approaching the throne of grace with Confidence

Though my heart has been torn by loves I have worn

And I'm tempted by them ever still

I tremble inside when you walk in the room.

You hold my affections and will

I'm only alive with you. I can't get by, and I won't get through.

So put me in a river, and let me say, "I DO"

I'm only alive with you.

Jesus, I'm only alive with you. I love you.

hi, everyone. I'm still alive, and I miss you all. How is life?

I'll write next time I get online before 1 in the morning.

well, hello again friends. wow, school is starting up in two days. I really don't know what to think.

Well, this summer was a completely weird one. I wrote alot about it in my previous entry.... so i'm not gonna take the time to write it again. I will, however, write what God has taught me this summer:

1~Provisions~ He really does give us everything we need... in abundance. I need a microwave for my apartment... He gives me two... for FREE! Time and time again, He has provided me with a place to stay, money, a wonderful job, friends to turn to, strength when i don't have any of my own left, etc.

2~Pruning~ He likes to prune. He takes away people to live with, He takes away my confidence in certain areas so that I learn to get my confidence in Him, he takes away different friendships, He takes away family members, He takes away my security.

3~Patience~God has allowed alot of my friends to be in relationships, move in to apartments (i will not be able to move into mine until mid september), move on with certain parts of their lives, and I'm left in the dust because God says to wait. But hey, that's okay, cuz I like learning from people's mistakes so I can be more prepared for it later....

4~Perseverance~He likes to show me that even when I feel like throwing my hands up in the air, I need to continue on, with my job when it gets tough, with certain friendships that i'd like to disregard because i get frustrated, and other things.

anyways, i just realized that all of them start with P.... that's a dorky pastor kind of thing to do... haha, just kidding. Anyways, I have a full load at mizzou, taking 16 hours:

anatomy 2201 with lab, Biology 1500 with lab, chem 1310, medical terminology, and exploring health professions. It's gonna be a hard semester. I'm gonna need your help to make sure I have a life. I'm counting on you!

anyways, guys, i don't have too much to say... ending thoughts:

Book distribution is gonna rock the socks off of the Devil... i hope his feet get cold and he has to run out of mizzou and never come back, cuz God is definitely triumphant....

it would really suck if when you were dogsitting for someone the dog died. I hope that doesn't happen to me. It already broke its leg.

ebay and half.com is my new fave place online besides facebook and webmail.

a song by Jars of clay:

There's more that rises in the morning than the sun
And more that shines in the night than just the moon
There's more than just this fire here that keeps me warm
In a shelter that is larger than this room

And there's a loyalty that's deeper than mere sentiments
And a music higher than the songs that I can sing
Stuff of Earth competes for the allegiance
I owe only to the Giver of all good things

So if I stand let me stand on the promise that you will pull me through
And if I can't, let me fall on the grace that first brought me to You
So if I sing let me sing for the joy that has born in me these songs
And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for his home

And there's more that dances on the prairies than the wind
And more that pulses in the ocean than the tide
There's a love that's fiercer than the love between friends
More gentle than a mother's when her baby's at her side

And there's a loyalty that's deeper than mere sentiments
And a music higher than the songs that I can sing
The stuff of Earth competes for the allegence
I owe only to the Giver of all good things

So if I stand let me stand on the promise that You will pull me through
And if I can't let me fall on the grace that first brought me to You
And if I sing let me sing for the joy that has born in me these songs
And if I weep let it be as a man who is longing for his home

Hey Ladies and Gents. It's me again....

So I went on an awesome camping trip right after school got out. I went with my scuba diving class. We had a total blast! Everyone there is awesome! I didn't get to dive except for once, though, cuz I had a head cold. I was kinda sad. But on the dive that I did get to go on, I went down 71ft! It was really cold down there.... I had a blast, and my bestest friend Rachel and I had great bonding time.

So I've been apartment searching, and that isn't going so well. Neither is the searching for a second job. However, I feel complete confidence that as long as I'm in the will of God, everything is going to go smoothly, and that He has a plan better than my own. It's such a cool feeling to know that I don't have to worry about it.... wow.

So school is over.... reminiscing on this last year in school, I realized that first semester, I messed up a whole bunch. I wasn't in the will of God. But even though I regret it, I know that God is gonna make the most of it.

And I'm totally enjoying this time of living with my family and getting to hang out with them. They truly rock my world. We have gone swimming, gone to the Memorial Day parade, everything... and had the time of our lives together.... I love my family.

So guys, how are things with you? What are you learning right now? Prayer requests, anyone? tell me how things are. I miss those of you who I haven't seen for a while, and hope that there will come a time when we can see each other soon!!!!

Bye guys~

manda

Psalm 27:13-14