Well things have been getting interesting of late. Hung out with an old friend..... well some things went down btwn us and hopefully we've situated them so that we can become cool peeps again. I definitely like him and he's not ready for anything permanent. His loss.. definitely. It sucks, but maybe I'm meant for someone else. I dunno quite know what fate, destiny, & my guardian angels have up their sleeve for me in the romance department, so I guess I'll just wait and see what happens. I'm confused and flumuxed alot lately. I've started packing up my room and stuff for the move in early August. It's crazy ridiculous. I might have a definite line on a job and I am not getting too over anxious, just keep praying and keeping my fingers crossed for great things..... ya know. Class is pretty cool. The fact that I've taken it before and passed the class is probably what makes it a lil bit stilted for me. I enjoy the class, but sometimes I dont wanna go and it's just me being nonchalant about things. It's what happens.

Been reading my articles for the thesis. Found about 10 more in my room today when I was cleaning up. It's crazy. I am so ready to be finished, but first I hafta settle in and focus to get everything done. Me and Nic are cool we talk on the phone alot about the craziness of life. He's a pretty cool cat. He might be leaving in a bit, but he's an awesome person. My girl Katee can't hang out this weekend and it sucks. Hopefully I get to go out with a cool acquaintance of mine, Amber. She's an awesome person and I always laugh and have fun when we chill, despite life and shit that happens in the atmosphere. Been enjoying the weather of late. Missing people dearly. Getting ready for the wedding next weekend. I'm so excited and can't wait for everything to come together and happen. I feel like I'm on pins and needles everyday. So awesome. Took an awesome bath and relaxed and stuff. It was really soothing and chased tons of "extra" stuff outta my heart, soul, and mind. Definitely worth the time and the soothing/ healing powers were well utilized and appreciated.

Sometimes I can't believe how much u can care for someone and them not understand. So that's life and a very hurtful part at that. What do you do?? Nothing I would imagine. You can no more turn on someone feelings for you, than you can turn off your feelings for them and that's the crux of life, love and everything in between. Trying to take everything one day at a time. Yeh, I still make wishes and dream, but I also try to stay close to reality just in case things don't work out as awesome that I want and dream then I won't have that much of a fall back to earth and reality. Those long & heavy falls hurt more than you know. So just finishing up thesis, class, packing, and job hunting. I miss alot of people whom I consider friends and acquaintances, whether they miss me or consider me a friend or an acquaintance. That's LIFE!! MuaH