So i just got back from Rocky.... yeah, 15 and i got to go see Rocky without parental permission...Loren can make any situation amazing. that is because hes pretty much so more amazing than i am... dont start with me Loren, i will kick your ass. i love you. but it was pretty extreme... like Jeff's couch and van. hella yeah...

but im kinda down so... yeah

amanda

Well, I certainly haven't updated in a while. With recent drama it is quite hard to keep track of these things....

I've decided to try something. I will give you the events of my life in easy to read format, then I will give you the events of my life the way I see them in my mind...

1.) Ben and I are NOT dating. He betrayed me, hurt me, and used me as a pawn. This is one deep wound my heart can never heal.

2.) School sucks, because I suck at school. Well, actually I suck at life... but right now we are to be focused on school... Geometry and Chemistry just aren't my subjects...

3.)I met some new people... I think I may even be able to call them friends... (*Gasp* Yeah, I'm not that big of a loser, I can make friends.)

4.) I am quite confused... I have no idea what the hell is going on in my life right now, while other people can look at me and know my personality and my fantasies... Wow! *coughjestercough*

Now, I will take all the above information and put it in my brain's format. I warn you, you may become severely confused and later cry because you don't know what the hell just happened... (It's okay, I do that all the time... you're not alone.)

Well, life sucks, because I suck at life, therefore life sucks. How do I have these special abilities? Why didn't I know that... hmm... Why do my parents, uh, nevermind, duh... I need... What do I need? Chocolate? Yes, but no... I need $5,000.. yes, Europe... basoon, foreigner, ha, me. *giggles* Dammit! Love is bullshit... why can't *insert his name here* (shh! It's a secret!) How the hell am I Ooh! Shiny! am I suppose to do this damn geometry. Shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, FIRE! Burn, burn, burn... Stupid (insert bitchy teachers here* Burn... Wow, this weekend was quite amazing... people and their truthful mind games...>.< Hahaha Foreplay... WOO! Shiny... OW! It bit me! Hello Kitty... I must call him... Fantasy about *insert name(s) here*.. hehe...Fantasy about *love who doesn'y love me* Fantasy about Gerard Way, SHOWER! Hot, cold, Hot, Cold, Hot, Cold... GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!... Hot, Cold, Hot, Cold... dammit! Soap, squeaky, duck...Duck? Yes, duck. Why does everyone hate me? cut, cut.. bang! Why can't I get the love I want? Food? Yes, food. Mmmm... munchies! Ohhh *magnificent amazing orgasmic moan*  Dew ME! Hahaha...Sleep...Zzzzzzz...dream...dream(oh)ing...Dream(OH!)ing. Mmm, silk scarves and ties...Ohh! Dream...*insert names*...Wake Up...pain, pain, pain...sleep...Zzzzz.. Monkey! Sleep...Zzzzz....

Yeah, that's 4 1/2 hours, condensed version, of my vbrain. Yes, I have issues...leave me alone!

Sleep? yes...

~*Neth<3

So like, I'm sick, and it sucks. And my neck looks horribly disfigured and that kinda sucks too.
You know what else sucks? I mised the pop's concert. dan. And concert band is way too easy for me.
Yeah, if you can't tell, being sick puts me in a bad mood. life sucks when you're sick.
hey, If you're reading this R.C., thanks for letting me use your hoodie. It was very warm.  And i had a dream about you. . . .
We.., that's kinda alli have to say except for Nyquil sucks because it makes you see random things and it's horribly disgusting. If you're given the choice between taking Nyquil and not taking Nyquil, just don't.

                                                                     AMANDA

sooo.. things are going good with me and ben..... nothing new lately... community pep rally thing tonight... fun fun..

thats all...

i  Ben

Love, Amanda

so yeah, my family is primitive. I don't have internet, so Kaila (my most kickin chica) will update for me, but i will tell her what to write

So Friday was rainy . There's always something about the rain and being with all the bandies that puts me in a good mood. But i hate wet pants. I rode home on the bandie bus pantsless scandalous.. And then i stayed at Teri's

Then Adam (whome I love dearly) visited I was happy

I  ben too. And things are good w/him

So, my thought for the week.... It's amazing the things you learn about yourself/friends when you talk without words....

                                                          Amanda

P.S. Yes, R.C. owes me a massage