasn't everyone noticed the increase is psycho sickos?  This could be where they are coming from, sickos having sex with psychos.  Haven't you all had sicko psycho people messaging you to have cybor sex.  Seriously I have had guys come on and the only word they write is "SEX?"  Like they are asking if I want to have cybor sex with them.  I'm like no you mutant retard loose my address.  They don't even show you a picture of their face (which of course is a sign that they are butt ugly), just a shot of their penis.  Let me tell you I have seen some real ugly ones this past year.  I wish I could show the 2 incher I got on the phone one time, lol.  Again no face with it.

Well my Biology class is starting to kick my butt a bit.  It doesn't help that Thomas is usually waiting for as soon as I get out of class.  He did help me with my paper though.  He went to the library and found some pictures for me.  I've already signed up for my fall classes.  My advisor will be my Ethnic teacher, he thinks we are going to get a long famously.  He set me up with a better Psychology teacher, I had to drop out of my last one during my spring semester because the guy had a deep foreign accent that most of us couldn't understand.  Then I have another math and english 2 class.  I'm not looking forward to the spring class because I have to take Chemistry and Statistics.  Those two classes alone will kick my butt.  Thomas won't be here either to help, which might be a blessing because I will have more time to study.  Unless of course he calls me constantly.  I hope to have most of the wedding things planned before he leaves in February.  Oh I guess I should tell you all that as of right now the wedding date is set for September 5, 2009.  He of course would have liked to get married around Sept. 2008.  I was going for Sept. 2010.  So we compromised, besides September 5 is the day we met.  It was the day before my annulment hearing, lol.  I like to think of him as my gift from God.  After meeting him, I knew I was going to be alright and that the annulment was the best thing for me.  I did everything I could to push Thomas away for months but he wouldn't let go.  He did everything in his power to prove that not all men were cheaters that were only out for what they wanted.  He showed me that there are some really nice guys that can be satisfied with just one woman.  He doesn't have hidden agendas, doesn't try and sneak around, he has been totally honest, has put my needs or wants before his own, and has proven that he thinks that I am more than enough for him.  Seriously people within the first two weeks of meeting him I had a friend who wanted him if I didn't and I told him he could take her out.  He said, "You are going to make this difficult for me aren't you?"  I figured all men would try to hurt me eventually and I had enough.  I was going to concentrate on just me and my schooling.  That man just kept pushing until I included him in my life.  It didn't matter if I was going out with friends or family, he didn't even mind being the only guy in the bunch.  He has passed my daddy's test too.  He never pushed himself on daddy like most guys tried.  He just waited until he was invited. Daddy doesn't even mind him coming to dinner with us.  He invited him out for breakfast two weeks ago.  Really guys I didn't think anyone could find favor in daddy's eyes.  I hope I haven't put you all to sleep.  I guess it is getting late.  I will just leave you with a few pictures from tonight, enjoy.

It's official.

Well if you haven't heard yet, yes it is official.  I am engaged.  Last month Thomas surprised me with a beautiful ring.  A marquise cut with two surrounding baguette cut diamonds on the side.  It looks huge on my little finger, but not as bad as the first one he was looking at.  The other had several diamonds that took up half my finger, it looked a bit gaudy I guess.  Any way he got my boss and co-workers in on it along with his friend Brian.  Now I recall the last time he wanted to know about proposing to me over dinner or somewhere else, I told him I hate public surprises.  I feel like it should be a private issue, you know what if I wanted to say no, lol.  So anyway I'm at work, and I looked like crap too that day, I wanted to go file some of my work away and my boss asked us to wait she wanted to have a quick meeting.  Everyone had to stay in the office, so I even made some quick mac and cheese to eat at my desk while I waited.  All of a sudden in walks Thomas in his uniform with Brian behind him with his new video camera.  I'm like oh shit, that boys going to get me fired was my first thought.  Then he goes into a speech about how much he loves me, wants to spend the rest of his life with me, so on and so on and the next thing you know he has tears in his eyes and he was on his knee popping out this ring.  I was so embarrassed!!!  Everyone said my face was bright red and I couldn't stop laughing, it was my nervous laugh.  I'm like please everyone just go away and they are all just staring at me even after I said yes and Brian kept that video camera in my face the whole time.  I looked over and said in a whisper, "I hate you Brian."  He said, "I know, I love you too."  Then they all coaxed me to go to lunch with Thomas and Brian.  It was really sweet, but I really would have preferred it in private with just me and him.  Remember people I am not a mushy romantic and I hate public displays.  So I don't know I might load up the embarrassing video sometime so you can see what I'm talking about.  I told him to wait until September, after our one year mark but like my daddy he couldn't wait.  Thomas told my mom he hoped the ring would deter those guys that won't leave me alone.  I told him he would still have to wait a year or two for  me to complete the deed.  I still want to get most of my college done before I do that again.  We did look at invitation and pretty much know what we want.  Then I seen this cake in shape of Godzilla with a veil on it and a groom stuck under her foot.  Thomas said that would be a cool cake too.  It's really hard to plan a wedding when you already had your dream wedding and some jerk ruined it for you.  I told Thomas he would probably have to do most of the planning.  It will be more like his dream wedding instead of mine.  I could care less how we do it, just as long as we keep it small.

