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Thursday, August 16, 2007

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 02:21:49 GMT

It's been so long since I've signed in here that I totally forgot my password. So much has been happening. I live in Kansas now, as I accepted a job at Mid America Nazarene. I am in my first week of 2-a-days, and I'll be honest, it's been a rough start and I had a very frustrating day today. So much so that I think I'm going to go to bed soon, at least for a while. Wow, I'm getting old. I don't know how long I'll stay here, maybe another 2 years, maybe not at all. The way it sounds now there are other much larger life decisions that may influence that heavily.

Whew.... it's a strange feeling, realizing you're growing up, and worse yet, that you're actually okay with it. Something new. Not that I was ever really excessively childish, but I liked things the way they were all right. Well, I'm tired so TTFN.

Spring Break 2007

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 22:41:59 GMT

We hosted the 2007 NCAA Division 3 National Tournament for wrestling. It went fairly well, only 1 major injury as far as I know, aside from a couple of guys who got stitches. Lots of long hours, but it was good. Jay got 7th, and Dave was done on Friday (he had the 4 time champ and undefeated guy his first round.)
After nationals I was supposed to make a few appearances at the after parties, but we were waiting to hang out with Romeo and that call never came, so we just stayed in and watched movies. Brian & I went to CR on Sunday to have dinner with my aunt & uncle, then stayed at their place that night before going to the state duals the next morning to watch his brother wrestle.
It was strange- I knew Dana would be there b/c the team he coaches made it, and I assumed I'd see him from a distance, but.... we were standing in line to get tickets and he walks right by with his team, does a double take, and stares at me as he walks by. I did a half wave, but got no response, just the stare and walk. It's strange, I still get the shakes after I see him unexpectedly like that. I thought I'd get over that.
Then we dropped off my car in CF and drove to Holstein to spend a few days at Brian's parent's. I spent a bunch of time catching up on my sleep. Then we drove to OC Thursday morning and left for the Black Hills with my parents. We went snowmobiling on Friday, and surprisingly, Brian kicked my butt even though it was his first time on a snowmobile. We went skiing on Saturday, and it was his first time skiing. He didn't have quite the same luck skiing, but it was fun. I skied with my parents in the morning and got all the blacks and blues done while he was at his lesson, then did the same 1-2 green runs all afternoon with him. I think he'll catch on eventually. And then we drove all day Sunday to get back last night, and I got up at 4 a.m. this morning to work.
Time to cook some dinner and do the laundry I didn't have time to do at my parent's.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 00:18:17 GMT

Short version:
Brian got me a dozen roses for valentine's day. They got sent to work, and I got all kinds of comments on them. Then he came up to JV IIAC's and stayed for the varsity.
Favorite quote:
Foxy: "Where's your boyfriend?"
Me: "Over there with the Wartburg people."
Foxy: "Why? Three horns don't play with long necks?"

He had surgery in Iowa City on Tuesday. I went to D-port Monday night (which actually made my trip longer, but I didn't have to get up quite so early and anything to see Abby.) He checked in at 6 am, and I rolled in around 6:30. The drive was longer than I anticipated. His mom said she was glad I came. We talked for several hours and ate breakfast while he was in surgery, and just hung out all day. He's supposed to go back to get his full cast this week.

Nationals are this weekend. This week is going to be crazy busy. Jeff & Kris had their baby early, so Jeff is going to be working the tournament after all. It's going to be a big athletic training reunion of the college days, Ambrose, UNI, and Wartburg. I am a little nervous looking at a week of 16 hour days, maybe more, but will feel good when it's over, except for the fact that it means wrestling is over. After Nationals, I have a week of spring break to recuperate. Half the week at Brian's, half the week with my family skiing and snowmobiling in the black hills... hopefully he gets cleared from the doc and finds someone else to do chores while his parents are away.
I'm tired.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 01:05:00 GMT

I have the flu (for the 3rd time this season) so this is going to be short.
On Thursday during practice, Brian tore up his thumb, which is going to require surgery in Iowa City next week. I went down this weekend to provide some TLC, and we ended up going on 2 double dates with Romeo & Morgan, which was lots of fun. I got to know Morgan a little, since it was my first time meeting her, and I know Brian and Romeo pretty well. I didn't expect him to be up for much, but it was lots of fun. I get the feeling he's going to try to surprise me on Valentine's day, which bums me out b/c I am working ALL DAY and probably most of the night, and totally all day/ evening the next day, but we'll see.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 03:10:11 GMT

