So I've decided that xanga is almost dead enough that if I were to actually want to write something of deep personal significance and post it here (as opposed to the more trivial "here's what's going on in my life" sort of deal), I could do it without fear of repercussions.  Almost.  

Seriously, though, my personal life has been quite the trip lately.  You couldn't tell from the mundane goings-on of my day-to-day routine (although Elias was home on Spring Break last week, which made me happy), but things are happening.  God is at work, provoking my mind to questions and realizations, most of which are not brand-new, but hey.  I'm a slow learner.  Something God's been impacting on my heart lately is the concept that holiness has to be for God.  Not to impress other people, not to cover your own back, not even for the good of yourself or other people.  To differing extents, holiness can and should do all of the above (except maybe impress people).  But it has to proceed from a true love for God and an earnest desire to do His will just because He wants you to.  It's all interwoven, even in my own mind, but I know my focus has been off.

Anyway, enough devotional-style ranting.  I know people don't generally care to read online sermons, so I'll stop now.  On a more concrete level of happenings, I'm getting a car this Friday, after about a month of driving my Grandma's car after my Olds' transmission died.   A mechanic I know is picking out something from an auction, so I don't even know what I'm getting yet . . . scary stuff.  But life is good, and having one's own transportation is even better.