On another note, my brother graduated and was supposed to leave for the Marine boot camp in August.  They offered him a huge bonus to leave in June so he took it.  He left on father's day.  We had so many family dinners, and he had a lot of get togethers with his friends before he left.  He just gave us ten days notice so we didn't even get to take a family vacation together.  We might do something when we fly out to San Diego to see his graduation.  We all miss him terribly, especially mom.  She is a basic wreck. 

School is going great.  I'm taking a biology course this summer.  It's a five credit course so I go to school 4 days a week.  At least I get out early enough to enjoy the evening with Thomas.  He is teaching me tennis too.  He goes jogging with me.  He is finally giving me a little breathing space and not calling me every second of the day.  I love the guy, but I don't need another guy calling me every second of the day especially when I go out with the girls.  He is finally understanding that sometimes I need time to hang with girlfriends and not guys.  It's not that I am out looking for someone else, it's just to kick back and enjoy time with the girls only.  I'm telling him he needs to have guy nights too, his friends at least appreciate this.  They too like nights with just the guys and no girlfriends.  Yeah, I still get those weirdos that grab my phone and call themselves or try to pull me away from the girls even though they see the ring on my finger.  But I am getting better at telling them to get lost.  Those that continue to call me get to talk to Thomas.  I even get the occasional stalkers at school.  Like today when they said we could break up into study partners and leave when we finish.  I had this guy come rushing over knocking chairs down as he rushed over to ask if I wanted to study with him.  I said okay.  Then he said, so you have a boyfriend.  I told him I think it's a little deeper than that.  He ask how deep and I showed him the ring.  He said he had a girlfriend too.  I ask how is that going for you.  He said oh it goes this way and that way.  I said, "Obviously we aren't going to study, so yeah hi, I'm Karina."  I told him usually before I start talking about my personal life I like to know who I'm talking with.  He goes on to tell me he goes to KU but is taking a summer course at Butler.  Then he tells me he would cheat on his girlfriend for me.  That was the end of the conversation for me.  I told him, "Well I gotta go have a nice day."  I grabbed my back pack and left.  I don't care if he thinks I was rude or not.  I really can't stand a guy who has a girlfriend and then thinks he is doing me an honor cheating on her with me.  Like I am lucky or something.  Give me a break.  First off, if I'm not happy with my guy I wouldn't be with him.  Second, I don't just sleep around with guys I don't know.  Third, even if something would happen between us, I would never trust him because if he cheats on his present girlfriend with me, he would cheat on me in the future with the next conquest to come along.  Besides I really hate the type of guys who think they are God's gift to women.  I met some of these guys at the Air Force base when I was there with Thomas.  They all thought I was some new recruit there and I said no I was Thomas's girlfriend.  I guess they were trying to impress me, but they were wasting their time.  Besides when they try and put my guy down to make themselves look better, it's a real turn off.  I see them as big jerks that need to get over themselves.

Me and my little brother Billy after he graduated.

Here he is starting to take it all off.  I'm his little side dancer.

Can you believe he even got tips, lol.

Thomas and I.  He dunked me again so mom and my aunt dunked him.

It was cold and I was not sharing my towel.

