| Wow, I haven't been
on here in a while. Life has been interesting to say the
least. Well if interesting = crappy. Oh well, it will get
better. It already is slowly. I'm not too worried about
it.
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| So yes, I changed my cell number. I really didn't want to but I
guess there is no way to block numbers... that blows. I was
expecting a phone call from a friend and didn't get it because I forgot
to give her my new number. Not everyone that used to have my old
one is getting this one because they can't be trusted. If certain
people get the new one I'm going to start pressing charges if they
don't quit harassing me. It makes me mad that I have to avoid
certain places in my own town just to avoid this mess but honestly it's
for the best. Joel doesn't want me to go certain places because
he knows something bad is bound to happen. Some people would say
who cares what he wants but I respect his opinion and will listen to
him... if something did happen he would seriously beat the shit out of
them for me... I don't want him in that position. He's right
though. Mom and me had the same dream... something bad happening
because of the same 2 people. She's honestly worried and told me
to be careful. I'm sure some people think I might be over
reacting but I don't think I am.
I thought I knew this guy. I thought he cared about me. I
chose to disregard the HORRIBLE things that multiple people said about
him because I cared about him. Then he turned on me. I let
him treat me like shit. I met Joel and he showed me how it's
supposed to be. I've raised my standards and I won't lower them
for anyone. I deserve the best. The best is not that piece
of shit and I will do anything to keep him out of my life. I told
him this and I heard the same old lines... "Come on Krissy, you only
live once." "I want to be your friend." " Just one beer." One
beer would turn into 2 and then 5 beers, some Jack and Jose later and
there I am ... being taken advantage of all over again. I don't
want there to be another story to spread around. I refuse to let
him make me look stupid again. When it comes to relationships, my
only fault is that I care to much. I've
smartened up this past year. Boyfriend or not Joel would do
ANYTHING for me... I won't give him a reason to though.
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| I'm
going to have to change my cell phone number... I have to wait a while
though because I just sent out resumes. I would hate to not get a
job because of this. Apparently it's okay to give out peoples'
phone numbers. I always thought that was rude and asked peoples
permission first. I really didn't want this particular
ex-boyfriend to have it and my so-called-friend gave it to him (she
denies it of course). I thought I was finally free of him and
guess what I'm not. I swear there are only like 5 people in this
world that I can trust. I'm starting to not care whether or not I
have friends. I have my family and Joel and that's really all I
need.
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| I'm SO
ready for this semester to be over with so I can make some real money
and not be stressed out and get to have fun on a regular basis...
that's not too much to ask for is it??
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