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| This new post is a place for one to reply to comments I've made on one's xanga. In all honesty, I just got tired of scrolling down a million comments to read the latest :P Happy commenting! | | |
| I've decided that, for now, this is the end of blogging for me. I know, it's a crying shame. Although I am not longer writing in my blog, I am going to continue reading a few of my friends blog's, so I can keep in touch. If you're so saddened, you can leave a comment and I'll give you my e-mail address. Otherwise, for now.....
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song?
For you and only you
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me now
You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know
As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal
And now I sing it
Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I am gone
Just try and stop me now
You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know
As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
Will you need me now
You'll find a way somehow
You wanted to
I want it too
As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song | | |
| took a walk this evening with the dog I'm currently boarding, Skippy. I found it so refreshing. Not in an environmental way, mind you. But in an emotional and spiritual way. It was good to walk a mile around our neighborhood, wave and smile and strangers who are only connected to you by the simple fact that they live in your neighborhood. I liked the peace and quiet (even an an extrovert like me enjoys peace and quiet). I especially like being so silent, and uniterupted I felt like praying. So I did pray, which was wonderful because I was able to praise God. His creations are so wonderful, the quiet hum of whatever array of insects call out at night. The soft chirp of birds...the fireflies dancing, glowing their yellow orange with a deep green grass background. When God made evening, he made such a glorious thing : ) | | |
| My dad just bought a John Deere tractor, a.k.a, a riding lawn mower. I'm so excited, because I'm being paid to mow the lawn. For those of you who don't know the size of our yard, I'm not a whimp, it's about 3/4 of an acre.
Unfortunately, while I was JUST getting used to using it, before I could turn around, I realized in the tall grass, there was a dead bird. And that's right, I ran over it. Mowed it. I turned my head and checked, sure enough...there was bird parts flying out from under the mower along with grass. >_<. Talk about sort of really gross, lol.
Also, don't mow the lawn when it's getting dark out...fire flies tend to fly in your face. Oh well, I'm learning :P
Justin and I have been arguing a lot recently, but I think we got everything worked out today. While we were in the thick of the argument, there didn't seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, and all I could think about was how recently I'd been praying for God to bring Justin and I closer. I'd been praying for God to strengthen our relationship...and I was wondering why God had chosen instead, to let us bicker. Then I had a thought, and in retrospect, in must have been from God. I thought about how a lot of time there must be pain before growth. In the physical sense, there's "growing pains", and a lot of times God has to break our hearts in order to humble us.
Sure enough, God's whisper into my heart was truthful. By the end of my conversation with Justin, we were closer than ever with a better understanding of each other, and promises to work on our bad habbits. As painful as our argument went...I'm really glad it happened, just like God promised, He had a plan for me, and blessed my relationship with Justin. | | |
| I just got back from eight days in Austria, and everyone expects me to say "wow, my trip was excellent! I had a blast!". Sadly enough, I can't say those words without lying. It was a good trip, but there was lots of ups and downs. I went for the International Championships, and although I wasn't showing a dog, the two women who I traveled with did compete. I was sort of used and abused without much gratitude, and it took a serious toll both on my emotions and my body. However, as God always does, He brought goodness out of an otherwise terrible trip. I found that I love to travel, and I hope to do so much more on my own, for fun. Maybe with my family, friends, or my boyfriend.
I also read two books I would have decided I didn't have the time for, otherwise. The first was Firstborn by Robin Lee Hatcher. The second book was Redemption by Karen Kingsburry and Gary Smalley (part of a series). I hate to sound cliche, but these books really did change my life. Both books gave me a window into what marriage, and relationships really are. Every Christian novel I've read for teenagers painted a great picture of the pains of dating (believe me, I know them by heart) but in the end, he always proposed, and they lived "happily ever after". These books showed me that yes, marriage is happily ever after...but there are bumps along the way, sometimes bumps as big as an affair, and either by being mature, or by seeking counseling, you can overcome those bumps and hurdles. I've been trying to explain what I learned to a few people...but I can't really describe with words what I've learned about marriage, and loving someone. How love is a decision, not an emotion, something you work after...something that doesn't always come easy. I know you've learned all this yourself, firsthand...but I'm terribly excited about what I've learned, and I really hope it makes me a better person.
So, that's my trip to Austria. Moving along : )
Monday was not a good day for me because I had three extreme sunburns (one on each shoulder, and one in the middle of my mid to upper back). My mom, being as kind as she is, said my list of "to do's" could wait till the next day, because I really couldn't move much. Well...I spent all day reading, eating, and I talked to Justin for a while. I also did NOT do my devotions. The next day...I slept in a little bit...read a little bit before getting out of bed...moped around...ate lunch, and finally decided that if I was going to talk to Justin at four without my mom being pissed, I better get a move on. So I decided I would do devotions, but I couldn't find my bible handy (as in, I looked for two minutes and gave up) and gave a half hearted prayer about my waywardness...and decided to get to chores. I got almost all of them done, I was workin' doin' good...then my mom left, and I was home alone...so I read my book some more, kind of didn't do my other chores...and talked to Justin for about three hours total. Yeah, doin' great, huh?
So this morning...I slept in thirty minutes later than I should have..but I woke up, made myself a good breakfast, and...read my bible. I was thinking how incredibly unproductive I am without God! Maybe not so suprisingly, the chapter I was reading in Jeremiah talked about how God punished his people because of their "backsliding". God sent the land a famine and drought, and the farmers couldn't do their job anymore, and they were crying out to God to save them. In essence, because of their backsliding...God took away their productivity.
I thought it was pretty neat that the day I "came back to God" He showed me what his plan had been. He sort of connected the dots so that I could understand what had happened. I think that's pretty exciting :D
Alright, I better go, I need to be...productive! ;D | | |
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