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Name: Little
Gender: Female
Interests: Teaching, Sports, Acting and Church.
Expertise: I have been told that i am good @ saying things in such a way that they strike home w/ who i am talking to, and i get more things in my faith than some people @ my age normally would.
Occupation: Being a Kid!
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Member Since:
7/28/2007
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| Dear God...... thanks for today... just layin around the house... haha dancing and being crazy.... such a great day.... i love you.... and i pray for teen week.... i know that everyone has a purpose for being there.... i pray it truly brings us all closer together. brings out unexpected friendships... give people confidence in our y0outhgroup.... to feel like EVERYONE belongs.... not just the couple people that hang out... because i mean, there is abotu 50 other people there that need to feel that way.... i pray that we all come together... and sit differently at lunch... and reach out to people we wouldnt usually see or spend time with..... i hate seeing people on the edges.... we ALL want to be there..... not just the kids that feel comfortable..... i pray that we all get more personal with You.... and learn to see You in the simple, little things... not JUST the TAWG times and devos... although i want to lift those up too... to be honest, i am real real sad that this is the last year at Little Prarie... i have seen, and felt You alongside me ALOT there..... grown so much at that camp... its sad taht we're gonna have to leave.... sigh...... oh well..... i pray that this is the deepest, most amazing last year there. i pray for all of the cabin leaders, they have more influence than they know. i pray for Tim and Sue, help it to not just be happy clappy stuff.... we all need something deeper than that. i pray that they understand the right activities and stuff to bring us closer to each other, and to You. i pray for the interns.... help Jeff to learn alot from thsi trip. he is gonna be an AWESOME youth minister someday. help him to really grow in any area that he needs to be a better man for You. i pray for our devos... i pray that we all come with the right mindset and heart to praise You... i pray that we show up to camp with open minds, and hearts... and listen to You... only You....
i love You, God. You have my full permission to use me at any time, today, or at camp. i am here. i love You.
and in Jesus Holy name-amen
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| Dear God........ i am so wiped out......... what a long long day....a good one, but so So SO long...... i love you........ thanks for today........ thanks for the patience You granted me.......... haha i could have lost it......... i pray for Brock....... that kid i met in the park today....... i pray he has a good summer.......... and that his parents love him....... and tell him, and show him that they are proud of him on a daily basis........ he is a good kid.... i pray that he has found You........ and Your love........as he goes on with his life......... haha and i'll probably never see him again........ thanks for giving me the gift of making kids laugh..... and being crazy........ i am glad i could make him smile..... thanks for using me......... i love You, God. i am so tired.... talk to You in the shower, okay? night....... again, full permission to use me.....in any way....... whether it makes sense to me or not...whether its easy for me or not....... i love You........ please use me, and all Your other believers, to show Your love to the world......... and in Jesus name-amen | | |
| Dear Father.... i dont want to be here any more.... i dont mean living, i just mean..... in this position. now that i am starting to sort of feel emotions.... trying my hardest to recognize them.... its starting to hurt...... real bad...... cause it is going right through that stone barrier...... to the part that hurts..... God...... i dont know..... this is going to be tough..... i am not a hard person...... naturally.... its not how You made me...... but its what i have turned myself into...... i feel like my entire life is one big smile and nod...... not really paying any attention...... and everything just bounces off of me....... i dont even want to write right now..... and have to process or think about any of this..... but i need to stop running away... i need to face it.... and get through it..... so i am gonna keep writing.... God one thing that hurts is having my two greatest friends in the youthgroup leaving...... Adreena...... and Lindsey...... Holy Father, i love them....... so So SO much...... i dont even like to think about it........ Adreena...... haha Mullet...... Adge...... whatever...... i am gonna miss her so much..... God, she has been there for me.... she never felt the need to pry into my life...... she knew that things were there...... and she has just wanted to love me..... she didnt care about what was there...... all the crap...... all the dumb stuff i have said or done..... she just has loved me..... and helped me out in a way that alot of people have NOT...... she has hung out with me..... and spent alot of fun time with me... laughing together...... just doing crazy, cheap stuff together..... too many good times..... and she has taught me alot... whether she knew it or not....... she has such the right heart about things......... she is NOT about putting on a show...... she loves God... yeah, but she doesnt need to showcase it to the world...... in a show-offy way...... you know? shes just so....... humble. and accepting. and she really values the people in her life. i pray that she has rubbed off on me. that would be such a huge honor. Lindsey...... oh, Lindsey..... i can never question that You have blessed me God, when You put someone like THAT into my life...... i love Lindsey....... so so so much........ she is like a sister.... a TRUE sister........ i have a feeling she'd stick by me through anything...... and i love her unconditionally...... she's been through crap.... and she is not afraid to share her struggles..... and what she has learned from them...... she DROPS THE MASK...... she is a REAL person...... one of the few at our youthgroup, sometimes........ she has been there for me, when no one else has...... i love her...... oh, i love her..... she knows when to talk...... and when to listen......... and when she would help me out..... she had such the right heart about it..... she didnt ever look down on me...... she never judged me.. she just genuinely cared for, and felt sorry for me...... and did her best to help out..... in any way that she could..... she puts her words into action..... she MEANS everything she says..... i cant explain what she has done for me, God...... what she is STILL doing for me...... everyday...... she has absolutely NO idea the amazing impact she makes in alot of peoples lives...... she is so fun, and silly, and spontaneous sometimes...... talking about Twilight for 4 hours, or going to Target together, or her taking me on my first TP...... but she also knows when to be serious...... she is so caring, and loving, and kind........ she ALWAYS would talk to me if i was upset...... she was so patient.... everytime i have opened up to her at a devo..... she has always been there for me. i am gonna have the hardest time letting her go. i dont want to tell her that, we will still be good friends, but...... you know. its not the same. Summer is too short. especially when you know you have a limited amount of time to be this close to the ones that you love so so much. i love them both, God. that is never going to change. i pray for both of these amazing women as they head off to college. i have learned alot from both of them. they have both done things for me i will never forget. you have used both of them in ALOT of people's lives. one thing that they both have in common is trying to truly be accepting to the people that usuallly wouldnt be noticed, or fit in. i love them. oh so much, Father. please, let us stay good friends all our lives. i never want to let these two awesome people go. wherever they go...... whatever they do....... whatever decisions they make........ i will always love them. someitmes i think more than they know. i need to make sure i tell them this at teen week or something...... they both deserve to know the impact they have made in my life, and in alot of other peoples lives too. i pray that they have fun on their trip, i am SO glad they are gonna get to go and have a fun time together!!! i pray that it is filled with fun, and laughs.... and good memories that they will remember for when they graduate..... i love them, God. give them the best summer of their lives. and in Jesus name- amen | | |
| Holy Father.... OOO MYYY GOODNESS. thank you so much for summer.... i have talked to You so much.... and i dont have time to write on here all the blessings youve put in my life, even just since i last wrote on here.... but the main thing i want to say thank You for is my TAWG time in that stain-glass sanctuary on the mission trip.... Father God, i dont think i have ever in my life felt closer to You. thank You. i needed that more than i thought i did.... to admit that i dont just love You, its not just nice to have You there, i dont just want You.... Dad i NEED You. i mean it. i pretend like i can handle everything that is thrown at me.... it took that experience to show me that i cant. no matter how hard i try. i NEED YOU. and when i started talking... at some points shouting to You how much i hated some things in my life.... i thought about all the mental and emotional exhaustion i have been feeling.... and that one verse... Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest.... Father, i almost cried for the first time in years.... i ALMOST let it all go..... and then You tried to get through to me another way.... as i was thinking about how stressful it is to carry all this around... You turned my mental and emotional exhaustion in to physical exhaustion...... i KNOW that was from You, because i had just been sitting there, i had no reason to be tired like i was.... my muscles started feeling like they had been lifting something for a LONG time.... and i felt worn out.... and it hit me..... how many things i needed to get rid of..... because i was just so.... so..... so tired..... so i walked up the aisle of the church..... from the very back seat.... staring at the cross from a distance.... to the front.... right below it..... alll the way up the aisle i just let go..... let go of everything that was holding me back from fully coming to You.... i said- God, i let go of my pride.... i let go of my control.... i let go of pretending i can handle all this.... i let go of my fake strength...... i let go of my stone barrier around my heart.... i let go of the mask...... i let go of all my hurt i have buried in me..... i let go of all the times i wish i was able to cry.... and then i got down on my knees...... in front of that cross.... and just praised who You are..... not only what Youve been for me...... but even if You didnt know me...... You are an awesome God. just Your character.... who You are.... is just........ love. there is no other word that fits it better.... and i sang a couple songs to You...... FULLY meaning the words...... and then i had to leave after a bit....... cause we had evening ceremony....... but when i left...... i didnt say amen...... because that wasnt over......... i wanted to keep praising You.... not in the same way, maybe...... but with my life..... my actions....... and when i went to the ceremony.... oh man...... i felt like..... haha this is so cheesy... i felt like i was glowing.... nothing inside to hide..... i felt.... clean. relieved. loving. happy. no, scratch that..... joyful.
and then they asked if we had had any God sightings that day..... WOW...... i wanted to get up there, take the mike and tell everyone of what You had done for me.... but i didnt...... God. thank You.
that was the most life changing time, and i thank You for it. i love You. You have my full permission to use me, in the lives of people close to me, or people i will never see again in my life. i love You God.
and in Jesus name- amen
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| Dear God..... hey..... just gonna say a prayer for the devos that are gonna be led at camp..... give all the CITers the words to speak to these kids....... so that it makes sense.... and that they really just take it to heart..... come with an open mind........ start preparing them now, Father..... start preparing everyone involved..... help us to really be good examples for these kids to look up to... God, i want to pray for the devo me and Jonathan are gonna lead...... well, were not really communicating very well.... i tell him what i want to do, and he just comes up with something completely different and doesnt really talk to me about it, he also just EXPECTS me to follow along.. help us to work well together.... because it IS the last devo of the week.... please just speak through both of us.....
i love You, God. right when i least expect it You put great relationships into our lives to save us and make life tons more exciting... thank You.... i love You....
You have my entire permission to just use me, at camp or not....
and in Jesus name- amen
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