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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
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Thorn in the Flesh...
Are you a thorn in the flesh...
Or is it I ...
Why are you in my life...
From days gone by.
I reach out to you...
You turn away...
We walk far apart...
Not knowing what to say.
I look away...
Not wanting to see...
The cold stares you give...
Looking right through me.
Have I used them up...
The chances to forgive...
To be forgiven...
And really live.
You say I took something
from you...
And yet I did not...
And I know not what to do.
You were my “friend”...
At least sometimes...
And now you're not...
A friend of mine.
So now it ends...
With neither speaking...
Just looking away...
Our distance keeping.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
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Simple Love
Submitting to my husband isn't an easy thing for me...
I really want to submit... but then I also like things
my way...
My way isn't bad or wrong... it is just my way. I have heard people use this for an excuse so many times to excuse their rude behavior or lack of social skills... so I won't claim this for my excuse...
I will just admit to you and to myself that I like things my way... But Abba has other plans... plans that in the end will reap peace, joy, love and commitment to the man I vowed to love, honor and obey.
He is a good man... a simple man really... uncomplicated, unassuming, just a man, but a just man all the same... his love for me is also uncomplicated... he loves me period and doesn't think he needs all the frills and trinkets to prove his love.
He works hard and long and doesn't have a lot to give at the end of the day... but if I listen with my heart I hear how much he really loves me and how much he wants me in his life forever.
My love is complicated... it takes into account past wrongs and slights of word or deed... it wants to feel and gush and explore... and it sometimes goes beyond its boundaries into others private thoughts and embellishes what it finds there...
This exploitation is an intrusion to the very fabric of what love should be... and in doing this I sometimes lose the very thing I am searching, digging... gouging for...
The love I truly want is simple... uncomplicated... steady... there when I need it... waiting to give... intrusives...
So why do I allow myself these trespasses into his storehouse of love... why do I allow my unspoken expectations to drown his expression of love in the simple words and deeds that are so much a part of him.
Today I will taste the pleasure of simple love... love that is steady as day is long... as refreshing as a mountain stream... and as deep as the ocean...
I will no longer dredge along the bottom... looking for treasure that is in plain site...
I will simply love and be loved...
Mary
Saturday, April 19, 2008
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I Wait
Abba today I am thankful...
Thankful for all that I have left...
For all that You saved for me...
For what You have restored.
I am impatient...
Wanting it all right now...
And You say wait...
Take it day by day.
So here I am today...
Spending time with You...
Loving You...
Letting You love me.
The wonder of that is beyond words...
My words...not Your Words...
You spell it out plainly for me to see...
But when it comes to answering back..
My words fail... shallow... meaningless... empty.
So I won't use words today...
I will use my heart...
My being...
My soul to speak to You.
And You will hear me...
You will listen with bended ear...
And baited breath...
Waiting to hear and see all that is in
my heart.... even when You already know.
Why is this... Your knowing is also beyond measure...
And yet You Creator of the Universe wait for me.
How can this be... a Love so Divine...
And yet it waits for me.
I am humbled by the knowledge of this...
The passion I see in Your Eyes...
The touch that stills my soul...
And I too wait... for Eternity...
I wait for You.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
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Blessing from Mary
I have been feasting on all the wonderful things you all write on your blogs... but haven't been blogging.. .please forgive me.
There have been many changes in my life... when my daughter went back to Alaska she took my middle son with her... I miss them both terribly... but know you have to give them both roots and wings.
My youngest son has turned 17 and will be coming back to live with me soon we hope...
Abba has been restoring my marriage to my husband... we had been separated for a while trying to work some things out... and Abba is faithful... so faithful...
I am working two jobs still and wish I had more time with all of you... but please know you're in my heart.
Blessings and hugs, Mary
Thursday, February 28, 2008
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My Beautiful Daughter is Home...
The weeks and days seem to just be flying by... first I was getting everything ready for her visit... and now I'm spending every spare minute with her... so I'm not blogging much... but read your posts as often as I can...
I miss writing and will be doing more in the next week or so...
Be blessed and know I love ya and am thinking of you...
Hugs, Mary
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- Name: Marys Place 2
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 1/13/2008
About Me
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I'm Mary... this is my new site.. because the other one had too many problems to fix and xanga would not respond... thanks for joining me here...
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Our feet are cold...Our toes are frozen...We wiggle our noses...And then we blows 'em.
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I'm bored with my life..I need a fight...to get my blood to flowing.But no one's near... enough to hear...The word I think of throwing
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My winter coat makes me look fat... So I snuggle deep inside... And try to hide... Underneath my hat.
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