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Friday, June 13, 2008

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 01:37:14 GMT

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Monday, September 25, 2006

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 14:41:21 GMT

holy cow,

so it's been a while since i've even touched this. don't really have anything cool to say right now. just kinda chillin. classes are done for the day. went to see my grandpa last night. he had triple bypass surgery on monday and is doing pretty good. it was good to see him doing well.

so yeah...lots has happened in the last months since i wrote. but i don't have time now. too much homework to get done so i can hang out with my girlfriend tonight. but leave me one and say hey sometime. alright. peace.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 10:09:18 GMT

200 Question Survey is: crazy

199. I was born on: December 30, 1983

198. I am: tired and not getting enough sleep because I have to watch my car to make sure nothing happens to it.

197. My cell phone: is a piece of crap because I can't make calls on it in my own house.

196. My eye color is: blue...or green.

195. My shoe size is: 11 or 12, depends on the shoe.

194. My ring size is: i don't know or care, i hate rings they make me think of stupid things.

193. My Height is: 6' 1"

192. I am allergic to: i don't think anything

191. I was born in: in lansing.

190. I live in: my parents house.

189. The last book I read was: Wooden

188. My bed: is lonely with only one.

187. I know for sure about the opposite sex: none of them make any sense at all.

186. I am glad I'm my sex because: i am a man, and men get sweet commericals on tv like that Burger King one. (I am man!!)

179. My favorite Holiday is: spring break, is that a holiday??

177. The last cd I bought is: unfortunately, rascal flatts. if anyone wants it let me know.

172. My most treasured possessions are: i guess my car.

170. What did you do last night?: i'm not even going to tell you. it was that boring.

***do you believe in...***

142. Love at first sight? no

141. Luck? yes

140. Fate? no

139. God? yes

138. Aliens? no

137. Heaven? yes

136. Hell? yes

135. Ghosts? no

134. Horoscopes? no

133. Soulmates? only in regards to Napoleon Dynamite

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses?: hugs

127. Phone or Online? i hate talking on the phone, but online is to impersonal. so i'd have to say in person, can i do that?

126. Red heads or Black hair: black

125. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes, i've had too much bad luck with blondes.

123. Summer or winter: um...spring

122. Coffee or tea: coffee

121. Chocolate or vanilla: depends on what it is.

120. Night or Day: depends on the activity.

119. Oranges or Apples: oranges

118. Curly or Straight hair: straight, but sometimes curly

:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

116. Abortion: it's gay.

115. Backstabbers: i am one too

114. Parents: none better

::::Last time I:::

103. Kissed someone: saturday night.

102. Hugged someone: my mom when she got home from work last night.

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in awhile: melanie, at brent's graduation.

100. Cried in front of someone? for 2 months straight i cried in front of too many people to mention.

99. Grew: maturity wise, i haven't grown up.

::::MISC::::

90. Who is the person you know the best: myself.

88. who makes you laugh the most: myself.

87. One thing I'm mad about right now is: girls are stupid.

86.The last movie i saw: four brothers.

82. The thing I don't understand is: everyone screws up, why can't people forgive and move on?

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received: my life is in God's hands and he'll take care of me. (sounds good, but in the context it was given was stupid.)

76. This summer I am: working a lot, and playing a lot. so call me.

75. Something I will really miss when I leave home: my family and house.

74. something i am looking forward to the most is: road trip at the end of the summer!!!!

73. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: going back to spring arbor next fall.

71. Next Summer: is gonna even sweeter.

67. People call me: they don't call me.

62.The person who knows the most about me is: my mom

60. The most difficult thing to do is: watch someone you gave everything to and worked so hard for throw it all away.

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket? 2

56. My zodiac sign is: probably something gay.

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: i don't know.

50.Right now I am talking to: no one.

48. I will own my own: house.

47.I have these pets: fish.

46.I Hope: my life gets better soon.

45. The worst sound in the world: fingernails on a chalkboard.

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: myself.

35. Florida or Hawaii: hawaii, been to both places and hawaii wins.

33. My favorite piece of clothing: i don't know, i'm not metrosexual.

32. My favorite sport is: basketball.

31. Last time I cried: this isn't a 200 question thing if you ask the same question twice. it's only 199 questions.

28. The school I go to is: spring arbor, it's a waste of money.

27. Last person I got mad at: myself for being retarded.

25.My worst drinking experience was: never.

22. The all-time best movie is: Boondock Saints or 10 Things I Hate About You.

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: kissing in the rain, although i've never done it. that and sex, which hasn't happened either.

