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| Well it has been FOREVER since I last wrote in here, but I have decided
that Im going to get back into the journal life...I broke up with Jimmy
a few days ago, it was hard, but it had to be done. In our relationship
there was alot of lieing and sneaking around and thats not right..we
fought alot too....He is acually the reason I havent been updating. He
was a very jealous persona and I wasnt allowed to hang out with my
friends or have a journal or myspace or anything...pretty fucked up
huh? Yea I think so, but yea...so I broke up with him..he took it
really bad and I knew he would, but I feel so much happier..I know that
makes me sound like a total ass, but I just felt so held down when I
was with him ya know? *sigh* so now Im enjoying my single life for a
little bit untill I find someone else that I like...damn Im such a man
whore....But I dont think I will date someone who has never had a
boyfriend cause if for some reason I do have to break up with them it
is extra hard on them becuase I was there first love ya know. *sigh*
Ryan is just an asshole I guess.
On the flip side I have been having ALOT of fun with my friends...5
months without them is just too much..so I have some catching up to do
haha...but it feels pretty good...I feel bad for Jimmy though..he is
hurt bad, but he will get over it right :S....gah..the drama in my life
is endless ya know haha...well thats all for now...I WILL BE
BACK!...*random kisses*
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Well tomorrow is offically me and Jimmy's last day of school. We are both dropping out of the high school and doing this program where you can get your diploma faster, it only takes like 2 weeks and its alot easier too and we still get to graduate and walk and all that fun jazz that you do when you're a senior. So yea Im all excited and stuff cause now I can start working and save up money for the house...muhahaha its going to be great I love it. Im excited that Jimmy gets to do it with me too, cause I would be kinda scared doing it alone lol. I saw my friend Teshina's boyfriend in there. I guess he is doing it too. Which if Chris can pass thoughs test then I dont think I will have a problem with it. I am kinda nervous though, cause I really dont want to take the classes. I just want to take the test and have it over with ya know? But I mean the worst that could happen is that I need to take the study course and then I just re-take the test before the graduation in May...so Yea Im excited.
I havent heard anything from Shelby..My friends have heard more than I have because my stupid phone got shut off. I heard that she called Jimmy crying and he said that he couldnt really understand what she was saying and then Tabi said that she is going to have to go to juvi and drug rehab because I guess that Shelby wrote her mom a note saying that she did all these drugs and stuff....ugh...I honestly dont even know how they found her....Someone told me that one of her friends told on her back home...which is total bullshit..people need to mind their own god damn buisness. I know everyone is going to miss her though. Everyone really liked her...lol my boyfriend was jealous of her. But I feel really bad for Kaci cause she was crying hardcore...she was so in love with the shelby....well thats all for now I will update more if I hear anything or learn anything....I lovers you all | | |
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I hate these freakin sleepless nights. Ive been having them alot lately. I keep wakeing up in the middle of the night or morning, whatever, and it sucks because I never get enought sleep...like right now it is 5 in the morning and I cant sleep o.O. I guess maybe this time it is because I slept all day yesterday cause I was sick. My dad doesnt believe I was sick yesterday...he never believes that Im acually sick and it kinda pisses me off. I could be lying there dying and he would think I was trying to get out of something...grrnesss. Hopefully he lets me go see Jimmy today at 10. But he might pull that "well you didnt go to school yesterday so you cant go anywhere today" thing like he does ever so often. I can hear my mom she is already up and getting ready to go to school. I asked her if I could go over to Jimmy's later and ofcourse she said I had to ask my dad...i hate how neither of them can make a decison they always make me ask the other person or they have to discuss it *rolls eyes*.. Just tell me if I can go or not geezz its not that big of a deal..Iam coming home ya know its not like Im running away! Its exactly 9 months until I can move out on my own. eekk its getting close. 9 months is a while, but it will go by fast. God I cant wait. Im going to have such a party :P.
Gosh I really need a cigg but I cant just walk outside at 5 in the morning while my mom is still here..lol...I really need to quite with the smoking though. I know my parents dont like it, but Jimmy doesnt like it either. Its just that its hard to quite smoking when everyone around you smokes. All of my friends smoke except for Jimmy. Im totally serious EVERYONE of them smokes...So its kinda hard for me to quite when everyone around me is lightin it up! But I love Jimmy so much that Iam going to try to quite, for him atleast. He is such a great guy and he is so cute. I love tickling him and making him laugh because its so cute! he is like a little chipmunk! Im so glad that he is mine and that I got to him first. Yea I know what you guys are thinking..."omg Ryan thinks he is in love again"....and I dunno maybe Iam, maybe Im not, but whatever it is it feels good.... | | |
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I was sick today...I feel bad cause I told Jimmy I would be at school
early so me and him could drive around and hang out in the
morning..since school is really the only time I can see him since Im
grounded. He isnt too happy with me because I might be dropping out of
school and getting my diploma through a program here in town. It will
only take me a month or so and then I can get a job and start saving up
money so I can get an appartment after my birthday. My parents said
that they probably arent moving anymore so that means that I dont get
the house -_-...so Im going to have to get an appartment. So I will
probably get one of the ones that Kye use to live in while she was here
because the rent goes by your income. I think Kyes mom only pays 75
dollars a month and she gets like 300 dollars a month so thats not bad
at all..she still has plenty of money for extra stuff and
food...shyea...awesomeness!...Today at school this guy that sits with
us, named Shane told Jimmy that he liked him! *gasp*! I was like ewww
no...cause Shane isnt exactly cute, but eh oh well. Jimmy said not to
worry cause he loves me..muhahaha..Im so lucky ^-^
Only 3 days untill Geo comes down! He is going to stay here for a
couple of days and we are going to go to Dorthy's house and play on the
yellow brick road!..lmao everyone someone comes down to see me from
another state they always want to see Dorthy's house..its great..i love
it!...I cant wait for Geo to meet all my friends! hehe..we are going to
have so much fun!....
Doh!! you guys have to see my friend Caityln's senior pictures..she is so freakin hot!..She could so be a model!..Ok here we go!
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