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Friday, July 18, 2008

  • Aging

    The more things change, the more things stay the same.  I recently said this to someone:

    "When you were younger, you didn't listen to me because you didn't want to.
    Now, you don't listen to me because you can't remember what I said."

Thursday, May 29, 2008

  • "I Survived a Japanese Game Show"

    Premieres Tues June 24 on ABC.  9-10 pm ET.

    Some of the games/challenges will include --

    • WHY IS THIS FOOD SO HARD TO EAT: Why? Because the food is attached to the head of one teammate who must run in place on a fast-moving treadmill, while the other teammate leans over a platform trying to eat from the moving dish.
    • CRAZY CRANE FINDS FLUFFY BEAR: This takes the American arcade game to the next level as blindfolded teammates must operate a moving crane while another teammate precariously dangles trying to collect as many stuffed animals as they can.
    • CHICKEN BUTT SCRAMBLE: The contestants create their own version of Japanese Scrambled eggs as they attempt to smash goo-filled over-sized eggs with only their butts&while wearing chicken suits. This unscripted reality/game show takes an eye-opening, behind-the-scenes look at 10 Americans who are whisked away to Japan and compete in the ultimate Japanese game show

Sunday, May 18, 2008

  • Jealousy Junk

    Our conversation last night touched on multiple issues.  Read from left to right.

    Liz

    Al

    Why is the TV more attractive than me?  You prefer to watch TV over being with me.

    It was never a matter of choosing between the two.  It was only when you made it a choice, did it become an issue.

    But I want to spend time with you…

    I was planning on watching TV with you

    It’s not the same.  I don’t want to be next to you while you gaze at something else.  Do you remember when I was sewing that stuffed animal for my friend, and you were jealous of my attention on the stuffed animal?

    I wasn’t jealous of the toy, I was jealous that you were making the toy for another guy.

    Wha???  It was for a younger-brother/friend.

    How would you feel if I made a toy for someone else?

    You HAVE.  You made those toys for your entire small group.

    But what if I made it for just one girl in my small group?

    …........... I don’t know….

    You see!!!  It’s special.  That’s why I was jealous.

    Yeah, but you also get jealous over some weird stuff.  Like when I wear a T-shirt with Dr. Wilson’s face on it.  (Dr. Wilson is a super-funny pharmacy law professor at PU)

    It’s another man's face on your bosom.

    Oh... my... gosh.  Are you serious?  Okay, fine.  It’s fine with me if you wear another woman’s face on your bosom.

    I’ll wear it on my crotch.

    HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

     

Saturday, April 26, 2008

  • Uncertain reply

    In a bible study, we were talking about being lukewarm Christians.  “So, because you are lukewarm – neither hot nor cold – I am about to spit you out of my mouth.” Revelation 3:16.  I shared about how understandable that is, because similarly, I think that a wishy-washy man is revolting.  To my surprise, a bunch of ladies raved in agreement.  Then I shared about a part of Ranma ½ where Akane & Shampoo were fighting over doing a 3-legged race with Ranma.  Ranma couldn’t decide, so both girls tied their ankles with his on each side, and took off running at full blast.  When the path diverged into 2 directions, they each took off for a different direction and a pole hit Ranma between the legs.  *laughing, wiping tear from eye*

    But y’know… there’s something to be learned from this from multiple standpoints.  At the time, I was applying this to my spiritual walk, pointing out how revolting wishy-washiness is.  From a relational perspective, it’s definitely not an attractive feature in a man… probably because it shows that he is not a good leader in the relationship.  How can a woman respect, follow, and support a man who can’t make up his mind?  Conversely, how can a man sense devotion from a woman who can’t decide whether or not she wants to be with him?  To both questions, you can’t.  Is it necessary for the other to know their future, their 5-year plan?  Of course there’s no guarantee of anything in the future, but you can focus on a goal and aim and work towards it.  In a lot of manga/anime, there’s usually a character that has his/her eyes focused on a goal, and they want to give all they have to reach that goal.  He/she’s always looking forward, with a steady gaze.  And someone else usually gazes at that character and is charmed, inspired.  In “One Piece”,  Luffy’s friends are drawn to him and develop faith in him, against all odds.  In Kare Kano, that’s what attracts Soichiro to Yukino.  And in endless shojo manga, a girl has a crush on guy #1, and guy #2 falls for girl, coveting that devoted, steady gaze of hers.  If 2 people are in the middle of a dark room, it’d be great if the guy would take the girl’s hand and lead her out, even if they fumble.  But if the girl leads, she feels like a mom… and not in a good way.

    So… where will you be in 5 years?  Al & I are uncertain where we’ll be in 5 years, but here’s some ideals: living close-yet-comfortably far from family, Al working in MSK for a group and possibly dabbling in academia, Al possibly exploring medical illustration, and me happily retired.  Orrrr… me developing new medical systems, writing Christian manga, maybe in fashion design school.  I want my cake and to eat it, too!  Will we actually be there?  Who knows?  Maybe a freak accident will make one of us blind and out of work.  If that’s that case, though it would be difficult, I’m confident the other would step up to meet needs, whilst the other acclomates, reworking life goals.  More likely than this, I’ll just flip out and decide to retire and become a total otaku while Al has to work & raise kids & walk dogs.  Nyah-hahaha…. But who knows, maybe I’ll try to go for Project Runway season 9 and become famous.  In the end, it doesn’t matter.  We just know that we can trust each other, that we’re both trying to make the wisest decisions we can, and that we would love to accomplish our own or each other’s goals.  The neat thing is how our interests have developed and overlap in such an intricate web.  I never expected such personal growth & development within 2 years of marriage.  Pretty cool, huh?  Marriage is awesome.  I don't even remember my life before marriage.  Dang, why do I keep quoting manga????

Saturday, April 12, 2008

  • Creative Insecurities & Inspirations

    I posted a few videos of Connersvine.  It's a 2-man (Chris & Hunter) group that have suprisingly touched me. 

    Chris:  musical mastermind.  He blogged about his creative insecurities.  Coming from someone who writes such beautiful music, I was suprised.  Too often, I struggle with my own creative insecurities, and often come to the conclusion, "Hey, I'm pretty smart with good instincts.  If I have strong insecurities, then there's gotta be some truth to it."  I still want to write (good) Christian comics, but know that my drawings are still lacking.  Greater than that is the fear of writing a bad/lame story.  Even greater than that is my fear of pouring out hidden thoughts into those stories.  When you create something, you pour part of yourself into that creation.  When you share it with the world, everyone can see... you.  I hate being vulnerable, being weak.  Not that the two are equivalent, but the combination is a very scary place to be.  I want to be strong, secure.  But the paradox is simply this:  people are drawn to and relate to genuineness, while enjoying critiquing everything.  So in order to reach out to people, I need to also expose myself to their criticism.  That's very... scary.  It's a relationship - the closer you let people in, the more power they have to hurt you.  Chris's blog was encouraging, because I also have a hard time showing Al my stuff.

    Hunter:  punter for the Colts.  I can only imagine how often he's called "Hunter the Punter."  Also amazing at writing lyrics.  Seeing him be able to do two completely different careers, NFL football & music, while raising a family, was also really encouraging.  It's not just two careers, but he's extremely good at both (though not big in music yet).  I want to be good at pharmacy informatics & be creative with comics/fashion.

    Oh yeah... fashion.  Maybe it's just a phase, maybe it's something real, but I'm tossing around the possibility of taking some fashion design classes later.