marikolovespink's Xanga

caught in a net of troubles with nowhere to run.

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 09:42:56 GMT

i know you'll always be there for me.. <3

its sunday! i like sundays the most. ((: especially this one. cos it was my FIRST time doing USHERING. like officially. i mean, i've done it SO many times when i was younger. helped out my grandmama then, and i still do help some people occasionally you know. i like ushering. cos its nice to offer people smiles in the morning just before they step into the sanctuary. i like brightening up people's day. lol.
you should have seen me in the morning. i mean, though like part of my cell was down for duty (thanks to MOI!), i was the only one giving out the booklets. the rest were just there to offer their hands and smiles. lol. i was kinda "ambushing" (that's the word some of them used) them in a sense, hiding behind the corner, waiting for them to get close enough before jumping out and saying, "GOOD MORNING!" and hand them a booklet. lol.
it was fun okie. i swear. i'd recommend that job to anyone. lol. some people thought of it as ambushing them, but some people, including my pastors said i was ENTHUSIASTIC! ((: at least some people know how to appreciate me. they said its "good to have such enthusiasm meeting them so early in the morning." lol.
i didnt feel at all tired you know, even without breakfast, cos i kinda woke up late as usual. lol.
after church, i went around trying to sell the DRAMA NIGHT tickets. (hmm HMM? anyone?!!) anyways, i tried my BEST! some people were nice to give me VALID reasons, like weddings and all, but SOME people like this idiot MARCUS with NO LIFE gave me this excuse, "oh sorry, that night, i wanna stay home to watch my WWE."
WTH man. WWE is for losers with no life. honestly. seeing a guy "bashing" up another guy on tv. what so fun about it. especially when they arent really hitting one another. i've seen how they REALLY do it you know. its so FAKE!
anws, hung out with my "BEST FRIEND" fang ren. he claimed he was my best friend. lol. managed to snap some photos. upload them later! lol.

after church and all that, my family headed out for lunch. guess what we had?
DIM SUM!!
its been some CRAZZZZZZ you know, three weeks in a row we've been having dim sum for lunch every sunday after church. i guess my dad wants to find out the best dim sum there is around. lol. will share with you guys after we've done with the craz. lol. so far, we've been to.. oh my. cant remember the first place, but it was at paragon i think, cant really remember. then the second place was at SHANG PALACE HOTEL (something along that name) and the one we had today, it was at TAKASHIMAYA, CRYSTAL JADE. apparently this one is better than the one at holland, cos they COOKED the food, whereas the other places, they mass produce it, so they just heat it up or something. the beef there was apparently the best, cos it was so tender and juicy. lol.
wonder where my dad will bring us next week! hopefully PARAMOUNT? cos im kinda DYING to drink the PIGEON soup. lol.

OH OH! yesterday was actually kinda nice, cos in the morning, my mummy brought me out to bugis to try this place she found that did make up and all. it was actually for my FOUNDER's day. cos, as you guys already know, im not too good at doing my own make up, though others may think differently. anws, this woman was quite good, cos in the end, people that walked past said i looked pretty. lol. though, i thought i looked more like a doll! when i went to church after my english tuition, this uncle walked up to me and said i looked different. he said i looked like some KOREAN golfer. lol. first i'd EVER heard. owells. lol.

i NEED to know how to put on fake eyelashes! they make my eyes look bigger apparently. lol.

i had fun yesterday and today. maybe cos its like CHURCH stuff and i get absolutely HIGH when im at church. haha.
i guess i'll upload the pics now. kinda a lot you know. ((:

"i know you're taking a photo of me." says marcus.
so? you didnt stop me, so now its all over my xanga! shoot me. ((:

hey.. i was bored.. haha.

UNGLAM PIC OF KELLY AT TUITION! haha.

the one that took the LONGEST to burn. (but it didnt finish burning in the end. lol.)
watch as it SLOWLY burns downwards.. haha.

attempt #no. 2!

my "BEST FRIEND" and I! lol.

HIS BIG ASS!

AWW.. there's nothing to be shy about..

he tried to hurt me.. )):

CHARISSE the CHICKEN! haha.

marcus the one with NO LIFE. haha.

my brother the notorious bandit!

my faded make up after the games at church. lol.

when my make up wasn't so faded. dont comment. haha.

my SPARKLER STRUCTURE! lol.
its called COMPLICATED BEAUTY. lol.

it was a pleasure to burn.

balloon structures! or the FALLEN balloon structures. lol.

