its love.

its been forever since i've done this,
everythings been going alright.

Not very many people look at these things anymore,
but i felt like updating.

feel free to comment if you'd like

Break's been amazing !
(pictures later)

Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination, the homework,
the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends . . .
the I miss you's...

And the I LOVE yous . . . And the What are we doing tonights? . . .

 somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing and growing And the skipping classes, the studying for tests, And the pretending to be studying for tests, And the downright not studying for tests, I forgot . . .

I forgot what it meant to cry . . . I forgot that
pretending to be happy doesntmake you happy . . .
I f o r g o t that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart . . .
And that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok . . .

I forgot that you cant just forget the past in fear of the future . . . I forgot that you cant control falling in love . . . And that you cant make yourself fall in love . . . I learned . . . I learned that I can love . . .

I learned that its ok to mess up . . . And its ok to ask for help . . . And its ok to feel like crap . . . I learned its ok to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day . . . That somehow they'll make it all better . . .

I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just cant have . . . I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't going to be who is the most popular or going to be the parties . . . Or the drinking not even the hook-ups

    . . . Its the friendships, which means taking chances . . .

I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to TALK out . . . I
learned that letters from friends are the most important thing . . .

And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better . . .

But, basically,

I just learned that my friends, Both old and new, Are the most important people to me in the world .

I decided to update,

 49's more random

1.     I’ve learned that there are very few people out there that you can trust, 2.     and those that you do , will end up letting you down sooner or later. 3.     Also that letting people get to you, is the worst thing you can do.. you just have to live you life how you want to live it, and not try to live up to anyones expectations, except Gods. 4.     I’ve learned that your family, no matter how weird they are, will always be there for you .. no matter how bad you screw up. 5.     and that thinking you’re better than someone, gets you no where. 6.     I’ve learned that just because people go to a different school doesn’t make them different, and it also doesn’t make them better. 7.     it just makes more people that you can be friends with. 8.     I think that cliques are a waste of time, and that the more you reach out to and the more people you talk to, the better of a person you really are. 9.     and that judging people by appearance, is probably the gayest thing in existence. 10. I think that trying to act mature when your 13 or 14 is pointless, because no matter how mature you are, you won’t be seen that way by most people who are older. 11. but then again, trying to act immature isn’t all that great either. 12.  I don’t understand why we learn half the stuff we do in school, because there’s no way they can get away with saying that we’re going to need to know all of that in our life. 13. I’ve realized that you can’t please everyone, or be liked by everyone, no matter what you do. You just have to try to be the best person that you can be, and please yourself. Because if you don’t like yourself, then there’s not much hope that anyone else will either. 14. but then again you’ll never be perfect, so don’t expect other people to see you that way. 15. I’ve also realized that trying to be popular in middle school, or high-school even, is a waste. Nobody cares about it, and the people that do.. honestly don’t have much of a life. 16. besides most of the people your friends with or know right now, you probably wont even remember their name after college.. 17. I don’t like how if somebody messes up or does something wrong, then people judge them by it.. and decide not to be friends with them, when really everyone makes mistakes. 18. and I know I might be being a little hypocritical. 19. but im not perfect either. 20. I love to take pictures, mostly because I just like pictures, 21. but also because I’m scared of change and that’s what most people tend to do, and I want a picture of them as they once were. 22. I hate looking at pictures and listening to a sad song, it’s depressing. 23. something that I usually never am. 24. I don’t think much about fights, unless it’s with someone I really care about.. because no matter how mad you say you’re going to stay, if that person really meant something to you, yall will find a way to work it out. 25. I don’t like telling anybody who I like, unless I really like them .. because once everyone knows , the thing between you and that person seems to go away.. because most people just keep asking when he’s going to ask you out. 26. or will give you crap for liking him. 27. I have a lot of friends, but not very many best friends. 28. basically because I’m scared of getting too attached to someone, and then having to let them go. 29. and I think it’s retarded to label many people you’re best friends, because you might have about 2 best friends in your life. 30. I think it’s funny when moms fight their kids battles 31. and also when people try to start stuff over something stupid. 32. If you think that I don’t like you or that I have a problem with you , I don’t I promise. 33. I don’t like Texas, but I’m not planning on moving anytime soon. Because I have some really great friends. 34. I know that I don’t like soccer all that much, but I love my soccer team. We have some really great times together. 35. and when we’re together we don’t care about being “cool” 36. I don’t like when people say stuff about me behind my back, I mean im sure that nobody likes that, but it’s not that they said it behind my back.. it’s just that I would rather them just tell me how they feel, because if I don’t know there’s not much that I can do about it. 37. and I don’t like when I say something about someone, because it makes me feel lower of myself. 38. and I feel pretty low right now. 39. I don’t like when my friends hide stuff from me, basically just because I want my friends to feel like they can talk to me about anything. 40. I like to have fun 41. and I don’t like it when people have to be somewhere in order to start having fun, because it doesn’t matter the place- just the person. 42. I’ve disappointed some people in my life 43.and nothing can feel worse than that. 44.My schedule next semester is going to suck, and im actually going to have to focus in school. 45.which is something realllllllly hard for me. 46.Sandeep ( my brothers roommate from India ) is staying at my house over the break. 47.I’ve never had cable in my life, and I really don’t care. 48.I’ve done this survey twice 49.and if you read this far, then I’m proud of you.

i love my friends chelsey yo: spankyhankypanky they call me mak: i'm not good at ryhming like you chelsey yo: welllll its easy to rhyme just think of a dime and have a great time  they call me mak: what if you suck? are you just out of luck? chelsey yo: well if you suckk your mouth must be full of gunk so clean it out with a skunk they call me mak: well as long as it took me to make this rhyme , i decided that i autta get a lime , along with that dime ... and then i'll make it on time chelsey yo: but you need a dime thats top of the line with a cute face small waste and a big behind they call me mak: that's called plagerism , which is illegal in most countries chelsey yo: that didnt rhyme ? aaaahahhahahah <3

me, emily, and christine




me and rinny

Remember when...

getting high meant swinging at a playground?

the worst thing you could get from a boy was cooties?

when your worst enemies were your siblings?

and race issues were about who ran the fastest?

when war was a card game?

and life was simple and care free?

remember when all you wanted to do was grow up?