| "I'll be missing you..."
"I'll be there for you..."
blah blahs:
just like to wish everyone once agen.. happy holidays =) and a great nu year! its great to have great frends.. whose always there for ya wen ur down in da dirt.. all "dum-eh" and shit.. lol.. and whose always there to cheer ur up every damn day.. just makes me wanna smile.. heh.. thank u guys and gurls for everything and for the happiness you granted upon me.. i realli apprieciate it.. u may have noticed i do not give a lot of gifts since i hav a problem wit money.. but for all the things that ppl have done for me.. im hoping next year that my gift giving problem wont be a repeat.. im sry for not giving anything to whom i consider as a frend or even aquiantance.. no one has to give me anything for xmas except for ur frendship and appreciation to my frendship towards all of u.. thank you.. domou arigatou gouzaimasu =).. anyways here are my list of random memories throughout the year and my resolutions.. =)
random memories of 2004:
-random chillage wit the cru at allens or my house
-WATER WARS 2004! winner: guys =)
-running around in the snow wit nothing but a shirt on.. lol
-MAGICAL STAFF! hahahahahah
-roof climbing wus a big hit!
-able to climb main roof and jump off it! like naruto ^.^
-MORNING MUSUME OBSESSION!
-SMTOWN RE-OBSESSION!
-girl needing problems.. lol
-swimming parties galore -=0o
-Sleeping at olans .. and was exploited at that oppurtunity.. all on videotape..
-basketball camp wus gay.. (got an award for mr. hustle!)
-HAHA! we actually planned a jog consisting of more than 4 ppl hahaha
-During that "jogging" phase.. we found a little kitten that we named KITTY! (BONER) but had to be givin back to the owner a couple of days later.. (we saved his/her life from ticks!)
-MORE swimming parties!
-Diving in the water never gets tiring..
-DAMN DUDE! drunk as hell at ellisons a couple of times.. (ESPECIALLY LEO!!! HAHAHAH!!!
-skateboard phase.. nani? da hell happnd to dat? hahah
-DDR phase.. nani? da hell happnd to dat? hahah
-from rap and rnb to alternative to j-pop to j-rock to punk and now.. to realli slow k-pop and j-pop.. lol wow..
-MARIANNE's SWT 16!
-MARIANNE's SWT 16 practices!!
-getting lost finding jay's performance sumwhere near the meadowlands and almost winning to sum smart filipino chess player named nonoy.. lol
-daisies.. heheheheheheheeh..
-HEHEHEHEHHEH!
-"lmao.. dude urs is gray.."
-"lmao.. dude urs is crooked.."
-CS on and off..
-random visits at bfield
-the BIG so calld Battle that never happnd..
-partees =)
-ANDREA LOVES EVERYONE! =)
-Deidre's Swt 16 which blew me away! -=0o
-THE REAL WORLD MARIANNE's HOUSE hahahha
-Me and Jay as co-workers in Dunkin Donuts // Baskin Robbins.. (lol and we were so excited to getting the job! lol)
nel:
-Driving!!
-random stupid shit dat got me in trouble but i still love him lol
-pron
-he wus my dunkin donuts training partner!
-money doners!
-tried to teach me to do bad stuff..
-bad influence.. =)
-crip walk!!
-and gangsta talking shizzy..
-doo on da roof.. LMAO!!
-giving nicknames to practically everyone we noe
-the masta chefs of cake! (ur slackin off!! maan!! ur slackin off!! ur not my frend anymore!!)
sorry if i left any out.. but if u noe of any memories u had with me in the year 2004.. plz feel free to comment it in! =)
The Top 10 Resolutions of 2005:
1. Dont hesitate.. just dont.. chukisho!
2. Able to learn some japanese
3. Find out a career and stay with it
4. Stay determined
5. Learn to start saving
6. Learn to stop spending
7. Get Muscle Mass and Definition
8. 6 Pack Abs is a must
9. Lengthen Hair
10. Just have fun!
Happy Everything to all =)
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| Lyrics:
this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
this is my december
these are my snow covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all i need
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to
Merry Xmas Eve! |
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| lyrics:
I feel an emptiness inside
A part of me already died
When I pretended to go on
Like everything's okay
Then all we built began to fall
As I began to lose it all
I shut my eyes to set me free
'Cause I was scared to see
That we weren't who we used to be
words:
heh. its been a crazy weekend. on friday i went to such a great sweet 16, then on sat i went to birthday gurl jess's party wit yummy empanada. nd today, non-stop naruto wit jojo. heh. its been great. but wen i say it, it seems like dunt realli mean it. yes it has been one of the best times of my life, but if it is, usually i wud be happy and smiley. but today i havnt been. sigh, i dunno wuts wrong wit me. nd christmas is gettin ever so close. wth is wrong wit me?! maybe its just i phase, or maybe its sumthin deep inside me i cant explain. but its pissing me off since ive been gettin it quite frequently. and now ive become very very lazy and its pissing me off that i have such a low level of determination. heh. and i say to myself, im gonna do dis, i can do dis.. den give up.. now wtf.. errr. sigh.. but wut can i do. even if i try to change myself.. i get lazy and stop. and u noe wut, i think i did change.. but not to the way i wanted to. ive become:
-less logical
-less interesting
-less social
-less entertaining
-less self-sacrificing
-less caring
-less helpful
-less reliable
-less confident
-less motivated
and it sickens me dat i changed into such a.. person. sigh. i guess its a phase, but i hope dis phase isnt permanent. and i hope i cud change nd become to the andru i use be.
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| layout: Sasuke's Revenge v1
song lyrics (posting it up cuz it means sumthin to me..):
I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
this place is so empty
my thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
nothing could ever be so wrong
it's hard to believe me
it never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
blahs:
-god.. 152 // 240 in PSATs.. ew..
-ups nd downs in life -=0.
-track is doin swell.. seein a little progress =)
-dam naruto downloads takin too slow..
-AAAHH naruto!!
-hacky sack baby.. =)
-honors art society.. o.0
-other crap .. yea..
-now go and listen to the song and contemplate just like me -=0.
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| track spinnin:
Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Haruka Kanata (The Far Far Side)
grades:
(bold means bad..)
English: B-
Chemistry: B+
History: C+ (gay..)
Algebra: A-
Tech Graphics: A+
JAVA: A
Gym: A
isnt dat gay?
updatez:
-joind indoor track (i better get fcukin built..)
-trying in skool now..
-NARUTO!!!
-dad is annoying..
-Jrock ownz..
-figuring out ways to exploit chakra..
-stuffing myself wit chinese food..
-no more spikes.. goin for old skool asian split..
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