marduk_the_cradle's Xanga

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 05:36:13 GMT

I don't know why,. I hate it while it happens but I love when you look at a girl and she looks so pretty that when she's looks back at you you can't seem to get a word to come out of your mouth

Invierno

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 19:32:07 GMT

I.-Ampule

I saw a euphimism for a face with aging teeth and a restrained smile
An oversized shawl that drapes over the melodramatic hordes
A surging chaos crippled by its fear, and all the denial that pain affords

Then just like the crashing of waves an upheaval of pain
and akward comforts aside there is nothing to gain.

Sometimes I wonder what eyes I see
A reflection, a lie, or is there glass inbetween

Yet I still could always swear I'm only trying to stop the bleeding
but i still may never care

Somehow luckily my heads still out of the water
and I can breath these "at least" hopes
With a reinforced will of sorts,
Somehow theres always just enough light to stay awake,
Fuller breaths, and simple laughter,
It can make me forget.

II.-Relax

Shine....

equilibrium,

a treasure in a disappointment

III.-Insight

.....disassociated, what is this isolated fear?...
a replacement, are we boiling in the same stew?

deceitful or flawed, it all lies in grey space
biding time blindly by the whims of an ocean

Save some face, what a shame

.
Who's the one that truly is oblivious?

IV.-Evoke

An allure misused runs out of breath
The second siren now I will ignore
Sway my sight away, the words exist no more

by my whim you are personified in penciled tongues,
but no more.
Somewhere inbetween... your counterfeit treasures will be forgotten

V.-Carbon Laughter

Despite it all I can't stop the laughter inside, what does it mean?

I have an idea....

I hate it I love it I lose

its a carbon copy of pain

just another disguise, with any hope it will lead me to digust

halfway there

Ive seen the selfish wither and die

False flatteries I never spoke

they will lead me there

There is no hope for you

-Xul- 2008

Laughter

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 21:20:41 GMT

Despite it all I can't stop the laughter inside, what does it mean?

I have an idea....

I hate it I love it I lose

its a carbon copy of pain

just another disguise, with any hope it will lead me to digust

halfway there

Ive seen the selfish wither and die

False flatteries I never spoke

they will lead me there

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 05:16:15 GMT

Mitigation

-An infinity of vasts accounts to share
Be it in silence or a portrait of repenting words,
Among the midsts a spectacle all for you
(Does your memory serve you well?)

-Mine does and I remember the funny games
Tamed to the truth with a smile on my face

-How did she know? "Its the smile,.." she told me.
And twin raindrops fell, I do recall.

-Jesting analysis and forceful redemption of a ruined soul.
Its why you have my grace. I do recall.

-Would you absolve?

IM XUL BITCH

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 08:13:49 GMT

Who's the one that truly is oblivious, .....

Hope is Cold

Such a cold place for supposed comfort
The sterile stench of the hope they sell
That tantalizing hope they can never touch
Such a cold place, it might as well be hell

I hear prayers and cries of anguish, grief as well
Faces fade but are soon replaced, a new chapter to read
There is laughter too but seldom does it ring out loud
And ill forever find it funny that malady is cured by greed

And what of the keepers and watchers through every passing day
Seeming so careless with their bellies full of apathy?
They know that hope is cold, but Ill spare them their inquisitions
.. after all they are not to blame, it is all nothing if not the best we could do

Monday, March 17, 2008

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 05:29:49 GMT

Shine....

equilibrium,

a treasure in a disappointment

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 07:30:18 GMT

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 02:25:12 GMT

I can only wonder at the apparent circumstances that lead to this place in time, where and why did the disconnection occur, there are no crutches whispering deceits, just sad realizations and bitter truths. How sad is it truly to be paralyzed by the very thing that could save you and be helpless to the fact,..

Ampule
I saw a euphimism for a face with aging teeth and a restrained smile
An over-sized shawl that drapes over the melodramatic hordes
A surging chaos crippled by its fear, and all the denial that pain affords

Then just like the crashing of waves an upheaval of pain
and awkward comforts aside there is nothing to gain.

Sometimes I wonder what eyes I see
A reflection, a lie, or is there glass in between

Yet I still could always swear I'm only trying to stop the bleeding
but i still may never care

-Xul Feb. 2008-

somehow luckily my heads still out of the water and i can breath either "at least" hopes and a reinforced will of sorts, .. somehow theres always just enough light to stay awake, fuller breaths, and simple laughter, it can make me forget

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 14:09:28 GMT

is it worth it,. is any of it. Are your sins worth their taste,. are your morals worth their ways.. we all think too much. God would be someone to help you without ever saying a word,. so why do we speak so much, perhaps cuz we arent he who is I am, but we must strive for perfection, funny to strive for something we know we can't attain. It's too bad you have to be blind to have faith,. I can't make blind myself I can't make myself wander aimlessly with promises of safe passage,... I don't always trust myself,. more importantly I don't trust the world

anyway new music of mine www.myspace.com/intaglioxul

Sinners(Empty mix) & C.I.C.(demo)

Logo by Skald

umm

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 05:26:20 GMT

that was the worst comedown i have ever had,....

i feel better now,. its gone through,...

i need to get better now.. im tired of this