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Name: Jonathan
State: Texas
Metro: Denton
Birthday: 3/2/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Yeshua of Nazareth, writing, movies, music, chocolate, the Village Church, C.S. Lewis, the University of North Texas, making people laugh, and...um...girls.
Expertise: writing, movies, the Chronicles of Narnia, the art of underwater basketweaving...but certainly not girls.
Occupation: Night Manager
Industry: Grocery
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/13/2005
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| last but not leastso...this may come as a shocker for some of you, but...
this will be my last xanga post. yeah.
there are many more reasons for me to give it up than to keep it, so that's what i'm going to. for those of you who've been reading this thing for a long time, it'll be up for a little while longer so that i can copy stuff on it onto my computer, and then i'll be deleting it.
i'll still blog on occasion, but it'll be on myspace or facebook, simply because i have a lot more family/friends on there from high school, college, past small groups, etc. you get the point. these blogs will be more humorous than anything. i'll save deep thoughts for real discussion in the context of community. that's the deal.
xanga's helped me with some things. when i have a lot on my mind, i usually like to write it out, because, well, i LOVE writing. xanga's helped me to do that during my grieving process for my grandfather, the grieving time for Sonny Smith (who was like a grandfather), my period of having an anxious, unsettled single heart, my struggle with the call to ministry (which i finally answered, by the way), and many other things.
i've done a lot of things with xanga: put up a play, various poems/songs, a bible study over the 3:16s of Scripture, and who can forget the deliriously random 2 am posts of Summer '05?
i appreciate those of you who've read this consistently and have encouraged me through it. but, frankly, i think it provides a false sense of community, and so i'm putting that to an end to that in my life. how can i encourage the building of community and open honesty in my small group when one of my major methods of doing that is electronic? i can't.
so, thank you, and i'm sorry to those of you who might be "disappointed." get over it.
goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
my old friend
goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
we've reached the end
you know i won't forget you
you know i never could
and when i said i loved you
you know i meant for good. -audio adrenaline
you know i loved you so...
for you i'd bleed myself dry. -coldplay
one day we'll meet again
cuz that's how the story ends
you don't mean to make me cry
but it's so hard to say goodbye. -sanctus real
one to another, the feelings in between.
i won't let go of all you taught me,
alright?
close as a brother, the way we used to be,
i'll hold my breath
and wait for you to breathe. -newsboys
and now i'll leave you with a quote from my award-winning (sorry, had to throw that in there, wink-wink) play What Happened To The Lightning? i hope you think about the question and find an answer.
"All we have to care about is what our hearts say. And my heart says that I love you. What does your heart say?"
laters.
much raya.
fight the tide.
and in Christ alone...
jonathan
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| Best of 2006WARNING: THIS WILL BE VERY LONG, BUT I DO ADVISE EVERYONE TO AT LEAST READ AND VOTE ON THE BOTTOM PARAGRAPH. THANK YOU!!!
here it is, the long-awaited Best Ofs, offs? uvs? anyway, you get the idea...and remember, these are MY choices. if i wanted you to argue with what "the best" really is, then i would've called it "the argue with my choices list," but that's a really clumsy title. oh, yeah, here we go...
MUSIC (for songs/albums released between Oct. 1, 2005 and Sept. 31, 2006)
Best Album: Flyleaf by Flyleaf (edgy, controversial, deep, heartbreaking, joyful...it pretty much covered everything this year)
Best Compilation: The Face of Love by Sanctus Real (an album that flows almost perfectly song-to-song as a musical demonstration of the Christian walk)
Best Song: "There For You" by Flyleaf (poetic, beautiful, lingers in your head long after it's over)
Best Love Song: "Luv Addict" by Family Force 5 (so much fun to listen to, how could i say no?)
Best Anti-Love Song: "Me Voy" by Julieta Venegas (the music and vocals are so upbeat, you almost forget it's about a break-up...especially if you don't know Spanish...)
Best Radio Song: "Over My Head" by The Fray (need i say more?)
Best Worship Song: "I Am Free [live]" by The Newsboys (hey, i had to fit them in there somehow!)
Best Vocalist: Matisyahu (hey, YOU try to sing Reggae and then maybe we'll discuss it later.)
Best Live Show: Becoming The Archetype (they only performed, like, 4 songs, but it was, by far, my favorite show of the year)
MOVIES (since i haven't seen everything i want to yet, these may change later on...)
Best Picture: The Departed (so so so so so so so so so good)
Best Director: Martin Scorcese for The Departed (see above...)
Best Actor: Forest Whitaker as Idi Amin in The Last King of Scotland (a very complex and scary role on top of a perfect African accent)
Best Actress: for now, Toni Collette for Little Miss Sunshine, but this choice will probably change
Best Supporting Actor: it's a tie for me between Alan Arkin for Little Miss Sunshine and James McAvoy for The Last King of Scotland
Best Supporting Actress: Rinko Kikuchi for Babel (absolutely amazing as a rebellious deaf Japanese girl.)
LIFE
Best Trip: The New Mexico WWII adventure
Best Quote: "on my honeymoon night, i'm going to only wear a red cape and THREE tube socks. guess where the third one will be? a sock puppet." -Jon Ladner
Favorite Book: The DaVinci Code (yeah, yeah, yeah, forget the "controversy"--it's entertaining and a page-turner, end of story.)
Least Favorite Book: Orality and Literacy (the title alone should give you shivers...)