BEST CHOCOLATE EVER!

HEY KIDS! join the tubes! dont drop the balls!!
YOU TOO ADULTS! ((:

okie. thats all i'll upload for now. the rest will be my PRIVATE collection. haha. im just kidding. upload them NEXT TIME! ((:

LOVE.

i dont understand whats wrong with me?...

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 11:21:48 GMT

its friday.. im supposed to be all happy that its friday and that tomorrow, i'll be going for the church get together thing, not forgetting Pat's last combine cell.. but like, i dont understand.. im not. im not happy at all. not only that, im feeling.. how should i say, sad, confused, mixed up? maybe its the lack of sleep? maybe its because i feel im a lazy asshole that doesnt wanna get her act together and study? maybe im just giving excuses to procrastinate.. i dont know..

i can be such a biatch at times. but hey, i've said it before, and i'll say it again, you have no right to call me a biatch. only i have. you want, you call yourself that. anws, i think that MAYBE i was a bit harsh to momoren just now, maybe i shouldnt have treated you so coldly. but I DONT KNOW!! i just felt like doing that. like it just suddenly felt like i had to be mean, do something mean, say something mean. argh. im immature. shoot me. i dont feel good.
i need ashlyn to cheer me up with her blurness..

today, during the last period, GEL, we had this "talk" on dealing with a loved one passing on. it was not really a "talk" cos no one could really hear the speaker, even though she held a mike. so its like, no one paid attention. she surely lost mine. anyways, we had this worksheet, so i roughly knew what was happening. but then, i was thinking, and actually, i had thought through this before, i mean, what would i do if someone in my family died, or someone i really cared about died? what would i do? would i just fall into this trance and not be able to pull myself out of it? or would i face it bravely and not shed a tear? would i be happy or would i be sad? would i would i would i.. all these hypothetical questions kept popping into my head. sure. i guess, looking at my current state, i guess i'd cry my heart out. then maybe, i wouldnt sink so deep, because crying helps right? but then, if no one pulls me out of the pit, i guess i'd be stuck there forever. so.. i dont know. i honestly DONT.

just now momoren asked me whats happening, whats wrong with me, why am i treating momoren that way? the answer, i never told momoren. but i've thought through it, and i honestly DONT KNOW.
i realise my life is full of unknowns. i mean, i feel like a blind person feeling my way through the darkness, lost in her own world. longing for someone, something, ANYTHING to get her out. maybe a little light, just a little light might help. but its ironic, cos im supposed to be blind and all. heh. get the joke? omg. im so lame. anyhoo, what im trying to say is that, now, right now, im feeling very lost, confused, and i guess, i need time. time to think, to reflect. time to come to my senses.

im gonna turn in early today. because i know im just an asshole who needs some sleep. i'll get over this. dont worry. ((:

note to self: never play with witchery. its playing with satan. entertaining him, killing yourself.
maybe thats me. im putting a mask over to protect myself from the unknown.

LOVE.

i'd admit it if i was wrong. im sure of that.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 12:35:59 GMT

okie. so i just felt like posting something that is about me. lol. im not being egoistic or anything, because honestly, this post is to bring out the bad and good in me i guess?

like for one, i'd admit it if i feel that what someone else or even at times i think or say is true. like for one, i'd say that im particularly petty. especially when its someone whom i feel is close to me that says something or when things dont really go my way, i throw a tantrum. not my fault. im sure everyone has these problems. or maybe its just me. but anyways, as i always say, "who are you to criticise me?!" lol.

next, i'd dare say that im a sadistic biatch. and even though i'd admiting to it, you aint supposed to call me that, cos like what i said in the beginning, im a petty shit, so if you call me a sadistic biatch too, i'd get angry and ignore you, maybe i'll throw in a free tantrum as well. lol. so, as i was saying, i feel im sadistic, because, sometimes, i thrive in another person's mishap. like i dont know, i just do. but its actually with different people that i feel like that, maybe its only towards the guys. like i LOVE bullying that idiot fang ren in church, and it makes me happy when i get to pinch or hit him. and then, there's always that asshole that always tries to piss me off. but i feel happy when I manage to piss him off instead. lol. so im sadistic. sue me. however, i'd advise you not to waste your time AND money, because i've got the best lawyer at home with me. my MUMMY. ((:

anyways!! before i type on. just wanna add in a little something!! this is for my BESTIE CHARISSE CHUA!

