| oh hii i missed you!
don't worry if you didnt get that, it was just my way of saying i hadnt been on xanga for quite a while.
sooo. im just terribly bored right now, so i decided to kind of blab on.
i mean, you dont have to read this crap so if you choose not to read this bunch of crap right now, then good, you've made a wise decision. lol. whatever. mm. so i got this homework today (which i havent done yet) for chinese, and we were all told to write an essay.. and see, the topic was "who am i?" And if you've noticed, im not a verry..umm, oh i wonder why we live on earth! i wonder who even created earth, does god exist, what are we doing here typa person. although that doesnt mean i dont think about these..serious stuff lol, it's just that.. it gets me no where. but ive never asked myself who i was before though, and i was never really interested. i was more interested in knowing why i was born here, and why my parents were.. my parents, and stuff like that. of course i couldnt find a reason for it, so i just convinced myself that i was just meant to be born on october first, and that i was just meant to be living here, as a homosapian. (hmm that's one funny word aint it?) so, who am i? i guess if i suddenly ask my friends a question like this, they'd probably think that i've really gone retarded or that im just asking a silly question. now dont start debating with me that there are no such thing as a "silly question". anyway, back to the topic. i dont think my friends will give me a descent answer either, they'll just tell me im just marin and that im japanese and yadayada..which really isnt that helpful since...come to think of it, i was the one that told them about these..? lol. unless they have special powers..like my marin power! haha. but i dont think marin power will do any good here, especially since im starting to think that im losing 100000000000 brain cells everytime i use them. sigh, see how long i've been talking? and have i even gotten close to getting an answer? nope, dont think so.
see how sad this is? so how am i going to write this essay for my homework? more like for my test cuz it's worth 30% of it. eesh, why did she have to give us such a complicated topic. i never get it when teachers tell me to go deeper and to not just talk about the obvious and whatever else. it's so hard, it's just like telling us to count how many people there are in the entire forest, plus in the dark. ohhh my gaaawddd who am i who am i. im a girl that just some how popped outta no where, and i just instantly knew how to breathe oxygen in, and i was able to cry using my mouth, and just grew up somehow with my parents and my siblings which i didnt get to choose, and im a poor girl trying to figure out who i am! now im back to start. geez, this didnt help at all. i'll just go now, but it makes me sad how im saying bye to someone..or in fact, to no one, because i highly doubt that anyone would read this loong piece of crap by wasting i dont know how long it will take them to read.   
so long & good night~
xx
marino. |
