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Friday, July 14, 2006

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 15:20:09 GMT

Unbelievable! It's been nearly two and half years since my last entry... well, let the game begin once again~

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 14:58:52 GMT

we cry a little and laugh a little each day. sometimes we can be pretty easily hurt by the others' indiffenrece, coldness, rudeness, or maliciousness, and yet our hearts are saved by one warm smile from a stranger on the street or a pat on the back by a friend or loved ones. our daily lives go up and down. sometimes i wonder, why can't we all be happy every single moment of the day? answer: there wouldn't be sweetness if not for bitterness.

Friday, January 23, 2004

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 00:59:07 GMT

Happy New Monkey Year to everyone!! And Liz's back in business, hohoho... Believe or not, I've been doing a little self reflection today. Well, being in Boston, away from Ann Arbor (where I spent the past 4.5 years) and all, also means new self discoveries. One thing I noticed about myself is my lack of enthusiasm to make new friends in a strange environment. After talking with an old friend, we agreed that we've lost our interest in starting the arduous process all over just to really get to know a person. True enough,it takes a lot of effort and trust to evolve a friendship from the total strangers stage. Contradicting my usual slef, I found myself shying away from the crowd when Ming showed me around in his friends' parties. Perhaps, as we become older, prejudices and stubborness increase as well. We don't easily agree with the others and our views of the others are easily influenced by our prejudices. As I ventured a conversation with some of his friends, I'd be thinking self-consiously, "Hum, do I sound intellegent enough? Do they find me interesting? Does my hair look OK?" It was hard as hell to believe in Liz, yes, myself! Moments of figidy and unconfortability led me to doubting my decision in moving to Boston. I started questioning myself and then losing grasp of the big picture. I've come to start an adventure, to develop a closer knit with Ming, for I deem our relationship worth such a, what my friends called, irrational try. Everyone must've experienced moments of self-doubt. They've been more pronounced nowadays in Liz's jorney. Perhaps that's why I tried to find something I believe strongly enough to hold on to in such uncertain moments. A purpose? Religion? Love? A dream? Well, I can't answer that just yet. Somehow, in the back of all these clouds and hesitation, friends back home show amazing moral support. Never realized that even a word of encouragement from home or friends means so much to me. Hope, friendship, family, love and laughters shall sustain me and I'm glad for their existance~ Ming, thank u also for putting up with me when the fits hit, hehehe : ] Yawn, well, it's time for bed. And yes, I've found something to work on for the new year... til next time, take care everybody!

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Tue, 05 Aug 2003 23:42:35 GMT

Yo Michelle, how's life over there? Oh yah, Xiun Yi, just in case you're also reading this, I wanna say hi to ya too :O) Well, Boston's been quite adventurous these past couple days. Been into the ER cos of urethral infection. Not too much fun I tell ya. The 5 hr waiting alone is enough to drive you crazy. Hum, aside from being driven nuts, it also gave you the frenatic urge to have like a major reform in America's health care system. I think this is one of the few countries that doesn't include a national health plan. Which means poor pple like you and me can hardly afford to go to the hospitals. Anywho, I also wanna use this opportunity to announce my whole-hearted gratitude for my dear b-f, who had taken such good care of me, it makes me want to cry . Yes Ming, couldn't have survived those gruesome hours without ya! Okies, aside from that, we did the grocery shopping for the next three days... yay, tomollo me gonna fry shrimps *ahhh, heaven!* Well, hope you loyal readers out there had a wonderful day also, cos everyday is another day to celebrte.

Nite everybody, til next time, take care~

Monday, July 28, 2003

Mon, 28 Jul 2003 14:42:30 GMT

Brad had really inspired me into this whole train of thinking last night (p.s. who'd know I have that many hight owl friends. Everybody seems to be up even after 2am...or maybe I'm just getting old, hahaha). My disbelief was apparent when he remarked how much he missed Ann Arbor. Well, I truly thought he was all thrilled to start school in Aug at GTown. Anybody would. Hell, I'd pay to get out of this boring, little town. His total antipathy really took my by surprise. Now, I know it is pretty hard to get to like a place without knowing anybody there; I also can see why everything is un-godly expensive over there; I can even sympathize with their less advanced hardware in school. But all of that could make one miss Ann Arbor?? U gotta be kidding me!! Now, now let's stop my impulsive brain and cool for a minute here. Actually this morning I did see a bunch of old tourists taking our amicable blue buses up to the north campus that I'm so sick and tired of (feels like I've spent my lifetime camping "in" that place--fear not. fellow freshman readers out there; it took me 3 years to acquuire such aversion). This means, contrary to popular belief, our school is "cool". And as I ambled toward my lab and spotted a race biker on the road, it reminds me that, "hey, this learning place ain't so bad after all."

Saturday, July 26, 2003

Sat, 26 Jul 2003 19:31:00 GMT

yah, well, due to the request of my dear friend michelle, better get it rolling here, hehehe. hum, lemme see what i've done here today. hum, nothing spectacular. went to the ems to buy a fleese--yesh, for all those ardent readers out there (which i'm sure is only you michelle, hehe)--the place is going outa business, which means everything 50% off. so go grab sth if they still got any left.

btw, this is a cool quote by Kierkegaard:

"To venture in the highest sense is precisely to become conscious of one's self..."

Friday, July 18, 2003

Fri, 18 Jul 2003 15:08:05 GMT

Yawn, nothing to write yet