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY!!
(i'd honestly say it wont be THAT sweet, considering there's O's coming up, but i'd better not pour cold water on you)

this was a lil something i painted for cc! nice? i know its not as nice as maybe what some of you can do. but i made improvements okie. just havent uploaded the improved version. lol. so just be happy with this. ((:

anws, i dont feel like blogging anymore..
OH!
DRAMA NIGHT ON 11th and 12th of JULY!!
the play is called, "DAISY PULLS IT OFF"
tickets are at $15!
just tell me if you want to come.
highly recommended, especially if your a sec 4 student looking for stress relief! lol.
just take it as a social gathering!! ((:
HURRY!!

LOVE.

its not worth it.

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 11:56:05 GMT

its never worth to give up a friendship or anything for a stupid guy. as in, guys would say anything to get a girl. we're all human. human are selfish living beings. we tend to go all out once we set our eyes on something we really desperately want. sometimes to the extent of lying or saying sweet nothings. im just surprised at the fact that like some girls would fall into their trap, because i was once like them. but i've learnt my lesson so i thought, its my turn to share. it hurts when you find out that they lied to you, saying they'll "love you forever", "like you forever", or say other things that make you wanna feel for them, but we're all human. we say stupid stuff.

have you ever experienced talking to some jerk jackass who never seems to know wat to say, like the right things to say. he's damn shitty head asshole. honestly, just cos my school does WAY better than yours, and like the standard is WAY better as well, doesnt mean that cos in YOUR school your in the "A" band that you are academically inclined in anyway you know. i mean, if I went to your school, im sure i'd do like WAY WAY better than you. im this petty. you have something against it?! talk to my lawyer! lol.

anws, i was blog hopping just a while ago. its kinda sad to know that a friend of mine is suffering, yet i cant do anything about it. okie. maybe there IS one thing. i could pray for her, no, them, and then hope that GOD will do something about it. ((:
i just hope i can help them.

okie. i dont feel like xanga-ing anymore. maybe cos one, im tired. two, my mummy's nagging me. )):

im gonna sleep.

there's a place where i go that nobody knows
where the rivers flow and i call it home
and there's no more lies in the darkness there's light
and nobody cries, there's only butterflies

LOVE.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 10:44:57 GMT

Rosey Pink

You are romantic and generous. You are sometimes a little embarrassed and get easily timid by others. You try your best in everything, but you give up very easily too. There are times your timidness can lead to being taken advantage by others

I TOTALLY AGREE! ((:
PINK IS SO MY COLOUR!

LOVE.

Curtains finally closing, that was quite a show. very entertaining. but it's over now..

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 07:03:02 GMT

Talking bout 'Girl I love you You're the one'
This just looks like a re-run (please)
What else is on?
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

okie. im not emo or anything ah.. i just really like that song that rihanna sang. WOOHOO girl, another hit for me! lol. i mean, its really nice, and when i first heard it, i really thought it applied to my life at that point of time, loads of emo stuff happening then. but i got over those. so.. ((:
cos after all, that song is meant to tell people, okie, its enough, you've been sad for long enough. now, pull yourself together and never let that jerk hurt you twice. lol. i mean, thats how i interpret it. (:

its monday again. hmm.. its different today, cos today, my daddy's not in singapore. my mummy's not coming home early. so.. ((:
okie. those are just general things i know. but i dont really have anything random to blog. oh wait. i think i do!

today i had my english prelim oral. it was like a total shock to me, cos i totally forgot about it! i walked into class, saw everyone hovering around the front of the board, went up to look, realised there was oral today. i was like shit. but owells! the oral went great i guess? cos like there werent like any difficult words to read. it was more on the conversation in the passage they were testing on i guess. plus, the conversation topic was on the elderly. so i talked about my father's parents, and my mother's mum! that cute old lady. ((: she really helped me, cos she was in my mind throughout the whole oral. i mean, without her, i wouldnt have been able to crap so much. i even mentioned that i play mahjong with her, and the teachers laughed when i mentioned mahjong. lol.

