| m3h. life kinda sucks right now, not much I can do about it. nothing but a test of endurance. i guess i lo...... like a challenge. (i'm not using the word "love" for a while )
as far as that goes, i don't want questions, just blame it on my karma, and my soiled reputation.
gettin a new mp3 device soon, Dell DJ, it should r0xXor.
right now, i'm using a little 128mb thingy called a nomad, i like it, but it's only like 30 songs. not exactly enough for me.
past that i have nothing much to say, i see no evidence of anyone reading my site any more, no comments, chatterbox entries.... nothing. pretty pointless existance for this site. maybe i should close it. or maybe i should start making private entries and become distant, cold, and reclusive. oh wait, i've done that.... it doesn't help me much, but it helps those around me......... and that's what i'm here for.
I need to get out and do something, if anyone has anything planned, can stand to be around me, and DOESN"T hate me, give me a call, although even if you don't fall into one of those catregories, i doubt you'll remember or care. i'm off to write something dark and dreary in my journals. fun stuff.
I must exist, no matter the cost, for without me, at least one other is lost.
my own personal mantra... kinda an anti-suicide thing. had it for about 2 years now. been chanting, meditating, all that stuff, for quite a while as well, but lately it's increased. m3h. |