My trip to Florida

 Sorry for not updating for so long.  Here's the update you asked for.  Yes, Thomas got back and it’s like we are constantly together.  It’s really nice that he cares so much and wants to be with me, meet all my friends and do things with me.  Then there is the old me who loved time to herself and I never have that anymore.  I have work, school, family and friends.  He comes to work in the morning sometimes to bring me a hot chocolate or something before I walk in the door.  Other times he comes for my breaks or takes me to lunch.  When I go to school and I have a long break in between he will show up with dinner for me or just to bring me something to drink and sit with me for a while.  Seriously I see him more than I see family and friends. I can't help but smile though when he walks in the door or comes walking up the pathway.  He is so adorable.  I don’t mind it, but sometimes I get to thinking about it and it freaks me out.  He talks about marriage an awful lot, I finally let him give me the label fiancé but told him he would have to wait a year or two for me to finalize it.  The whole idea of giving myself totally to one person still freaks me out after everything I went through.  It was easier the first time because I didn’t really understand what all marriage takes from you.  It’s like your identity is now shared with someone else.  You really give up a big part of yourself.  Two people that should be working on bigger goals together.  Most people know I like to do things on my own.  Then there is this whole planning another wedding.  I really dread it because I hate big weddings.  My ex’s family went and invited so many freaking people.  His dad’s side had a lot of people attend, his mother tried to out do his father, and then there was my side with only a handful of people.  Most of my friends showed up for the reception but not for the wedding.  A lot of them didn’t like him and thought it wouldn’t last so they didn’t come.  I found it really funny the drama that his mother and step-mother made of the whole thing by calling my mom and telling her about family fights with siblings and then the step-mother wanting my mom to go ahead and invite them all anyway and it wasn’t even her family.  Then the two different wedding showers held by both of his moms.  The mother didn’t invite her own family just her in-laws and didn’t send invites to anyone in my family, just told my mom bring who she wanted to.  So the step mom had another one and invited my entire family and friends and all the other mothers family that were not invited to the first.  After everything ended they blamed my mom for the big wedding. Seriously she had to pay for it people and we couldn't even have it in our own small church, she had to rent a bigger one.  I swear I do not want to go through any drama with another big wedding.  I told Thomas it would be small.  He wanted something a little bigger, but he knows I am sitting my foot down on this one.  Thomas has a very nice and close connected family so I don’t see a lot of drama coming from them.  His real father is in Maine and still respects his mother.  His mother lets his father’s brother come to Florida for visits with her family.  Thomas wants to be a part of the whole planning.  In fact he is already talking about what he wants like colors and tuxes.  He is already saving too because I told him my parents already paid for one wedding and I don’t want them to pay entirely for the next one.  We almost bought an engagement ring last week, but I would really like to wait until at least September that would be the one year mark.  He gets so impatient and doesn’t know what I’m waiting for.  He has even been looking at houses.  Really scary, I think after what happened with the last one maybe we should start off with an apartment for a year and see how things work.  We did have a really nice time in Florida.  Two weeks with just him and I. We rented a car and he showed me all around Florida and had so many things planned.  I basically wore a bathing suit all the time, just put my hair up in a pony tail and went without make up.  At least he loves me that way. We did do a few things with his family and an uncle from his father’s side from Maine.  His mom likes me and said he was lucky to have me but will be luckier if he can keep me.  She agrees with me, he is immature and needs to give me more time.  I did get him to pay off all his credit card bills and start a savings.  He has a problem with impulse buying though, boys and their video games.  We also had a bit of a problem with exes trying to come back.  He calls me a lot.  I told him I have to get more sleep but he tries keeping me out as late as possible and then calls as soon as he drops me off.  He sends cute little videos of what his day consist of and love text all throughout the day. Most of my friends and co-workers think he is the perfect guy.  People I am not a mushy romantic.  Like many other boyfriends he has jealousy issues.  He is a lot calmer but I wonder if that is why he tries to buy me so many things.  Everyone knows I can’t be bought.  I do love how he keeps the psychos at bay, especially at the clubs. Over all I think he is really great but sometimes it seems he tries too hard.  I don’t want another suck up that will change as soon as the ring is on my finger.  I want to know the real Thomas now.  Sometimes I wish he would just relax and enjoy the time we have together instead of getting all caught up about wanting to get married.  Isn’t it enough I said I would, just not right now.  I think that has been the problem with most of my boyfriends they all got caught up in the future and wanted to press for marriage when all I wanted to do was chill and spend more time getting to know them.  I would like to be better prepared by having a higher paying job I love to do before kids come along and house payments start.  I want him to enjoy being young and doing the things young guys do before he ties himself down with a wife and kids.  I don’t want either one of us to regret we got married too soon.  I never want to feel like that again.  Here are some of the pics from Florida.  Hope you all enjoy them. I have more on my Myspace and his mom took so many more that I am waiting on.  She kept getting shots of us kissing.  I was surrounded by him, his three brothers and the rest of the family.  I felt like the new toy everyone wanted to play with, lol.

A year later....

