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Name: Amanda
Country: United States
State: Texas
Gender: Female
Interests: singing, acting, soccer, piano, shopping, whatever....
Expertise: not enough space lol yeah right
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/26/2003
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| i never write in this anymore and will probably shut it down soon but something really got to me and i must vent. not like anyone reads anyway but regardless, i will vent and hopefully feel better. where do people get off pretending like they know other people? just because you read a persons profile, their journal, and hear the biased lies i'm sure your friends told you, you think you can make a truly heinous judgement about them. you know what i don't even care that you made that judgement but the fact that you go and tell other people about that judgement that you made is completely wrong. you think you hear everything but if you were good at arguing at all, you'd realize your resources were biased ones. i can't go into to how many things are wrong and hypocritical about your arguement. people just think they know a person or a person's relationship just from what they hear and don't stop to think about the fact that, huh i bet the other side of that relationship would probably sound different and maybe i shouldn't be so close minded that i won't even listen to the other side. i'm not saying i haven't probably done some of the same things but at least i've realized my mistakes. so you go ahead call me names tell all the friends i'm a stupid bitch or whatever, but i don't have to go around reading people's journals and profiles trying to justify myself. | | |
| alright i know i haven't had an entry in a while and i'm totally going to cop out and be super emo and just put song lyrics. sorry i just really love this song.
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
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| saw carmen tonight - amazing - got a cool shirt. opera really is impressive but geez it's long and looks pretty hard. I'm really excited about my opera scenes program. when you think about it, there's a lot less moving going on during the actually arias but singing those arias is a lot harder than a musical song. i guess that's why they expect you to dance more for musical solos ... cough *ms. k* cough. still i think the scenes program is a nice way for me to ease into doing a whole opera. I'm doing two scenes. One is a duet between me and this guy named john holiday from one of the first operas by monteverdi, The coronation of Poppea. I'm poppea, he's a counter tenor, the whole thing sounds pretty cool. The other scene I'm a chorus girl but it's from the opera mikado but the scene is the "three little maids of school are we." pretty popular song but we're doing it ghetto style and we're all members of a super ghetto performing arts high school and our dancing is slutty and ghetto and fun. Our director said it'd be the best part of the show. It's May 1st and 2nd starting at 8 pm if anyone who could come would like to come. It's probably free and my parentals are also coming that weekend so if you can, please do come.
I can't believe my first year of college is almost over ... in a way I'm almost relieved ... but then again there are 3 more years and then probably 2 years of grad school. There are so many things I want to do. I want to travel with my friends, I want to possibly study abroad in the summer, I want to take a job as a singing counselor for a large part of the summer. I can't really do any of these things this summer ... I'll have a real job and I can't just up and leave ... well I shouldn't because I'm practically broke. ugh money is awful ... sometimes it seriously appears to be the solution to all problems when it's really just the cause of them. all my friends talk about how many figures they'll see when they graduate. I'd love to tell them to keep dreaming because they're going to be a recent college grad which usually means garbage but honestly, these people have already got the connections to jump head first into a job they won't totally be prepared for or deserve and make way to much money doing it. Then there are the realists that admit to being poor upon graduation but making lots of money later in life. I'm one of the few that admits to being poor for probably a long time. Whatever happened to having careers we generally enjoy? Yeah being an opera singer is going to be hella hard on me and even more so on the people around me. Regardless, I'll love every crappily paid minute of it. So you can have your 6 figures. I may struggle to get by, but I will generally love every minute of what I do. Money may buy a bit of happiness, but it can't buy that much. Money is so over. | | |
| ok ... i'm sorry if this is going to offend anybody ... you know what, no. i'm not sorry. i hold my tongue for certain elements of this activity but this ... this is unexcusable. I am allergic to cigarette smoke and I realize i have a bigger aversion to it than others. I have friends that smoke and I'm not going to preach to them not to because it's their choice, their life. BUT if you even had a thought that maybe you'd like to have a career in singing of the operatic sort, what kind of idiot are you that you smoke? I found out two singers that I really admire here smoke on a regular basis and it just blew my mind. I understand you could probably make it as a country singer, rap, and even broadway singer and still smoke. Some people like that rattly character voice. But if you honestly thought you'd get ahead in the hardest profession in the world by smoking .... you must be on more than cigarettes. How dare you ruin your gift and your chances of success not to mention hundreds of thousands of dollars that's going towards your education just to indulge yourself. It's so selfish and just one of the stupidest things i have ever heard of. seeing people like this tells me they don't care about their body and they aren't even serious about what they do. it's sort of impossible to not be serious about this when we're talking about so much money, years, and your life on the line each time you smoke. I guess it's better for me because i just know now there will be less competitiion. i could go on but i'll spare you. it's just hard to respect those who dont respect themselves | | |
| sooo i haven't written one of these in a while. I was asked to do it more than just every now and then. Lots has happened since I've been here. I finally got to change dorms and everything so far is great. I live in the same building as most of my friends, the bathroom is right across the hall (It may be community but it is a BAJILLION times nicer than the suite bathroom I used to have), the sink in my room has multitudes of hot water, my roommate is really nice, my room looks really cute, and it's huge. Not to mention I have all 4 bars of service in the study and in my actual bedroom! so wonderful. Oh yeah did I mention CABLE?! for the first time ever, I, Amanda Walker, have cable. Patrick says it'll be the greatest thing that ever happens to me but I thought if that really was the greatest thing that ever happened to me that my life might be really lame. I figured success in my career might be better than 40 extra channels. I'm turning into my father about the tv thing. Good work dad. ugh oh well. OUAM was phenomenal and I really really enjoyed watching all my little Seniors kicking major ass up on stage. Very well cast and very well performed. Everyone did an amazing job. I also have to send out a special congratulations to a one CARI LASALA for snagging the lead in Lapis Blue, Blood Red the UIL play. I am so proud of you babe, you totally deserved and earned this, and I TOLD YOU SO!  I'll have to come down to see that one as well. If ya'll make it to state Logan and I can come and then Cari can really meet BT hehehe. Here are some pictures of the new room ...
 That is the study for the suite. You walk in through the door and that's what you see
 That's my desk turned sideways
 That is when you go through the door to my roommate's and my room
 That is my bed (very pink i'm aware)
 My bed and the dresser with the tv
 and my closet. The sink's to the left of the closet against a wall. You can see it in the picture i took of the whole room through the door.
Lots to do all of the time. Work work work. I come home this weekend to spend valentines day with logan and then two weekends later is my cousins wedding (lol) and then two weekends after that is spring break (woooo!) looking forward to that and to cari coming to visit! ok i guess that's all. I hope that was more of a real entry that my past ones .. i hope.
later
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