Soooo much has happened.  Hard to remember where the start is. 

Andrew and i have split up. For real this time.  We'd split up due to blended families being fucked.  He moved out but we felt sad and whatever whatever so decided to see each other but not live together. Somewhere in that process I acknowledged that i had feelings for a guy I played computer games with.  So backspace a bit.

I think its easier to tell this one in dot points.

• Andrews depression and subsequent withdrawal from me and the world.
• Computer game we were both playing heaps.
• blended families are fucked so we separate.
• decide to see each other.
• I let andrew know that i have real feelings for this guy and he for me.
• He has a think about it and decides he really wants me and will let me do whatever i want as long as i come back to him.
• ok fine. Have my cake and eat it too.  All in good in theory.
• I decide that to do that would not be what a relationship is about. worry about his self respect. Not fair on other guy. Im not about to just use someone like that.
• So it ends. 
• We decided to be friends
• He decides he cant really be friends.
• So he talks me into giving it another chance.
• So it ends.
• He tells me he never wants anything more to do with me.
• Five mins later he says he didnt mean it.
• I write him letter giving my point of view. It was more about how the tree (me/relationship) wasnt watered and started to die. Nurture what you have or it can fade etc etc
• Now its really ended.
• We are kind of friends. Well civil and respectful.
• Other guy lives masses of miles away but we've had a weekend together (awesome btw) and really do care for/about each other.
• Hes 25
• im not.
• I have 4 kids
• He has none.
• Sigh.

oh the kids eeek.  Michael isnt fussed about andrew going. He did say he hopes andrew and i will be friends because he doesnt want niamh to go through what he has (unfriendly parents).  He made me so sad and so proud all in one hit.

Liam has been really naughty at school. Lovely as  usual at home. Working on building his self esteem. Tom has been really good at school. /pheww.  Hes good at home too. Just annoying. Really drives the others insane but hes better and thats a good thing. Niamh is cute and is three already.  Shes fully toilet trained for day and night. She rules the house and the boys :D. 

Edit for Terri :)

He hasnt met my kids. I took off to Melbourne for my weekend with him.  He (Dave) is coming down to adelaide in about 6 weeks and I might let him meet the boys for lunch or something.