PHEWW. Found my password . Don't ever let me change it again.
Im thinking that you guys havent been hanging on to the edge of your chair waiting for the wonderful and the weird but here goes anyway.
The wonderful is pretty much the same but with a few additions.
Wonderful because things aren’t so bad. We are all happy, healthy and getting along. There are no real dramas. This week anyway. Michael had a few days at school camp which meant some peace in the house. Four kids minus one (any one) equals some peace. Amazing how peaceful it is when you take one out of the equation. Andrew and I are getting on just find so no dramas there. The Andrew situation is fine. I think the world of him and love him and am damn relieved that his moving out has removed lots of pressure from us all. Hes seeing things through the fog of his depression and can see where and how hes fucked up. So where am I with this now? Im at the whatever happens stage. Id be lying to myself if i didnt acknowledge confusion. My own confusion at the fickleness of my feelings i guess. The bit where i love him etc still stands but is it more as a friend than anything? Leaving that alone for now :D. Either way, I dont want to live with any bloke again. Hey its not all bad for single mums. Centrelink say we are allowed to get three roots a week. Any more than that will have to be stealthy.
New car coming in a few days. Holden Commodore. Some special edition thing which just means its a base model with tons of extras at no extra charge. First car ive been able to pick the colour of and i pick a colour called Odyssey (however thats spelt). Its a dark grey i think. Stuffed if can remember now. What i do remember is that it has a 6cd player thingo. AND the leather wrapped steering wheel. I saw it in a brochure and decided it was the go. Car dealer dude couldnt believe how excited i got over that and not the 17" alloy wheels (i think thats what they are). Andrew is upgrading the 'old' car for me (before it loses anymore of its value). So, got this brand spanking new car coming. Wanna take bets on how long it takes for the kids to trash it.
Weird cause it is. The ex husband (sfbfwah) has decided to be nice to me. He obviously sussed out that Andrew had moved out and sent me a text telling me i need to get out and have a laugh. Next thing i know hes offering me a ticket for a comedy show. After i picked myself up off the floor i said yeah why not. Of course he figured he could introduce the idea of fuck buddies (sic). Im like, NO thanks. Geez, anyone but him. The night was fairly uneventful (thank god) and didnt end up in tears (surprisingly). He asked me to his place for a bbq but i graciously declined. THEN week or so later he rings saying i owe him for the kids dental stuff. Too much for this chick and i burst into tears. He hasnt mentioned it since (although im sure he will). Those that have been reading my blog will know just how frigging weird all that really is.
Disastrous stuff as well. Andrews mum and her partner rent his house from him. The other night Jim had been cooking chips and left the hotplate on (yeah chip fat, nice). Yep you got it. Kitchen burnt down and house 'sufferering' from smoke damage. Andrews mum is fine. She was wandering around outside at the time. She has alzheimers and it would have been really really really bad if she was in the house at the time. Jim tried to put the fire out and has 3rd degree burns on his hands. He had skin grafts the other day. His face and shoulder were burnt too. He was calling 911 when a neighbour pulled him out of the house. This story gets better. Andrews sister rents my house from me and decided that it would be ok to not pay rent for about 1000 bucks worth. The mortgage was fine cause it came out of other accounts BUT all the house insurance direct debits crashed. Yep you got it. Hes not insured. All will be ok though. Hes a handy man and reckons he will live there and do it up. | 