Let me tell you something about this man.
Last night he made me mad. There was actually a lot more to it than that, but suffice to say that I was not happy. After spending a half hour trying unsuccessfully to get me to speak, he realized that all I really wanted to do was hit him. And I was bound and determined to, convinced that I would feel better if I could just take a crack at him. So he let me punch him in the jaw as hard as I could. Seeing that I did not instantly feel better, he told me to punch him again. So I did. He kept lining my fist up and told me to do it again. All in all I punched him 4 times. I could've kept swinging all night, except it was then that I realized that my rage was not meant for him, and no amount of me punching him would make me feel better. So I stopped. But it was a really big deal for him to let me.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 18:34:12 GMT

I have the most adorable boyfriend in the world! The other night I was frustrated/ upset, and he sang me "All I Have To Do is Dream." He also sends me really cute text/ picture messages at random all the time. Awww..... :)

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 21:57:21 GMT

"Stand In The Rain" by Superchick

She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

Brian met my parents today for the first time... without me. They watched him wrestle. I'm anxiously waiting to hear how it went. (He won the tournament, pinning the Augsburg guy in the finals and beating the #1 in the semis.... but about the other part.)

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 14:40:19 GMT

On Wednesday, I went on my first cloth napkin date. It was fun. He asked me where I wanted to go and I said I don't know and that he should pick. Then later I thought of the O.P., but decided not to say anything. I love pizza, but this was much better. Good job Brian.
Then I went to the concert that he got me a ticket to. He didn't go b/c he could only get 1 ticket and he gave it to me. He said he had to get some things done anyways b/c of all the time he's been spending with me makes it hard to get his stuff done. Then I got back and he said he missed me and he didn't think the concert was going to be that long. Awww....
I am in Trouble, with a capital T. I might fight it, but I'm getting the feeling that resistance is futile :) Last week he sent me 2 really cute picture messages.
Wow, I really hate people that do this... they get all sappy and automatically assume that everyone wants to hear all about it, when in fact they really don't, or at least not to that extent. So I'm going to shut up now.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 18:33:19 GMT

I'm trying.

"Concede" by Sister Hazel

Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Concede and believe me
I won't give up--I won't give out on you
Oh no no no-la la la la la
You....Oh no

Now hear--I promise to listen
Why won't you go for that
Now hear--I promise to hold you
Why won't you go for that

If I had wings and I could fly
Well I'd still walk with you
If I had a safe place to lie
I'd want to lay with you
[Chorus]

So now you shut off and you shut down
Won't let nobody in
And when you shut off and you shut down
Won't play that fool again

I've seen your inside--you stay inside
And I won't go for that
I've seen your quarters....
Seen your crooked sacred pictures on the wall
[Chorus]

I'll be your jester--be your fool
Compromising fool
I'll be your jester--be your fool...
[Chorus]

Monday, January 08, 2007

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 23:41:38 GMT

I am finding myself wanting to do completely irrational things.... well, maybe not completely irrational, but a little crazy. It's kinda scary.
Friday night I drove down to Cornell to watch Brian wrestle. I only got to see him in 1 match, as that's all he wrestled that night and if he hadn't gotten a bye in the first round I would've had to miss that for time constraints anyway. His parents ended up coming up too, and since I was there that night, they decided to stay the night and after team meetings at the hotel, we went out to eat and then played cards in the lobby for a while. It was lots of fun.
I think I'm bad juju. There might be something to the superstition about girls during wrestling season. He lost a match, closely, but he shouldn't have, and ended up getting third on Sat. Then he was really bummed out and somehow talked me into driving over there Sat night. And I'm going up on Wednesday for the concert, but then may or may not see him at least until mid Feb. We'll see.
Our relationship is extremely honest, which is something that is sometimes unnerving. I'm not used to that kind of honesty in my family, and it is definitely out of my comfort zone at times, but good. Still trying to figure this thing out and keep my head above water.