| | American IdolI never really got into American Idol. I watched bits and pieces of the first couple seasons, but then it got old really fast for me. In the first few seasons, I could at least find humor in the people who thought they were excellent but couldn't carry a tune, and there were some truly talented people on there. Now, the people who make it to finals are okay at best, with a few exceptions, and the funny untalented people are just doing crazy shit to get their couple minutes of fame. And that's all this is about, isn't it? Fame. Doesn't matter if it's deserved or not, positive or negative, people want fame. I can't understand our country's obsession with fame. Everybody idolizes the people they see on tv, and see things like American Idol as really being important. I bring this up, because for Christmas, I made CDs of myself singing Christmas carols which I distributed to my family and the church choir. Now, despite the fact that the popiest song on there was Winter Wonderland, many people still said that I should be trying out for American Idol. This irks me, because it implies that what I am doing with my life is somehow not as good as winning American Idol and becoming a pop star. I see it differently. Even if I was guaranteed to win this competition, you still wouldn't find me in that audition line. Because really, it's beneath me. Pop music isn't very hard to sing. Many pop stars, like Kelly Clarkson, were classically trained, and I'm sure they would agree that what they sing now is far easier than anything they sang in lessons. I find the secret to singing pop music well is to have training, and then know just how much of that training to ignore. But that's besides the point. Although I can sing Kelly Clarkson pretty well, my voice was really meant for choral work and church music. Not too exciting for some, but to me this is the most beautiful music and the purest sound the voice can create. And then there's the music therapy. Using my music to help people. But this is forgotten when the possibility of fame enters the room. Why is it seen as more respectable to be a pop star than a music therapist? Or a music teacher? Or a member of a church choir? I'm happy with what I do, and I don't want fame. That life of concerts all over the place and people adoring you may seem exciting, but I bet it's tiring. I want a home and a family. Stability and comfort. Who really wants to have to jump around from city to city, staying just long enough to sing and leave, and meanwhile having people following you around at the friggen grocery store, watching you buy pads then asking for your autograph? That's just not for me. I'd rather help people with my art, and perform in more intimate settings. I don't want fans, unless they know me as a person as well. The idea of people knowing you without you knowing them has always been a little creepy to me, and I'd like to stay away from that. I would never want people to love me just because I won a stupid competition. I want people to love me because I am a good person, who is also talented. I want to be loved by people who know me, not those who are just in love with my image. And yet people will still tell me I should audition for American Idol. I think it's often a selfish desire for them. Everybody wants to be able to say I knew her when. Everybody wants there Merry Christmas, Love Jessica Cds to be worth something someday. But I just want to make people happy. Help people cope with the impending end of their lives, help people feel closer to God. So, when I say, "No, American Idol's not for me," I'm not being modest, but actually arrogant. I know I am talented, but I have better uses for my talent than that show could ever offer. I'm never going to be someone's prime time entertainment, but you let me know if you need me for a wedding or a funeral, or some other intimate occasion. |
| | Posted 1/3/2008 3:48 PM - 53 views - 1 comments
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