so LOADS of homework. hopefully i can finish it.. )):

more random stuff! watched like the last half an hour of FACING THE GIANTS at church this sunday. i realised im such a loser, cos like everyone apparently has watched it at least once.some ever twice or thrice! and i havent even watched the full movie yet. hmph. even my brother has watched it once. )): but hey! who are you to comment! ask yourself if you've watched it yet! hmph!

anyways, while waiting for my siblings at church, i was being entertained by fang ren. he is the best! always lets me pinch, vent my anger, and also entertains me. even though i still cant understand why he is so mean to me at times. is it to get me away by annoying me, but if so, why does he still let me bully him and at the same time entertain me?.. sometimes i really dont understand him.. asked him a few times why he has to be so mean, he always cannot answer me. hmph. hope i get an answer soon lor. (:

church was real good, like cos pastor andy was doing sermon. i mean, i like his style i guess, cos it connects more with the youth. he's not that old. so ya. haha. plus, he's damn funny, and also like the new youth administrator. took over pat. ((:
GET TOGETHER THIS SAT! as in for service one people! hope H.O.W. can attend it together. so that after that, we could just attend combine together! all that bonding. cant wait! ((:
everyday, i feel im growing closer to GOD, and away from all the others. i like this feeling better than anything!

gonna watch tv then HOMEWORK! hopefully. lol.
before i leave, another fav song of mine!

So alone all the time and I
Lock myself away
Listen to me, Oh No!
Although I'm dressed up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name

mind you, this doesnt apply to me! my name's TOO UNIQUE! ((:
true love can withstand all things. <3

LOVE.

am i being pragmatic?..

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 05:57:14 GMT

you know, the other night, i was on the phone with someone.. oh shoots. am i bothering the people trying to study behind me? im kinda typing a bit loudly.. but its the keyboards fault! its so old.. lol. im at church again.. as usual.. spending time here before i leave for cell. who asked cell to be all the way in the east and my house to be in the west?! hmph..
anws.. as i started off, i was on the phone with someone.. we were bullshitting about la. talking about all sorts of crap. we often digress a lot. like we were supposed to be talking about a certain topic, but we only ended up talking about it for like 10 mins, and the rest of the 2 hrs plus is like pure bull shit. anws, he suddenly said, "mariko, i cant figure out whether you ARE pragmatic or are you just PRETENDING to be pragmatic (this btw means working for something or someone only because it benefits you i guess)?"
and thats when it struck me. oh shits. i didnt think anyone was gonna ask me that question. i was certainly not expecting him of all people to ask me that question. not saying that he doesnt ask all sorts of questions, i mean, he pissses me off when he tries to act smart and ask questions. but not this one, nope, never expected it.. yup. so it set me pondering.. and i still dont have the answer, cos sometimes, i'd honestly be more than happy to help anyone, but i guess its more towards those who are not so privilleged or mentally or physically handicapped people, even old folks too you know. you get what i mean. i guess, im not so anxious to help people when they've got all five senses still working and all their legs and arms intact mainly because if its something i feel they can do it themselves, then why come bother me? unless its really something out of their control, then maybe, i'd try my utmost to help them in anyway possible. ((: but hey! im not trying to boast or anything here okie. dont get the wrong idea. im just trying to answer my own question. (:

anws, LOVE MG was on last night!!! never expected mummy to say okie and let me go! ((: if i'd known, i would have asked me whole cell to go.. hmm.. ): but owells, it was just as fun i guess? lol. i went with maween, cc and wayne. and maybe also cc's friends? but i dont really know them so well, so it doesnt really matter anws. lol. in the beginning, the first band kinda suck, couldnt connect to the audience at ALL! like they were in their own world! but.. you gotta forgive them, cos they were still lower sec people, so.. ((:
the sermon was G-R-R-R-R-E-A-T-T-T-T-T-T!!! i loved it! and the videos they showed! there was one that talked about how easy it is to talk and talk for ages but yet, no one really likes to listen to someone nag or rant about things you know, like its so easy to open your mouth to ask for something, but its sometimes so difficult to give generously.

bottomline: we always like to ask GOD for this and that, and tell HIM how much we want it and all, but do we really listen to what GOD wants to tell us? i mean, we surround ourselves with noise pollution everyday, listen to music in the car and all that, but when do we spare time for GOD? when do we read our bibles or talk to HIM about our days? when do we obey GOD? im not saying im perfect and do all that. for one, i'd admit that i hardly read my bible. but i do try to pray to HIM every night to tell him about my day. lols. i know it might sound weird, but to some extent, HE is our friend and father right? so i thought if HE were a friend, HE'd wanna know what i did, stuff about my life you know..

