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She’s a dreamer. Reality sucks. Needing something to make you happy sucks too. She’s a writer. You have ADD. But so does she. She can’t live without music. So neither should you. Plays basketball. Loves anything that involves being in the water. Like a bath. Or getting caught in a riptide.. She’s broad minded (by choice), shallow minded (by birth) and stupid (by nature). Likes weather forecasts. Sudoku too, she just can’t do them all that well. Psycho-analyzing strangers is fun. Napping at inappropriate places is her thing. DESSERT! Premeditates ~~stupid~~ acts when bored. Singing out loud. Quiet moments by the Yarra River. Open. Rash. Low self-control. Weird. Fragile. Heart over mind. Hasty. Recalcitrant. Thinks too much. Loves hoodies. Likes the idea that ‘hell hath no fury like a woman scorned’. Thinks that boys are silly.

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Monday, July 07, 2008

should i??

maybe i should kuz as of now, beggars can't be choosers.. right?
Even though Indonesian restaurants have quite a notorious name in wages here in melbourne (and possibly everywhere else in the world.. we can be a pretty tight bunch) - I should know, I worked for them when I was underage and they pushed down my wages until it was.. measly, and the all but fired me as soon as i came of age.. nicely, of course, telling me that I had no more shifts.
I HATE THEM. But. like i said earlier, I need a job. any job right now, i can't choose since i just want some kind of income. And well I'll be around indo people which should be good. I need to hang out with more indonesians.. my indo is going. not the accent and all, but just my vocab is crap.
I proudly announce I have watched KungFu Panda.. AND I LOVED EVERY BIT OF IT!!!!!!!!!! Ok so maybe this tells me that I need to really grow up BUT it was really good, as in good morals, the movie itself (HOW CUTE WAS TAI LONG WHEN HE WAS SMALL??!) and the moooves man.. and the characters are funny and adorable. Panda - admittedly - is a lot like me. His stomach.. aaahahha and the way he has to keep on pulling up his pants? yeah. I'm like that, when with my big jeans tho, my skinnies are like second-skin tight.
I also watched Zoolander. Disappointing.. kinda lame at best, but oh well.
AH! My church is having a revival service (probably not the right word, but i can't think of any) 19-20 July - service will be in indonesian tho.. so err yes. Limited to Indonesians, unfortunately. oh oh oh me and Stephen are gonna present a song that we've written.. so aaahh should be good.. apparently people think that our voices go together
Counting Crows song "Accidentally In Love" rocks my worldddddddddddd =] =] =]

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when you laugh i want to know why
when you smile you take my breath away
so when you're not with me..
how do I breathe?
I must stop.
I must stop tormenting myself.

Friday, July 04, 2008

grrr this is really

pissing me off.

I've had people on Myspace/facebook/friendster message me on the net telling me i'm gorgeous/hot/sexy/whatever word there is to describe a girl's face/thang. I get slightly annoyed, but then whatever, I don't really know them.
AND let me clear something: I'm not. Ok i'm not painfully ugly or anything, I might be pretty, that's all. If all you've seen is like.. a single picture on my profile.. just don't. Ok?
The other day, however, had a friend that told me that I'm "hot". To my face.
Firstly.. you have this thing where you have people as friends and you want them to stay as friends? Yea. He was one of them. Although I think he was in an alcohol-saturated state, so that he might not have been fully himself when he made the comment.. but still.
Secondly.. a rich man doesn't need to tell you he's rich. Neither does he need someone to tell him that he's rich. Get me?

Ok.. so that was my rant.
Wednesday was fun. Met up with Anth, got joined by Zhi Ming and Jinsen, then Hilda, and lastly Stanley and Amon. Dinner at Stalactites, then talked talked talked.. and then we decided that we'd get drinks, go to Amon's at QV and mm see what happens.
So we got a bottle of Triple Dist. Smirnoff, and a Jim Beam.. and between seven of us we finished it, neat, within an hour. The coke and lemonade we did not touch. Very, very bad. My low alcohol tolerance did me no good - I was dancing like mad to Amon's very nice playlist and the sexiest sound system alive, with Zhi Ming and oh my goodness ANTHONY had secretly video-ed me.. me victim to alcohol + phones with cams.. oh oh Amon has some sick moves with shuffling.. unfortunately Anth, Jinsen and Hilda make sleepy drunks.. no fun =[
Movies soon with Wendy,
To the Dandenongs Saturday with my bible study group.. yes it's time for some religion..
Then MYF in the afternoon..
Sat night might go to a friend's ex birthday.. although might be awkward.. but nothing a little alcohol won't cure..
Sunday more nothingness i guess.. choir practice and church.. oh no I'm the backup singer.. have no idea what songs are on.. Stephen help!!!
waaaaaaaaah need toilet very very soon D:
take care darlings! xoxo
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what do you do
at this very moment
when I think of you..?

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

mm lazy days

are good.
I've fallen into this "pattern", just for the sake of having one, but it's flexible enough to still hang out and stuff..
ok so maybe "pattern" is too fancy a word.. all i do is
get up in the morning,
drink heaps of water (yes i make a big deal out of this)
gym
shower
do my hair (which, thanks to the length and amount, takes about half an hour - sometimes i just don't bother at all, going au natural works. sometimes.)
turn on heater
get tucked back into bed and...
read my lovely pile of books. ohhh should've taken a picture.. looks like a leaning tower of pisa right now

since i haven't written in a while.. i'm gonna write shitloads. actually.. there hasn't been much happening (it's all in my head, and you don't wanna know what goes on in this girl's head.. it might scare you away lol)