ever feel like the wind was knocked out of you.... quick, painful, like ripping off a bandaid, except this one's over your heart. and damn, it hurts. never thought it would happen to me. and it sucks to be on the receiving end. it was so blatantly obvious from the look on my face. you'd be an idiot not to see it.

i never thought i could be made to feel like this. this one has got to be the worse. i dare to even say it..... EVER.

and frankly, this is something i never ever want to feel ever again.

no one knows.

i'm just gonna forget.

...............................and never want to talk about ever again.

so much i want to say. pain. HURT. tears. anger. acceptance.

moving on. and not thinking about it anymore.

regrets? HELL YEAH.

i've always been a believer in karma. and now, karma has slapped me in the face. i did it to him, and now another is doing the same to me. he's hurting because of me, and i'm hurting because of another. i'm turning 23 in two weeks. and yet, i feel like an absolute idiot. i think i was smarted in high school. smarter about the choices i made and the consequences i'd have to deal with. i haven't learned from my mistakes. cause hell, i keep on making them over and over again. and in the end, people get hurt.

and what a horrible way to be distracted right now. when i have killer exams coming up and all i can think about it all the drama i've caused. i feel so alone. i can't seem to talk to anyone. i don't want to talk to anyone. i need to be by myself. and yet, i so desperately want to be comforted. to be embraced so i can just cry my eyes out and wish i could take all these things back. regrets. regrets. regrets. i used to talk about having no regrets in my life.

up until now.