| Because I'm Leaving on a Jet plane,
dont know when i'll be back again.
Actually i do, and thats august 7th if i can make it to camp! :]
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| so the past 2 days ive been feeling a big down lately
perhaps its everyones down-in-the-dumps mood or maybe its the fact that
my mother decided to spring on me a 2 and a half week trip to taiwan
i mean, its really great and all
im being selfish
because she planned it right smack in the middle of ALL my summer plans
not only summer plans, but the very ones i have been looking forward to all school year
it doesnt upset me that i have to make the sacrafice
i am so use to making this sacrafice every year
but there was something in me that thought this year, my say would count.
afterall, i'd be turning 18 this year,
thats big, right?
It's my last year to be a camper
its my friend cotillion (she's turning 18)
its THIS year that im planning the YMCA carnival
Yeah. all of these take place a series of 4 days, and they JUST SO HAPPEN to be the last 4 days of our trip.
superb.
I think it just upsets me that my family is so use to planning vacations last minute and during my birthday that they no longer give me any regard, and you know what? that just hurts
it frusturates me beyong mention
Today i got so caught up in feeling selfish that i near cried,
okay. i did cry.
not to mention Kelvin beating me in chess, me waking up at 6:30 that morning, not eating breakfast, and feeling stupid i just.... needed a hug
poor kelvin didnt know what the hell was going on.
so...
Trip to Taiwan
This Sunday to August 3rd.
See you when i get back.
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| We can't hide, we let go
We've got more than we know
check it :]
Make this last, take it slow
We've got it all figured out for now
So let us live our lives without a doubt |
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| 2 years back to date
i was in the same place
but somehow, in a different state of mind
a different kind of happiness
a separate period of time
now its all different.
" i never think about the past"
is that what your'e supposed to do?
never think about it?
but i though memories were meant to be remembered.
happy birthday ransley and tee.
we been through a lot.
seriously.
its so great to be your friend after one more year
i hope i get the opportunity to say it again next year (:
I passed both my AP tests.
one of my proudest moment in life
yet no one cares );
maybe its because ive said it so many timess
Ive been having crazy dreams lately
I Think i'll start an online dream journal
Link it later
but they sure are interesting
i went to the gym with linda today
i love running
only on the treadmill though.
perhaps i'll go tomarrow again.
i need to just run away from here.
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| not being you only makes it THAT much harder to understand.
i just.
Dont get it.
and whats the matter is that in your attempt to enlighten me the wrong words always are said.
you and i are so different that sometimes what you say just
gets to me the wrong way.
i feel...
dumb.
just for not thinking the way you do.
and perhaps i never will
because it just seems impossible at this point.
Yes. i know nothing about it
but im trying hard to understand
and whatever i say just seems to be wrong
and whatever you say just seems to be wrong
and in the end i suppose i will just have to accept it
because clearly we will never see eye to eye.
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