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| newbieWow, I noticed how UNdescript my past blog was. I also notice it was practically a year ago.
I've recently been watching "Still Single"...rather, I watched the past 5 episodes "on demand." The show may be a reflection on my life...will I be 45 and not married? It's a pretty radical thought.
I began running 3 miles a day...then I stopped. Should resume tomorrow, I think. Maybe I'll go the beach.
I'm working on my review of literature (very slowwwwly) on the following thought: Are teachers with degree disciplines in the fields they teach more effective?
I finished my first year of teaching and am on vacation until the end of August.
I am playing around with stock options...still not a millionaire. MY current prediction: Budweiser disappoints, Merck meets or exceeds expectations. I was right on Ebay, wrong on UPS.
I want to go to more live music events. I want to eat out more.
I was going to have this all inspiring thought...and I stopped!!! I think I'm holding back, still. I will try this again very soon.....promise.
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| Well, now I remember what this thing was for.
Often times in college, I would sit, frustrated and ignored, and wanted to somehow make myself feel better with message of reconciliation.
I spoke to two friends today, and it didn't get my frustration out, for whatever reason. I remember I had one of these things, and need to write down my thoughts.
I haven't written anything in 6 months. On one hand, a lot as happened. I was embraced into the public school system as an educator, and gave up a lot of my duties as a private sector employee. I went through summer training where I met a bunch of people, which was interesting.
On the free time, I became addicted to something costly and embarrassing. I'm not convinced it has gone away, as a trip to Vegas has taught me. I still feel like I am recovering from such a fun time : (
The teaching had been a shock the first week, a total shock. I feel like everyone is out of control, I have no idea what I am doing, and on and on. The school feels hot, I feel tired at all times, it's really a bad time for me for some reason...
And making it no better was someone set a date with me and bailed. I know, it's not the first time ever in my life, and whatever, we all deal with it. But, I just feel like the timeliness of these things never goes my way, and I spend more time being upset about it than most people - translation: I get super depressed.
OK, so a new week is coming, and maybe I can be more descriptive and insightful in my blogs - maybe the things I do I can remember to write about and be interested in. If anything, life is exciting, and that is worth something. It really is...I need to think about that more and be less depressed. Someone said to me today "your biggest problem is you get your hopes up."
He was totally right. I get my hopes up that I will make a big impact on things, that I will fall in love, that I the next day will be greater than the previous one. I need to slow down and take it as it comes to me. I'm too tense, but what can I do. I'm thinking about that one...not a lot about that I can put into type. I am definitely feeling very angry at myself right now though...I'll elaborate later.
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| It's Been a While
You know, a lot happens in a day, a month, a year. It’s been almost that long since I wrote
anything of real substance. As a
blogger, I basically have sucked this past year.
But I mean, I started this when I was in college. This was a big deal for me, and I want to
keep it that way.
By now I probably lost all my “fan” base. I’m not that concerned. I wanted it from the get-go to not be read
all the time, or really at all.
So I live in south Harlem now. I hate the neighborhood, but it’s easy to
find parking. And for whatever reason,
there is a plethora of expensive/new cars around my blocks, so I no longer am concerned
about the new company car being broken into in the middle of the night.
I’m disappointed with my weekends lately. I have no friends really. Which is why I’m trying to make a point to go
out and do a thing or two on my own.
I also am torn working my current gig, or teaching in New
York. While I officially accepted my
offer, it’s not until May I will have to really start making a decision about
abandoning the Career Training school I’m helping build.
I’m getting older. I
think about how my dad was married at 24, and we live in different worlds
now. But I certainly plan on getting
married in my lifetime. I really like
companionship.
Let’s think more about this.
I’m about to go to bed, go to work tomorrow morning (unless the snow gets
completely out of control). I have all
these random thoughts in my head regarding finances, love, family, life, the
universe. But pinpointing one of these
ideas is so difficult for me.
More to come.
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| I was literally a few feet away from this:
Man that was awesome : ). Glad I didn't have to wait (follow) baseball for 18 years.
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