20.My first job was: bagging groceries at orchard market.

19. My bedtime is: 10:30 when i have to work and whatever time i want the rest of the week.

HOW YOU FEEL....

18. The most annoying person you know is: someone i can't say because they might read this.

17. I lose all respect for people who: don't work hard.

16. The movies I have cried at are: never cried at a movie.

15. Closest friends Name(s): matt, nicole.

14 T.V. show you watch: nothing consistently.

13. Favorite web site: facebook and myspace.

12. I want to be: in love with the right person.

11. The worst pain I was ever in: getting dumped when you're engaged. i don't wish that shit on my worst enemy.

10. My favorite phrase: i don't know, you tell me.

9. My room is: feeling more like home.

8. My favorite celebrity is: amanda bynes, cuz she's hot.

7. My favorite ice cream is: pretty much anything cuz ice cream is sweet.

6. My favorite vacation spot is: any place it's warm.

5. My weakness is: that i care too much. (that's actually from a song, but it works.)

4. What is my favorite book? Fall River Dreams.

3. Who broke your heart? ........i'd rather not mention that name ever again.

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: a good poo.

1. I filled out 200 questions because: i hate sleeping in and was up at 9:00, and all my friends are still asleep so i'm bored.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sat, 13 May 2006 19:57:11 GMT

I'm finally home for the summer. It feels great to be home. I never thought I'd miss being in Spring Lake so bad. It's definitely a refreshing feeling to be someplace where I feel confortable and can be myself. Honestly, the only other place I feel I am myself other than home is when I'm in Lansing.

I'm chillin at Matt's house for the weekend cuz his parents are in Midland for his brother's school tournament. We watched the Pistons lose game 3 and ate pizza. We rented a couple movies for tonight and are just kickin it bachelor style.

I guess that's all for now, too much to say and not enough time. And I just really don't wanna think about or get into anything else. This summer is all about making it amazing. I'm going to have the best summer ever, and I hope to see as many of my friends as I can.

you cant make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved.

i dunno

Tue, 02 May 2006 12:58:49 GMT

four jobs you have had in your life:
1. jackson citizen patriot
2. fazolis (don't ask)
3. michigan state
4. 7-up (yeah, the pop)

four movies you could watch over and over:
1. 10 things i hate about you
2. the rundown
3. boondock saints
4. the benchwarmers

four places you have lived:
1. Dansville, Michigan
2. Grand Haven, Michigan
3. Spring Lake, Michigan
4. Spring Arbor, Michigan

four TV shows you love to watch:
1. That 70's Show
2. SportsCenter
3. Numbers
4. House

four places you have been on vacation:
1. Hawaii
2. Florida
3. Texas
4. Australia (it was a mission trip, does it count?)

four websites you visit daily:
1. espn.com
2. foxsports.com
3. myspace
4. myyahoo.com

four of your favorite foods:
1. pizza
2. cheesy potatoes (cooked my mom)
3. steak (cooked by my dad)
4. reese's peanut cups

four places you’d rather be right now:
1. my house
2. texas
3. in bed
4. lansing

Monday, April 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 20:25:25 GMT

I know I keep putting songs on here instead of writing, but I don't have any other way of putting exactly how I feel out there. Most of the time, my feelings change while writing. I just know that I can do nothing without God. He is my all in all, my everything. He is holy.


Hallelujah, hallelujah
For our Lord God Almighty reigns 
Hallelujah, hallelujah
For our Lord God Almighty reigns 
Hallelujah

Holy Holy 
Are You Lord God Almighty 
Worthy is the Lamb 
Worthy is the Lamb 
You are Holy 
Holy 
Are You Lord God Almighty 
Worthy is the Lamb 
Worthy is the Lamb 
you are holy

Holy, you are holy
King of Kings, Lords of lords
you are holy
Holy, you are holy
King of Kings, Lords of lords
I worship you

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:45:17 GMT

When all vanishes and I stand in this place to face the truth for what it is
With no human esacpe to hide behind 
Just my soul 'n God and I find it mind blowing
Knowing that humanity and a mere mortal man like me
Can have my slate cleaned of mistakes and the chance to put on immortality.
Even though darkness has hardened us in deception and spoken otherwise
Man I refuse to take in that nonsense, 
and I refuse to buy into these lies.
These lies of pain, 
These lies of shame, 
These lies of complete disfunction,
This lie of hopelessness that will make a person feel like they're nothing.
This lie that will make me feel like my struggle is one too much to fix'n,
Isn't that what darkness wants for me to play the role of a victim?
But I'm a child of light and no longer am I bound by slavery,
I say, oh death were is your sting?
And, oh Hades where's your victory?

