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Sunday, October 08, 2006

  • Wow... its been a long time since I've been here. Yeah life is shitty right now. I've never been so depressed in my life. I feel like there isnt any point in school, that drama has lost its fun, and that every thing is so tedious right now that I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. There have been times lately that I wish this would all just end, but that just seems to drag things out longer. If only I could do something about all my problems. Unfortunatly, I can't. All my problems of late need someone else to fix them, and I really hate being out of control of my life. I keep thinkin about solutions to it all and there doesn't seem to be one. Yea...Anyway other than that, not much has happened. I'm failing Calc, who would have ever guessed that one. All my friends execpt for Adam, Sarah, Evan, Kristen, and Brandon I've alienated myself from. 

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

  • Griffinology is over, school has ended, my car got hit, my phone got jacked, im still workin, and thats the end of my complaining. I'm still sortin stuff out in my mind. This has been kinda on my mind for a while, but it seems like i just cant 1) get over in or 2) do somethin about it. you would think after six months of wonderin what the hell was goin on with me i would have made some progress but it just seems like there isnt any answer in sight. I've started writing some of my feelings down, but, ha, you'll never see them. By the way, any one who knows what im talking about is more than welcome to give some advise but, yeah. I'm gonna Miss all the seinors that are leavin, i really wish that you could stay.

    ~Matt

Thursday, December 29, 2005

  • k. anyone who knows anything about what has happened in my life in the past couple of months knows that i wreacked my car. I GOT A NEW ONE!!!!!!!!! i aam SO excited. i wish i knew how to put pics up on the web but anyway. i cant believe it. hopefully i will be able to show everyone this monday or whenever.

Monday, December 19, 2005

  • k i guess its time for my monthly update. i wish i something nice to say but i don't so here's all my problems maybe someone out ther can help.

    1.) i am officially broke and what time of year is it? yeah imagine if you will trying to buy gifts for friends, family, and others with $30. Oh yeah if you really want to help me with a problem then help with this one please.

    2.) i'm afraid that one of my best friends (i think of her more like a sister) is making a big mistake but im torn between her happines and my fear for her. i know its not my place to say anything but well, i just dont want to see her in tears like she was last time. i tried telling her this but... i think i gave her the wrong impression. i WILL ALWAYS be there for her no matter what.

    3.) school offically blows. All b's as of right now. this is not good. my family is really pissed.

    4.) it seems like its my teachers lot in life to make me angry this last week before break. 3 count them 3 tests that happen in the two days before break, and on top of that i have 2 papers to turn in tomarrow.

    5.)Say it with me people, "im tired." need i say more. it seems like i've gotton 2 hours of sleep for three weeks.

    6.) you ever wish that some people would just leave you the hell alone, and then that some people would just learn to like you. maybe its just me but there some people who's aproval i seek right now but i just cant seem to make them like me.

    Wow there were only six problems. it always seems to be more than that.

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  • Your standard white hick from kansas, and single for the time being. I go to school at Wichita Northeast and am currently poor and without a job. Isn't it sad.