OH OH! something nice to share! my english tuition teacher came back from france like way long ago, but i havent met her until today cos of a lot of different reasons.. anyhoo, i went to her house today for tuition and she told me she bought me something! it was a LOLLIPOP! it was colourful and handmade! the stick was a wooden stick and it was not that round round type, but more of a blob of sugar on top kinda thing, damn fattening, but DAMN NICE!! ((:
anws, she told me she bought it from a shop that sold ONLY sweet nothings. like from chocolate to sweets to cookies! and they were all made by the owners themselves! she said it was a child's heaven and a parent actually stopped the child from entering cos she was scared the daughter would eat so much sweets and fall sick. lol. it was so PRETTTYYY.. but i ate it! no more for you!! wonder if chloe would know where it is and help me get some.. lols. still owe her that letter of hers. hehe..

anyways, i guess thats all the time i have to talk about random stuff that pop into my brain. lols.
gotta go for cell! ((:

LOVE.

anyone?..

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 23:25:45 GMT

enlighten me someone, who the hell posted this shitzzz?...

I love ------, shhh. Don't tell her that I'm lesbian

And, I'm damn cooool

Okaaaay, I gotta go out with ------ now, she's bugging me. BYE

some ppl just annoy the shitzz outta me.. ):

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 21:14:12 GMT

aww.. i was so happy when i managed to get my hands on this comp at school, cos i was so ready to blog about the past few days, happy thoughts you know! then some stupid arrogant ass has to open a conversation on msn with me and start bragging about how well or how lucky he is at gambling. i mean, WTH?! honestly, no one is more EGOISTICAL then this ass. cos i try to tell him that gambling is bad, i mean, even GOD tells us in the bible not to gamble, so shouldnt we learn from that? and plus, its not true that everyone wins at gambling. its bad when you get addicted. just look at the addicts at the rehab! but then he thinks im talking bull and ignores watever advice i just gave him. hmph. its like a slap in my face. thanks a lot man. BLEAGHX.

ANYWAYS! not to let him spoil my day! (:
i shall blog about how WONDERFUL GOD is at giving second chances and allowing people to change for the better. cos this amazing this happened to a friend of mine. i guess he could be counted as a friend. owells, he got himself into trouble by i guess, mixing with the wrong bunch of friends, and since he was such a friend, he was willing to be the scapegoat and take all the blame for what his friend actually did. which i think is on one hand really stupid, but on the other, its really noble, because i dont think i'd have actually done the same.. ): but owells, it WAS kinda scary at first, because no one knew what to expect. his friend had actually broken four laws, but he had to take the blame. so he was kinda expecting jail time, or like a huge fine? but it was kinda under control, and plus, his friend's mother told him that she was gonna pay the fine if it was like 2000 plus and below. even though the fine eventually was $2300?.. but still, his time he had to serve if the fine was not paid would have been like 12-18 days in jail? cant really rmb now.. but thats not the point! i mean, i'd honestly not be able to stay in jail even for a day! worse still 18?.. but GOD is great! he gave him a second chance at redeeming himself, and to study hard to change.. now, its all up to him. ((:

oh yes! i had my chinese O level oral yesterday.. totally screwed it up.. i kept tripping over my words while reading the passage, so i had to re read a lot of words.. then, in my conversation, i totally went off topic. lucky, the teacher reminded me, and i saved a bit of myself. but the point is that NO teacher has ever told me i went off topic. so this time i screwed myself up. freak. ): when i told my granny, she was like, "WHAT?! fail oral?! aiyo.. how to pass anything now.." she's so depressing at times..

owells, i persuaded my friend to try his what he calls "luck" while he plays with my granny at mahjong. she's the ultimate. so i doubt he'll win. hope he loses BADLY! hmph. haha..

okie.. gonna watch my drama while the pesky kids talk next to me. SECONDARY LIBRARY does NOT equals to PRIMARY PLAYGROUND..

the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

LOVE.

i live in my own lil bubble. you are all invited!