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 20:11:56 GMT

The last, probably two weeks, have been a real struggle for me. It's been a difficult time in my life. But I know that God is in control. Granted, I didn't just come to terms with that over night, obviously because it's been two weeks. It really is amazing at how God can really work through you when you need Him too. I have had to come to terms with some stuff that is very hard for me to deal with, because some patterns in my life I have learned and realize that I can't change them overnight, but that I can change them in time. Most people who know me, know that I can go from happy to mad/sad/angry/upset/etc very quickly. The problem I've always had is that I really didn't think I was that way, I would brush it off and say "oh that's not really me." But truth be told, it's the straight up truth. I have really wrestled with that all my life. And part of that is I'm proud to wear my emotions on my sleeve, but I have come to realize that I can do that to a fault. I know that it's all right to be upset or angry about something, but most of the time I can let one small thing effect my whole attitude for the day, sometimes longer. I know that I have created some bad patterns in my life, like that, and just sometimes becoming very selfish.

God had really showed me not only the things that I fail at, but that I'm not alone, He's always with me. I think it might be one of those concepts that I believed because I grew up in the church. There are four points God has shown me...

1. God's love is perfect, mine is not.
2. God's forgiveness is perfect, mine is not.
3. God's timing is perfect, mine is not.
4. God's plan is perfect, mine is not.

I have tried and tried to overcome my selfishness and moodiness on my own, and each time it comes back to hurt me. But I do know that it is because I would eventually feel good about how I was doing and left God out of the picture, I wouldn't do devotions, I wouldn't pray, I would think I could do it on my own. God has really shown me that I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. I can change, I can be the man I want to be. I can own up to my mistakes and failures and short comings, but He still loves and forgives me. He wants to help draw me closer to Him. I guess sometimes it can be hard when people grow up in the church, things aren't always as real for me as they should be. But I know that God will continue to reveal Himself to me in time and through different circumstances.

I'm not at all saying that everything is fixed and I feel good about the place I am at. I know there is work to be done, there are multiple relationships to heal. I have to just remember that God is perfect and I am not, and I cannot do it on my own.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 23:48:00 GMT

It's funny how you can look back at the last six months of your life and see all the change that has taken place. The things you thought were important have become unimportant. The places you thought you were going have now changed to a new direction. It's wierd the way God works in our lives. It's wierd how you can spend six months asking him for something and still continuing to wait for Him to move. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's not, but I think mostly it's just that He's waiting for the right time to show Himself. He always does, right at the exact perfect time. Sometimes I think He's trying to show me that He's Superman, because that's what Superman did. Just when you thought all hope was lost, he comes out of no where to save the day.

I am a dreamer. It's hard to keep dreaming as I get older. I'm not sure what it is in us that keeps us from holding onto dreams we used to have. Dreams that we would one day be this great person, have it all figured out and be taking care of ourselves and our family. I guess it's just because we get so bruised and beat up from life that we begin to think that our dreams are not worth it anymore. But isn't it funny how we love stories about the underdog coming through, but we never look at ourselves as the underdog. Life can kick our butt, why not use all those bruises to not hold us down, but to remember where we were for when we reach our dream. Why not use our bruises to not hold us in the past, but to be thoughtful of where we came from, and where we've been. To make where we are so much better.

I am a dreamer!

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 09:45:05 GMT

Man, it's been forever since I updated this thing. There is so much that has gone on during the summer that I haven't kept up on. So here goes.

First off, I've spent all summer at my grandparents house in Dansville. It's been great and really interesting to get to know them better. The reason I am there is because I have been working at MSU for a relative of mine. He is the farm manager for the Hancock Turfgrass Research Center. So all summer I've been mowing grass and doing other odd jobs and stuff. It's been the best summer I've had in a long time. So, I haven't updated because I haven't had access to a computer either.

Second thing of business, and this is going to shock a lot of people. I will not be returning to SAU in the fall. I am transfering to MSU! Crazy I know. The reason for this change has nothing to do with SAU, but I am transfering because I am going into the turfgrass management program at MSU. I'm really excited because I finally feel like I know what I want to do with my life. Don't worry though, I will be down to SAU to visit as much as possible. And I'm sure it will be quite often too, I'm only 35 minutes or so from SAU.

So that's my update. I'll try and keep it up and make them shorter. Keep in touch everyone I haven't seen in a long time. Take it easy. Peace.