China trip was good (nevermind the fact that it was almost warmer than Malaysia; I had to drag myself up at 6.30am in the morning EVERYDAY [I hate tours]; I missed out beautiful sceneries because of my tiredness etc..). It was awesome to learn that I have SO MANY relatives in China! I shall blog more on the Hainan trip in the next entry. I'm so tired right now. In fact, I've been knackered for the whole of last week until now because everyday I was so occupied with different activities.

I am looking forward to Sunday for the Beauty and the Beast broadway show. I am looking forward to shop for a bit after such a long time for not buying things, I run out of clothes to wear and I feel so sick of all the same old clothes in my wardrobe. Talking bout shopping in China, all i got was some random tea leaves which I think the price wasn't quite worth it because I do not know how to differentiate the quality and tastes; some coconut sweets; chocolate and pearls. I didn't even have time to look at what the girls there are fond of in terms of fashion and beauty, gah. Hate the tour!

Right now, all I need to do is to keep praying, wait patiently, for the result that I've been dreading to face since months ago.

I shall use the cellophane tape to keep my crossed fingers in place when I sleep.







I won't be surprised if grey hair starts to grow rapidly.

I try my best to avoid sounding like a bimbo but yikesss, I stained my dior bag! The fact that I hardly use that bag (because I always fear that I'll stain it as the material and colour are VERY likely to catch dirt) didn't help much. I used it for less than 5 times since I got it from HK, which's in January and stilllllll, can't avoid the fate of dirtying my bags . The burberry blue label that my sis gave me was so stained after I used it for not even 2 weeks. Maybe handbags aren't meant for me. Hmph. Luckily the dior stain is not visible otherwise I might need to send it back to the factory to wash it, which s gonna be troublesome.

6% of Inflation is expected this year, value in money shrinking once again. I remember someone once told me this when I told him that I avoid withdrawing money from my bank account all the time to keep the figure going up. He said: Why save money with 1% interest rate (Or maybe lower): when there's 5% of inflation every year? The rate is not even catching up with the inflation rate, spend only lah!

Even the FD rate is not very much better. Perhaps I should start investing on unit trusts or shares.. And then end up losing everything cause I'm such a noob .

One more week till I'm finally done with A levels! Time flies not only when you're happy but it happens when you're busy and stressed too! Then I'm off to China for a week with my parents and relatives on the day I finish my last paper. Exam in the afternoon, going to the airport in midnight. Rush hour! It's summer in China now and it's going to be so HOT. I super dislike hot weathers. Nonetheless I'm kindaf looking forward.. Hainan is half of my root so I guess I'll be seeing some super distanced relatives.. Including granduncles! Island and seafood! Beaches! If there's earthquake maybe there'll be tsunami? Dont know.. but if given a chance I'd love to go to Szechuan to help out. Sadly, my timing is quite packed now and the only support that I can give is financial.. which I think is not enough.

Unhappy thought: Screwed up my Economics MCQ paper because of careless mistakes. I swear I was so pissed off at myself because I hate careless mistakes! The worst part is I made not only one but a few! Which means I actually knew the answers but I got them all wrong because I was careless. GAHHHH! Double checking ur exam papers after u take your exam is not a wise choice because it literally haunts you, especially during ur sleep. I took a nap for 2 hours and in between I kept thinking of net emigration because I made the most careless mistake of all mistakes just cause I read too fast and missed out the bloody emigration word! Ok I should stop whining, there's nothing I can do now. *heartache*

Should concentrate on happy thoughts e.g. stress-free freedom after examinations; travelling; seeing friends that're coming back for the holidays etc. Ooooo, and retail therapy too. Since my skin's getting much better I can see the world again. Going to KL will cost more though.. bloody price of fuel!

Current addictions: Kiwi fruits, green apples and Sudoku!! I wanna join the tournament organised by New Strait Times but it's only available in JB, KL and Penang.. So unfair. Ipoh malis play sudoku too!!

FBs sudoku has been such a distraction for me because I try to climb up the top 30 score board which I actually did! But my name didn't appear . I spent such a long time to break my own record and the furthest I could go was about 2minutes and.. 10 seconds? Can't remember, but my score was about 9874 which totally kicked the 27th person's ass on the score board! But it just won't show my name, sigh. All I asked for was just the 10minutes of fame on FB sudoku and I didn't get it, tsk.

Oh my, it feels like I've been online for 20 minutes but it's already been 2 hours. Need to shower, do some past years questions, and sudoku battle with a friend.

What should I do with the stained bags?

I used to think that girls who get annoyed easily; throw tantrums on a regular basis; yet somehow love to share the same reason for all the bitch-fits to avoid all the hurricanes and dramas that they made, are pretty unbelievable. And that very powerful and effective reason which works most of the time is none other than: PMS.

I didn't believe in that, I thought it was a sheer excuse to have a bf when you feel like it. I mean, girls are naturally more emotional than guys, we know it. Be it hormones' problem or psychology, most girls are mostly dramatic in a way. It's just that some have a mild dramatic hormone which's like, say, 5%? Which makes people barely take note of. Some drama queens may have more dramatic hormone, it doesn't make sense, but I'll just leave it this way. Whatever it is, perhaps I was a bit spoilt by my parents that I always got what I wanted most of the time, hence built up the habit of me making a fuss over things that I weren't happy about. When things didn't go smooth, I would be upset; when I didn't get what I wanted or what I expected; I got devastated; and the list went on. I didn't have to show it to public, but I knew that I would be so fed up or find myself in such a dismay that I cried on my own, which fitted the word 'emotional' perfectly.

Admittedly I'm a bit more rational now, thinking that I accept the fact that sometimes things do not go like what you plan it as. Also, calming down made me realise that PMS is not a reason to bitch fit at all.

My time of the month is supposed to due somewhere between 9th to 11th? That's what I thought. Somehow, for the past few days, I felt so easily annoyed that I cursed on almost everything. It didn't go out of hand, of course, but I could feel the rage in me. I felt like screaming to release my stress from exams and all the troublesome applications that I have to go through. I felt so troubled, I just couldn't help it.

I told myself: Perhaps it's PMS. I shouldn't act like this, it's just PMS. C-a-l-m D-o-w-n!

However, looking at the calender and knowing that it is not the time for PMS yet, I wonder if it's just me, or the weather(trying to escape blame), or I was trying to be a diva again. Though, I kept almost everything to myself, didn't even throw ANY tantrums at my boyfriend! I tried to cope with the feelings, handled it quite okay-ly, excluding some sleepness nights and the stress that almost killed me.

Today, the time of the month has arrived. So it was PMS, it bloody was! Emotions!

Came in a week earlier from what I thought. I was quite happy, it's so stupid to feel happy over period (yeah, wtf) but yes, you get what I mean. At least it's the pms, it wasn't me.

PMS is real. No joke.