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| Sing, like no one is listening Dance, like no one is watching Live, like there is no tomorrow Love, like your heart has never been broken. I love this poem, saying or what ever it might actually be. I am 57 years old, next year I will have 3 great grandkids. I wonder if it time to stop having red spike hair. Or maybe it is time for us to live like the above poem, instead of the one that goes, When I am an old woman I shall wear purple. Maybe when you read both of them they really mean the same thing. Well whatever I think I shall. After all the result of silence is tranquility. | | |
| Strange, now that just about all of my special kids have quit posting on xanga or quit reading it I all of a sudden feel like posting. We are about as down as we can get, and our reserves are non existent, So much to take in and we are heart broken and cling to each other in the whirlpool that is threatening to carry us down to the bottom. We neither one know how our loving and caring so much has led us to ask God what we have done so bad in life that it feels like life is getting the better of us. Each time we hold each other and try to convince the other that everything will work out in the end, but it gets harder to believe that as we take turn crying and consoling the other. When does it stop?? At death??? Sometimes you think when you close your eyes at night, maybe it would be nice to stay in that dream state forever and never have to open your eyes, never hear the woes and watch the ones we love fall further and no matter what we do we realize it has never made a difference not one little difference and everything keeps piling up and up and we are drowning by our love and our need to try to make things better. Sad to be drowning and always feel the pain, but never be allowed the release. | | |
| Got my car back.......Yeah just a month and a half to fix it....It sure fills good to be driving it instead of that pickup. I am going to Seattle in two weeks....That will be fun. But I don't understand why my nephew is getting married at 11:00 on a Friday morning. It will give me more time to play before I have to come back home. | | |
| Well I had a car wreck today. I was coming back from Arkansas (I had picked up the babies to bring them back home). I was 10 miles south of town, when I jerked on the wheel and went into a spin, the biggest mistake was trying to put on the brakes. I ended up caught in the middle of a barbed wire fence. My car is scratched up from one end to the other, a few dents and possibly a bent tire rim (I hope it not worse). I guess the most important think is we are all okay, and there wasn't another car or person involved. Jesus was watching over us. | | |
| Well the babies are in Arkansas. I sure miss them. No kids wondering in and out any more. I sure miss the days when all of you were in high school and kept this place jumping. Mandy Jo has a new job, Jeff got his driver's license, Zoe is back in ponca, but she must be sleeping all the time, I don't see or hear from her. Toby will be back home on Friday. I hope this works for him, He wants to go to vo tech, He will live with us for right now. Scott is going back to Missouri with his mom, but I don't see him much any ways. School starts soon and Amber will be back in Soccer, Carly and Cory will be back in school, I guess Jessie is going continue home school, but Alex is going back to regular school.
I am almost finished with my hide away room up stairs, I think I am going to put a lock on the inside and hide out, it will be really nice when it gets finished.
Well to all of you returning to classes hope this is a wonderful year for you. Love you all. | | |
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