| jammin... the voice within - Christina
r0ckin... bf beater(LOL) & blue jeans
m0od... eh.. ?
Alright! I’m back! It’s been five days (I know it hasn’t been that long) since I’ve took my little break from the world. I guess you can say I was doing a little soul searching. While I was gone, I spent a lot of time with my mother (*gasp* WOW!) and my sisters esp. Mey. And after having a LONG LONG conversation with my mom, I realize a whole lotta s%^* And I accepted a lot of other stuff in my life…. Moving on…
Recently, I had a long talk with a “friend” of mine, and just yesterday after having a argument with her, this is what I have to say… you're one of them females that talk hella smack about someone behind their back, but hella FRONT when you're around them. I ain’t down with b!tches like that alright!? I’m not tryna sound all bitchy and shit, but I've put my trust into too many damn broads and they ALL always end up fucking me over. And I’m soooo tired of it.
Also, A LOT has been happening within Bonifide. Some of the members (including myself) decided to withdraw ourselves from the grp. But as for me, after talking to Angie & Aubrey, I decided that running away from problems doesn’t solve them. Right?! And now that all this has happened, I KNOW who my true friends are, and which ones will stand by me no matter what.
… I’m expecting Jei or someone who is “close” to her to read this… You can say that you were always hecka down for me! But honestly, you WEREN’T there was so many times where I was there for you. Whenever you had problems, I was the one you ran to. I stuck up for you. I lend a helping hand when you need it, I gave you a shoulder to cry on… and I gave you my friendship. I was ALWAYS honest with you about everything. And you always lied to me. No matter how much you deny it, you know its true. I catch you in your lies all the time, But knowing me, I would never say anything. Now, I realize that maybe not being friends with you is the best thing for me. You always had someone to blame for your problems. You never blamed yourself when really, its your fault.
Well… that’s all I have to say. To my ladies of bonifide, we all need to talk. And as for Angie, no one wants you to leave. No matter what, you stuck by me. And you showed me hecka love, and I do admit, sometimes, the choices that you make… do piss me off or annoy me, but that’s who you are, and I accept it. You convinced me to stay with bonifide, so what can I do to convince you to stay? -mary
To the rest, Happy Halloween!! Be safe, take kare. And don’t do anything koi doy wouldn’t do hehe J |