Best Encourager: JD Neinast, for pushing me in my walk with Christ, asking hard questions, and always having a kind word/hug/obscene text message just when i needed it.
Best New Obsession: LOST...thanks to Amy and Michelle and Stephanie and i could go on about all you freaks...
Weirdest Moment: Mandy Morrisson knowing who i was BY NAME the first time i met her at Global Night Commute. but i am glad i met you, Mandy!
Most Bizarre Moment: realizing that i'm related to the Polly family at the Village. whoa.
Biggest Spiritual Victory: making huge, huge, HUGE strides in my battle against depression. yay, Jesus!!!
Biggest School Victory: this is a toss-up between "passing Linguistics" and "making a B in advertising." you decide.
Dumbest Thing: washing my iPod with my clothes...drying it didn't really help too much either...
Best Personal Injury: rolling over my foot at work with a heavy cart, thus injuring myself...twice. at least it was a different foot each time...
Best Poet: Chaz Underriner...he rocks. his poetry makes ME want to fall in love with him. but i won't. i promise.
Best Sermon: probably Ecclesiastes 3...but i MIGHT be a little biased...
Personal Firsts: first time to be pulled over, first time to get a ticket (these were separate pull-overs...), first time to live with someone by choice, first time to see Ferris Bueler, first time to smoke (sorry, Mom!!! and Dad!!!), first time to raise a sea otter (okay, that one's not true), first time to stay awake 48-hours straight, first time to kiss Jacob Vanhorn (and that one is true)
and now...to vote on THE BOLDEST THING I'VE DONE THIS YEAR!!!
a)accept a promotion as night manager
b)kiss Jacob Vanhorn
c)drive for 2 and a half hours with a "check engine" light on in my car just so i could make a wedding on time
d)dye my eyebrows black
e)raise a sea otter (okay, that one's really not true, i just think it's funny)
f)move in with the Butler brothers (more of an inside-joke really)
g)chase after a shirtless man covered in blood (this one is true)
h)something not in this list but that you experienced with me or know about!
oh yeah...almost forgot...
i)peed on a "do not walk on grass" sign on 100F Street just before sneaking into the graveyard at night. yes, cars passed by.
yes...it's been a good year...on to '07. i'm ready for the adventure to continue. may it also be blessed.
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Capote
By Allie Mickelson, Kelci Stephenson, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Craig Archibald, Bronwen Coleman, Kate Shindle, David Wilson Barnes, Michael J. Burg, Catherine Keener, Kwesi Ameyaw, Andrew Farago, Ken Krotowich, Chris Cooper, R.D. Reid, Rob McLaughlin, Harry Nelken, Jon Ted Wynne, Jonathan Barrett, Christopher Read, Edward Sutton (II)
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what i did for Christmas...so, for Christmas '06, i...
...went to Richardson, TX
...got "Crash"ed
...pursued more "happyness" with my dad
...discovered that i have family members at the Village...yeah...weird...
...got a "great divorce" of "dandelion wine" while in "the heart of Narnia"
...hung out with Joe Casey
...worked...blah
...oh, yeah, and announced to my fam that i'm going into vocational ministry.
so there ya have it. i think i'll finally go take a nap now.
ps. thanks, Truett, i LOVE this movie!!!
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| what happened to wednesday?so i got home from work at about 8am wednesday morning, but for me, that's just the end of my tuesday.
i got online to check an item i bid on during my lunch break on ebay. i had to fight a couple of people for about fifteen minutes, but i ended up winning the item because i'm awesome like that.
not long after that, i apparently dozed off on the couch for almost 2 hours. i woke up, realized where i was and decided to move my slumber into my bedroom where i promptly fell back asleep somehow before i could either set my alarm or take out my contacts.
i woke up in pitch black. checked the phone: 12:49 AM. good thing i was scheduled to be off from work. seeing it was so late/early (it was now thursday, officially), i decided i needed to take my contacts out and have them cleaned...and then go back to sleep.
thus...i had no wednesday. it is gone, nothing, nowhere. my week will only have 6 days because i literally slept one of them away. but, on the other hand, i'm ready to hand a rockin' thursday.
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| and now we are no longer aloneonce upon a time,
God's love was so big that it gave birth to a man.
and then a woman, and God said, "this is good."
and He walked with the man and woman every day,
and they laughed and played and enjoyed each others' company.
but then the man and woman made a mistake,
they tried to hide, but God found them.
He shed a tear and spoke curses,
for their sin meant that He could no longer walk with them,
but He made them a promise
to one day restore things.
and so the man and woman were alone
and generations were born and spread across the earth
but the absence of God left them feeling alone.
they tried to fill the loneliness with many things:
power, sex, possession, good deeds,
but none of them satisfied,
they still felt alone.
and then God spoke to a teenage girl
and said, "you have found favor in my eyes"
and she was overshadowed by the Holy Spirit.
and God spoke to her boyfriend,
"take care of the child, raise Him as your own,
for you now are no longer alone."
because man could not live with God,
God came to live with men,
He put on their flesh, He put on their skin,
saw through their eyes,
walked with their feet,
bled with their hands.
a child was born that we could be reborn
a child was raised that we may be raised up
a man died so that our sins would die
and came back to life so it would never end.
His name is "Immanuel"
God with us
and now we are no longer alone.
may your Christmas be blessed.
much raya.
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