| wow its been a long time since i got on this well life right now is goin ok..... hold up its not really i dont know y i feel like im missin so much these days and i just cant handle it sometimes but im still here holdin strong............its funny if there was a plan for us and we knew what that plan was would we follow it if the choice we make effects our life than y r there choices...............if something is good y is there something wrong right next to it i think that the world is a spot in something way bigger we the people of the world might not know what to do half the time but still find happness in things and what is happiness..........some people say they dont have happiness in there life but i bet theres that one place, thing, person, or anything out there that makes them happy and the people that always smile and say im never sad,angry,depressed,ect i bet theres something out there that has made them feel that way.............im writing this entry so that people can start think about there life even if ur young u need to know cuz u have to grow up someday..............u hear this from every adult in the world b urself dont try to act like something ur not if ur tryin not to be like something r u being urself cuz what if thats how u really r and what if u know ur this and that but ur really not ur something else............now this entry is long i know...................and half of the people that r goin to c this will not read it and just click on another site or scan throught it and never really think about it........... i Matthew Anthony Ortega am writing this not so that people can worrie about me and my life i have to solve that i just need to speak my mind that is the reason for the internet so people who r afraird to b there selfs can say what they want when they want u might think im doin this cuz im afaird but think again i put my name and im not bitchin to u people about my life im just tellin u guys what i know now and im writing this right now and i still dont get half of it everytime a question comes in my head another one come in about that question i wonder if there is a god................not sayin that there is not its just if somebody wrote a book it just a story sometimes it true and so times it false but i dont know that much about the bible but if somebody wrote it is it all true and if its not than y do we believe cuz were scared..........when people get scared they have to fall back on something and sometimes people dont have anything to fall back on and they leave this world cuz they r scared............ok i just read what i wrote and i am thinkin about not postin it but fuck it cuz people r aways goin to judge somebody so if u want to judge me but think about this nobody really know me and it u think u do ur wrong cuz i dont even know me..........at this time my heart hurts for two reasons one im writin this and it makin me think and the second reason nobody will know cuz im afaird to say somethings i dont show how i feel to people cuz i care what people think but fuck it cuz im nothin in this world anyways |
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