Can't

Can't is the worst word that's written or spoken;
Doing more harm here than slander and lies;
On it is many a strong spirit broken,
And with it many a good purpose dies.
It springs from the lipes of the thoughtless each morning
And robs us of courage we need through the day:
It rings in our ears like a timely sent warning
And laughs when we falter and fall by the way.

Can't is the father of feeble endeavor,
The parent of terror and halfhearted work;
It weakens the efforts of artisans clever,
And makes of the toiler an indolent shirk.
It poisons the soul of the man with a vision,
It stifles in infancy many a plan;
It greets honest toiling with open derision
And mocks at the hopes and the dreams of a man.

Can't is a word none should speak without blushing;
To utter it should be a symbol of shame;
Ambition and courage it daily is crushing;
It blights a man's purpose and shortens his aim.
Despise it with all of your hatred of error;
Refuse it the lodgment it seeks in your brain;
Arm against it as a creature ot terror,
And all that you dream of you someday shall gain.

Can't is the word that is for to ambition,
An enemy ambushed to shatter your will;
Its prey is forever the man with a mission
And bows but to courage and patience and skill.
Hate it, with hatred that's deep and undying,
For once it is welcomed 'twill break any man;
Whatever the goal you are seeking, keep trying
and answer this demon by saying: "I can."

~Edgar A. Guest~

you are the only one who can let yourself fail.

~PB 4 LIFE

Heart & sacrifice, thats what it takes.

 Pb 4 Life.

Christmas break was fun, but i didn't really do much, got up around 1 everyday, ate something, went to work, then hung out w/ my gf and then partied and did the same cycle almost everyday. I didn't get to play any paintball, both places i went to were closed. i haven't played in 2 weeks, i feel like im dieing. but this sunday i will be practicing, theres going to be a ton of bad ass teams coming from all over to practices at WIPA. I cant wait.

Ever since about half way through last year, i really started to take paintball as a serious sport. paintball has really opened my eyes and it has given me a whole new look at other sports and people. for example, when you think of rock climbing, you probably think of some movie, or some little recreational activity. but if you take the time to really take an inside look at it, rock climbing is huge. there are so many aspects to it and its probably one the hardest sports ever to do. there are professional climbers and routes to climbing on all over the place, there are climbers out there that can do things that you would never thinking were humanly possible. and then there are many climbers that  climb just because is what they love, its what they strive to live for, to breath the fresh air, and once there hand touches the rock, everything in life is gone, its just them against themselves. what im trying to say is that there is so much more that what you see just on the surface, there are passion et players in almost every sport, some one who would give up every thing just to be able to play it. but its not just sports, its people also. have you ever took the time to stop at talk to another person, ask them "why are you living?, or what to you want to live for?" and hopefully they will say b/c life is fun or that they have a certain goal to reach, not just any goal but an  amazing goal. but generally, a lot of people now don't have fun filled lives, or something that makes them feel good. there are many people that hate there jobs. and i wonder why, why don't you get a job that you love doing. and they will say b/c i need money. money for what? money for retirement. but life isn't about how long we live, its about if we have lived enough. i don't care if im working the rest of  my life, as long as im doing what i love to do. if you have ever seen the movie Fight Club, and if you haven't i would highly recommend it, there is this part in the movie where hes driven a car and he asks the people in the back of the car, "if you were to die right now, what would you regret never to have done?"  many people choose to live there lives with out taking any risks at all. risk is the potential for lose, but it is also the potential to gain. people who have to be safe with everything they do are never going to get much in return. i think i may have sounded a lil stereotypic but its just an opinion.

everything thats out here has more to it that what just meets the eye, weather it be a sport, a person, or Jesus Christ ( by studying his word and getting to know him better.) anything that you take a closer look it will open up a door to something you never knew was there. but for right now, if you were to die, what would you have regretted not doing? what kinda story would you have?  Every person has a story about there life, it will either be amazing or boring. A boring life generally falls under the category of a normal life.  you can make decisions now that can affect you the rest of your life. are you willing to take the risk, do you have the willingness to give up what you are for what you could become?

heres another quote:

life isn't measured by the number of breaths we take, but my the moments that take our breath away.

PB                                                                                                         4                                                                                                                   Life 

~Mike.

Paintball, its just what i do, and its just what i want to do.  This great sport and it is a sport by all means. it just depends on how you play it, it depends on how bad you want to get better at it. there are many people that tell me that paintball isnt a real sport and i just dont even try to explain it to them anymore, most people will just never understand. they will never understand all the hard work, dedication, determination, self-motivation, and an unremitting devotion to the thing(s) that I want to see happen. Paintball is what really keeps me going in life, it gives me a goal. goals are not only necessary to keeps us motivated, but they are essential to keep us alive. I ask myself why is this sport so important to me? I can honestly say that i dont know why. it could be b/c it take my mind off any stress in my life, or it could be b/c its the only thing that i have been slighty ok at. I say "slightly ok" b/c  im am definatly not good at it. i have soo much to work on. I may be good compaired to some people, but thats not good enough for me. these past 2 pratices that i have been to w/ the new team that im playing for (team focus), i havent been playing my best. i played better today than i did last week and i will be playing even better this next sun. i just need to adapt. i need to get to know my team mates better. learn how they think and play. and then ill start to lean to trust then more and ill begin to know what to in any situation, b/c ill know how my team will handle it and then i will know what to do.

there is soo much stress on me right now, i try to push it way but it keeps coming back, i guess its b/c im worried, and there are soo may questions i have that i dont know the answers to. i know i shouldnt be worried, i should just let God handle it, its stupid to be worried about the future and whats next to come, you can only control whats here and now.

heres some quotes to think about till my next post.

Thomas Alva Edison:
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Michael Korda:
To succeed, we must first believe that we can.

Tom Lehrer:
Life is like a sewer. What you get out of it depends on what you put into it.

and then think about what J.C. Penney said:

"Give me a stock clerk with a goal and I'll give you a man who will make history. Give me a man with no goals and I'll give you a stock clerk."

i have so much more to say, but its already to long of a post, so till next time.

PB                                                                                                        4                                                                                                          Life

~Mike.

their are so many dilemma in my life right now, and i just dont know what to do. i guess ill just pray about it and c what happens.

one thing that i have learned this year, is that when you go through life, you should never worry about what other people think, when im playing paintball, you always have to go, you can not hesitate and if you do, you will die, so if you make a stupid move, learn from it,dont be a pansy and let someone who has no positive effect on your life effect you. even if someone makes fun of you for it, what should you care. im just out there to learn and get better, i dont care what anyone ells says or thinks.even during church, worship God w/ all your heart, you shouldnt care about anything ells. same w/ music, you should be proud of the music you lisen to, what the point lisening to music your ashamed of. turn up the volume and feel it, b/c you shouldnt give a shit what someone ells thinks. you know. you know why we shouldnt care. b/c its our time, when im out praticing, its my time, its time for me to push away all the drama of life and just focus on that one goal. b/c if your not completely focused, your not giveing it your all, your not giveing it 110%. and your missing out on soo much. you could be learning so much more, yet your worried about what someone ells thinks. your just hurting your self.

so play hard, play strong, b/c you never know when life is going to end, you can only control what going on now. b/c life isnt about how long we live, but if we have lived enough.

PB 4 life.

~Mike.