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 12:27:43 GMT

bubble bubble. i have a bubble! ((:
i know you all want in on my bubble, DONT WORRY! you people are ALL already in it! lol. even you CLEMENCE! hahha.. its kinda funny okie. cos my "bubble" was created by yours truly! lol. it started with me being "outdated" according to clemence, who by the way, didnt even know that michael jackson is STILL alive (which made jo-ann pissed cos she's a HUMUNGOUS fan of him. she's CRAZZYYY over him if you know what i mean. lol ), so anws, she said i was living in my own shell, and i didnt know what was going on around the world. but i didnt like the idea of living in a definite space of a shell where i cannot have any daylight unless i stuck my head out, i mean, thats if i wanted to anws. lol. so i came up with the idea of me in my bubble. haha. its cool okie. cos clemence claims its #1: sound proof from the inside cos she refuses to listen to me when i talk, she pretends she cant hear me.
OH OH! cool fact #2 : it cant keep me dry from the rain! haha. but i usually carry the umbrella cos it'd be weird if people saw me without an umbrella, yet all dry and walking along the streets when its raining cats and dogs right? haha. cooler fact #3: it can contain as MANY people i like, and expand as BIG as i want it to be! its all in the imagination babe. lol. im gonna come up with cooler facts about my bubble and i! just wait and see! hhee.

anws, melody was sick. this time, its REAL. like honestly. you've never heard me say that from the bottom of my heart before, but this time, its honestly real. haha. she's got the stomach flu i think? the doctor didnt know whats up with her either lols. but i suspect its the stomach flu cos she's got all the symtoms! fever, puking, stomach pains? and maybe diarrhoea? but owells, clemence and i visited the SICK GIRL today. wanted to surprise her, but she was too dumb and spoiled the whole surprise. hmph. no fun. owells, we had our laughs today. especially me! cos clemence got so pissed with my bubble and i! lol. more torture for her tomorrow!! ((: MUAHAHAAHHA..

OOOOOO!!! last point! had jap food for dinner! daddy had been dying to bring us to this jap restaurant for AGES! but we always had something on last min, so we never had the chance to go to the restaurant to dine. today we finally had the chance. omg. it was buffet, so we kinda ate quite a lot. i was smart to only eat a lil bit of everything. though i still ended up getting DAMN full. shit the good food. lol. it was good food, but cos im not a buffet person, i wouldnt go unless someone was paying, cos though the food's good, if i cant eat a lot, what's the use of a buffet?! lol.

i went to school, realised i have quite a lot to do actually. i have a chemistry paper and TYS that i've only managed to sit at for half a paper, the WHOLE AMATHS TYS which i dont even have, three physics papers, TONS of english hmwk (eg, compilation of conversation topics, mindmaps, research on festivals in singapore, journal logs, etc.), and a CHINESE FREAKING O LEVEL ORAL TO STUDY FOR. shit la. stupid class SO SUAY. got to be on the FIRST freaking day. DAMN LUCKY no? -.-ll even english too! all AMELIA SEET's FAULT! yes, amelia, im blaming you. not that im being mean, but honestly, why'd your name have to be an "A"?!! hmph. not that i mean i dont like you or anything! dont misread my words here ah!!

okie. i honestly have issues..
i DIGGGGGG singers that play the guitar! like honestly, first it was taylor swift, now its MARIE DIGBY! i was searching up the song "say it again" cos i LOVE IT! but she's sung SO many other NICE songs too!! OMG!! should have tried to win the guitar she autographed for MTV.. hmph.

anws, gonna watch my NEW EPISODE OF "FATED TO LOVE YOU"! just uploaded okie. im SO happy! ((:
today cant be any better! hmwk can wait. lol. im so dead...

I go alone
To watch stupid romance movies
And I sit, wishing,
It was your arms wrapped around me
And I just deny
That all I want is a piece of you
But I guess it's true, don't wanna talk on the phone,
Don't want attachments, don't wanna be your girlfriend...

I just can't belong
To anybody else right now
Though it is not much of an excuse
I can't belong
To anybody else when I've got
So much figuring out to do...

LOVE.