Well I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. I guess I am really hard to shop for so I got a ton of money this year. Mom hates just giving money so she tried to buy me a few gifts. I got a digital camera. This one is cooler and has more mega pixels than the last. I can now do videos with sound. That was a bad thing when someone did one at a party and my mom looked back on it, lol. New Years was a blast, I guess I missed a few parties, sorry. The last party there was this chic that was really trying to get us to spend the night at her house. Turns out she was trying to set me up with someone. Why can't people get it into their head, I have a boyfriend. No he's not here right now, but I am waiting for him. He comes home in 17 days. I went to dinner with girlfriends and one of their moms. The mom gave all our numbers to the waiter. She told me I still need to date around and not just date one. I am really happy with this one though. He really gets me and believe me that isn't easy to do.

It's been a year since I came home from South Carolina and away from potato-head. Gosh I can't believe I was ever heart broken over it. Look where I am now. I am actually happy. When I came home friends and family took care of me and listened to me cry. Finally the one thing that stuck through my head that my friends all said was he was an idiot. Matt C. couldn't believe he cheated on me, he thought it would be the other way around. People looked at him and wondered why did I want him. I really thought he was a wonderful guy with morals. Back then I guess that was the big attraction for me, someone who said that I could always depend on him. If I ever got scared just hold on to him and he would get me through it. I was terrified of giving up everything I had here and going to a place I knew no one, and didn't know what to expect. I was mentoring in a legal office and was scared of ending up getting a divorce. He said that would never happen because we actually loved each other. A year later I realized the only person you can really depend on in life is yourself. Sometimes you have to grab the bull by the horns walk away and say I made a mistake and now I need to take a different path, even if it means back tracking a little bit. Now if I run across his pictures I can't believe I married him. He is just a bad memory. I hardly remember any of the good times, the bad things he did seem to out weigh any thing good that he did. I don't want to remember him at all. I told mom, I wonder the day he met me did he just walk into that pool hall and say who's life do I want to fuck up today. He just really screwed my life but now I am back on track. My confidence has almost been completely restored. My sarcastic sense of humor and smile have been found. I have this great job working with kids. I get them all running in the office wanting attention. I am in college which I am sure I wouldn't have been if I stayed with him. I just feel like my life has a positive direction. I have my independence and make my own decisions. I have my own money and don't have to ask anyone for anything. My own insurances, my own accounts, my own car, and my own phone. Most of all I have this wonderful, funny, handsome boyfriend that loves me more than anything.

I have to admit that I was ready to break up with him a couple of weeks ago. I had so many doubts going through my head. Everyone talks about how these guys change when they come back. My ex changed when he moved to S.C. He could be transferred, do I really want to move around again and be put through all that crap again? He also wants to get an engagement ring and was talking about buying a house. For awhile I was fine with it, but now that he is coming home it's that much closer. I just got everything back in my name. Everything is going good why screw it up. At first I didn't tell him all my fears and feelings, but he knew there was more to it than what I was telling him. So he just kept calling until I spilt all the beans. He said we don't have to get married until I am ready. He promises he will come back the same goofy Thomas that I love, and maybe we can just look around for a small apartment for now. My doubts make him feel uncomfortable but after I opened up a little more and told him about some of the things the ex put me through he totally understands. I feel kind of stupid when I remember what I let the ex do to me. I don't like to even talk about the ex anymore and I didn't want to give Thomas any ideas of the stuff he could try and pull on me. Thinking about it though, Thomas has given me more reason to trust him. He has already given me his passwords. When we are out he never looks at any other girls, never compares me to them, doesn't talk about my weight, he doesn’t care if I wear make up (he likes me w/o it), and he doesn't talk about his ex girlfriends or compare me to them. In fact he has told the ex girlfriends about me, and even put my pictures up on his myspace. He says he trust me 100% and he doesn't get angry at me when people flirt with me, he just pulls me closer, even when girls hit on him. When shopping for his next car he wants my help picking it out because I will probably drive it sometime, so he wants to make sure it's something I am comfortable driving. He always includes me in all decisions, even talking about where we will move when he gets out. He said if I want to stay here it's fine with him. I thought he would want to go back to Florida, but he says he doesn't care. He has shown that he is not selfish at all. Yeah, I know you all remember independent Karina who wouldn't let any guy pay her way, I didn't like feeling like I owed them anything. Then potato head comes along and I let him buy me everything, but as soon as we got married that man would go out to eat and leave me at home with nothing to eat. One time he said, there is an egg you can fix. Really has anyone ever felt like one egg could resemble anything close to a meal. He took his friends out to eat and shut off my debit card. So now comes along Thomas and I can't get the man to stop buying me things. I got more flowers two weeks ago, with chocolates, balloons, and another teddy bear. Thomas has bought me rings, bracelets, necklaces and I don't know what else is on it's way now. OMG, the flowers were gorgeous, dozen red roses, and over 2 dozen lilies. This is the second time he has sent me flowers. I wish he would save his money for his car. Sometimes it seems like it is all going too fast and the bubble could burst any day. I don't want to get hurt again, I have so many questions running through my head. I need time and I need to stop stressing myself thinking about it too much. I hope he remembers to take everything slow.

