| Today was the first day of my last year in highschool. I am so ready for it to be over, so ready to move on. It's going to be pretty much a wasted year. I don't like the whole wasting time at school while I could be doing something else productive ie work or at home sleeping/playing WoW...it drives me crazy, I swear I must have ADD or something. I can't hardly sit still in all of those study halls. I swear, class, study hall, class, study hall, class, lunch, class, it irks me. And honestly, going to school from 8 until practically 3 you'd think you'd get more than 3 hours and 20 minutes worth of actual classroom instruction...7 hours I say! For 3! I hate it! I wish I could just take the classes for 2 hours a piece and graduate in December...but nooo...I don't go to a normal school...
Anyway, I guess it'll just be a nice, fun, relaxing year, but I just hate waking up at 6:45...thats normally what time I go to bed.
On another thought, I've been thinking...What's worse than loving someone who doesn't love you back, who will never love you back no matter what the circumstances? At what point can you just tell them how you feel, laugh it off, and just be friends? Will you ever be able to go back to the way it was, to the way it is? Will telling them how you really feel completely ruin everything you have? And, last but not least, at what point does it go from liking them to obsession?
Ok, before you get all worried I'm not all obsessed over some guy, I'm really not. I was just wondering about the subject today in one of my many study halls, trying to preocupy myself and forget about the horrible fate of sitting in silence for an hour. But the thing is, there is someone who I never told how I felt about them but I know as soon as I tell him everything will change and it will become awkward so it's best just to let it be. It kills me, it really does, but friends are better to have because they last forever and I don't want to ruin what we do have for anything in the world. I thank God every day I got to have such a wonderful blessing in my life.
Gosh, I really should go to bed. This is what happens when Linds gets insomnia and doesn't play World of Warcraft, she writes obnoxiously long Xanga entries that no one reads! Yay! |
