Currently Listening Make Yourself at Home By Starting Line best of me....acoustic style baby! oh yeah! woot woot woot!!!.....peace out see related

heh......tonight has been weird lately.......i dont know either why im writing here at 1 in the morning......im bored and i have nothing else to do.....i would call but my phone has died and you've fallen into the sleep where i want to be but cant......i alone must stay up in this morning waiting for the sun rise while i stay to wait for you........well i got nothing else to do but put up songs i like......ummmm lets see.......i guess ill put up ummmm....."one slow dance" becuz i would like to dance with you under the moon to be romantic =] heh its the best i can think of right now since i miss you but you dont know it like i do.......well wait i hjave to find it soon.....waiting......after i think about it.....forget that song i rather have "best of me" by starting line...great great song.....trust me.....well this is al for now..im sorta sad right now.....well here you all go...dl the song srry i cant put it up for im not that smart of these techno on xanga...my bad but good night.....

STARTING LINE

"Best Of Me"

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

here we lay again
on two separate beds
riding phone lines
to meet a familiar voice
and pictures drawn from memory
we reflect on miscommunication
and misunderstandings
and missing each other too
much to have had to let go

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you

we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss girl
we will kiss girl

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont
feeling that we cant
we're not ready to give up

we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

Currently Listening Justincase By justincase without you..... see related

its been 5 months and 3 days long since i been with you.......you made me happy or even confuse...but they were the fun times.....now that your on roads..i hope you know i missing you mucho mucho.......and thinking of you not being here tonight to be with me on the phone to talk about anything that clicks us into debepting makes me sad......but for anyways for tomorrow of 4th of july is fire cracker die i hope i get to see you when your back from your trip.....=[......well just writing  for fun so no more...today pretty much a fun time and a boring time......heh...well muah love you babe

dedicating this song to you....

"Without You"-by Justincase
(feat. Michelle Branch)

It's been two weeks
Three days long
I'm all alone since you've been gone
I can't keep myself from asking why
Just wanna see my reflection
In your eyes

Just know that I'm with you
And what you feel
I feel it too

I'm feeling lately
I'm going crazy
Wondering how I'll go on without you
I keep on trying
Slowly dying
Thinking about how I need you here with me

I wear your shirt
The scent of you
Reminds of the night that we became two
There's nothing else
That feels the same
Everyday there's sun, it feels just like rain

Just know that I'm with you
And what you feel
I feel it too


If you think it's easy for me
Well, you're wrong
Sometimes I'm weak and baby you know
I'm not that strong

You're in New York
And I'm in L.A.
There's so much to tell you
Words I need to say
But your phone keeps ringing


I need you here with me

How will I go on without you?

It's been two weeks
Three days long
I'm all alone since you've been gone

Currently Listening Where You Want To Be By Taking Back Sunday your own disaster.......its a good one.. see related

note to family if you read this shit:

     Life? life is just too complicated when ur family is being such an "BITCH"......just that i stay in my room on the computer so i wouldnt be in their way or disrupting them but instead they yell out me for it.......what the fuck is up with that?.....jeez...."fongy fongy take out the trash...[later during the day] fongy fongy take out the trash..."...why the fuck do i ahve to do..there is like 7 people in the fucking house who can do it....if its not hard! WHY DONT YOU FUCKING DO IT THEN BITCHES!! I SWEAR......" if you stay in your room then dont come out to eat then..." WTF IS THAT!.....if i dont eat then fuck you i wouldnt want to eat it anyways shit......i rather starve and die.....jeez....you want me to respect you as a older sibling then fucking act like one then threating me of food....you want me to respect you but you dont even fucking respect me......family family..always comes first?my fucking ass they dont.....shit.....you can sometimes come first but when you lay things down on me as bad stuff talking shit on my back sho fucking say it to my face......when you talk about my relationship with my gf then my friends of my feelings...your fucking wrong becuz you dont know shit of me.......when i go out...i have a reason..thats a reason to get away from al of you for once than having twenty people teling me to shut up or take out the trash or doing something.......jeez......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........if you cared sooooo much of me...give me my fucking space in my room!!!! stop yelling about it shit......when i acted nice to you for a ride..its becuz i respect you so i ask nicely....but noooooooooooooooooooo it always comes back to me like " oh you act all nice just to get a ride btu now you act all mean ".....umm i only acted mean becuz you annoy me or you did something to me ..........when you say im mad...im not fucking mad!shit.......when you make a joke..dont be looking at me for a laugh when it aint funny since its about me........life is a bitch...family at these times are a bitch....good night

......if only.....if only......i had a car.....that will take me far....far from you.....from both of you......if it did....ill soon act like a kid...to where i belong....far far along......then i be happy.....

this only a thought in my head...dont worry it doesnt bother me.....its just something i wanted to write....

too many people expect others to fix their problems for them......but why....isnt it yours to fix......when other say your annoying and they leave you with guilt of how wrong you are and wanting you to change for the better....but really...dont change because that person just cant see what they miss and your not annoying at all , they just cant take how much you care for them that they should have been told they were annoying....when your hiding something from someone special dont act by shuting up and say nothing because sooner or later your actions will prove you lied and your keeping something away.......when you say you'll find out later and wait for the time to come......why wait?.....that person telling you to wait is gonna say " you should have notice it", but how would we notice it if you didnt tell us until now when its all bad and all our fault.....see life is a bitch.......people just expect too much in one person that soon they lose eachother.......this is a lesson for those who do not know anything of life.....=]

this is just a thought but it doesnt affect me....lol  muah i love you babe[laura]