My last flowers from Thomas, they came in this crystal vase.

Thomas receiving some medal.

Do you all remember how tall Thomas was compared to me.  Wow these guys must be giants.

Another picture he sent me.

Wow, I'm finally 20.

 Wow xanga did it to me again.  They posted two of my pictures on a picture board and I had somewhere around 500 people look at my site in three days.  Every time they do that it spooks me out a bit.  They used one of my birthday pictures and an old wedding picture from last year when I got married.  Boy that was a real slap in the face having people look back at that picture.

Anyway, yes I turned another year older.  The girls from work took me out to eat.  Then my family took my out for dinner at our favorite Italian restaurant.  Thomas sent me a dozen roses with 6 white lilies, he says I have another gift on it's way and I got the usual money from the rest of the family.  The following Saturday I got a room at the Holiday Inn and invited a bunch of friends over.  It was like my 16 birthday all over but this time the guys got to spend the night also.  While we went swimming and sat in the jacuzzi, there was an ice storm going on outside.  Not as bad as the last one though.  I really had a lot of fun, but hardly any of the girls could show up this time.  Only 2 other girls showed up and the rest were guys.  Hey it was fun, so thanks to everyone that showed up and helped celebrate my birthday.  I will show some pictures.

This last Friday I was on my way home from taking finals and was in a car accident.  It really scared the crap out of me, I really thought I was a goner.  I was on 96 with some idiot in a truck following too close behind me.  My car hit a patch of ice and I hydroplane, so I took my foot off the gas and tried to steer the car out of the swerve.  The idiot behind me apparently hit the same ice patch but he didn't slow down.  He hit the corner of my rear bumper and kept driving on.  The hit sent my car in a tail spin, which is when I started freaking out and thought I was a goner, so many thoughts were going through my head.  Finally my car hit the wall and when I opened my eyes I was turned around and traffic was coming at me.  I thought they were going to hit me, but they all rushed by and honked.  No one stopped to help or see if I was okay.  I managed to turn my car around and came home but my car was driving funny.  I went looking for my phone but couldn't find it, then it started ringing.  It was thrown all the way back to the rear window.  I'm okay, I just have a bruised lump on my thigh where my leg hit the steering wheel.  So dad and mom are looking into repairing my car.  My wheel was cracked and my dent resistant panels popped back into place.  I may be getting my new car before Thomas gets home, who knows.  I haven't really felt like driving.  Matt Kenney came and took me out to eat on Saturday.  On Sunday he took me to swing dance, I had a really good time, and met some wonderful people there.  The car wreck freaked Thomas out and he says this is why he hates being away from me.  This along with the weirdo that followed me in the park frustrates him that he can't be here for me.  I told him next year he will be here though.  He will be here to help celebrate my 21st birthday.  He will be here for Thanksgiving and Christmas, and even New Years, in his words the big holidays.  I hope there is still some snow on the ground when he gets home so we can play in the snow when he gets home.  I told him about the snow fight Bryan, Evan and I got in and he says he wants to play in the snow with me too.  I want to go sledding with him.  Yes, I am missing him even more.  I thought with just 52 days left things would be getting easier, but they are not.  They seem to be getting worse.  It feels like it will never end.  His work schedule has increased so he doesn't have the time to call me as much or write as much.  I don't know how the women that have husbands and boyfriends out on deployment for a year or more do this.  It is seriously hard.  I can't wait to have him in my arms again, to feel his presence around me, and smell his scent.  I miss him so much.  Well here are some pictures enjoy, if I didn't get a shot of you in the pictures we will try again next year, lol.

Jared he didn't swim.

Picture with lil. Jared.

Me and Matt

This is the picture xanga posted. Mario says you can tell I work out.

Matt was hungry.

McKenna eating.

Mario helping himself again, lol.

People just kept putting that camera in my face.

Hoang and I relaxing, she is so cool.

The entertainment.

Mike and Eli enjoying the show.

Bryan, Matt and McKenna, we started watching scary movies.

People started passing out.....

and someone was still putting that camera in my face.