| ok so now im starting to think the laxies have really messed up my stomach. no matter what i eat it goes through me. hhhmmmmmmmm..........guess i cant complain though |
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| im horrible at keeping this updated. so much has been going on.... me and my boyfriend of five years are moving apart in a month, i feel slightly sick to my stomach 24/7, and i have no appetite. which is good. ive lost more weight. ive been having about one english muffin a day no counting liquids. i cant keep anything in me either. food just goes right through me. i think it may the laxie abuse for years that ive been doing. hhhmmmm..... dont know and i really dont want to go see anyone. i kinda like that food just goes right threw me. strange i know but its comforting somehow. |
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| over ate yesterday so i took 8 laxies. small bowl of cereal and one english muffin today. thats it |
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| i want to lose as much weight as possible. i have fucking love handles. i cant even begin to describe what hatred that builds inside me. i jogged for an hour today and had a small bowl of lettuce, half a tomatoe, black beans and tuna. im going to bed now. ill update tomorrow night. oh and current weight 114 |
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| i got into a car accident yesterday morning while making visits for my job (i work for hospice). my back is hurting and my right arm has been feeling numb so i have to go back to the doctors tomorrow. 
and yes thats my front bumper sitting on top of what used to be my hood. |
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