hello everyone,

    I know it has been such a long time since I have been on my site....I have had such a busy summer (even though it doesn't seem like I did anything).  I have some news:  Over the summer, I couldn't be ana because I live with my boyfriend now, and he sees everything I eat! so, I have gained about 12 lbs! I am so depressed over this! But, I just started a new gym membership today, so hopefully I can start getting back on track, and back in shape! If anyone has any advice for me, i will gladly take it! I'm desperate! I need help! Please help me girls! I have class tonight till 8, and then im going to the gym for about an hour or so...this is going to be my first time back in about 3 months! wow! I sure do miss it! Wish me luck and encouragement! I love you all! 

Hey everyone,

    Life has been ok I guess.  It hasn't been great thats for sure.  I have been going through so much crap lately, and it really sucks.  Everything from boyfriend to school in the fall to getting an apartment to my parents has just been a real mess.   Hmmmm, I hope it gets better soon.   My intake for today so far:

    A slim fast shake and my vitamins.  I'm going to be really good today.  Oh, and I went running this morning and cleaned the whole house, so that prob burned a lot of cals.  I hope so anyway! Hope everyone has a great week! bye bye

Hello all....

 It feels good to be on here writing to you all again. Well, I went through a period where I couldn't help eating, because I was always around people like family, boyfriend, friends, etc etc.  But, the last coupld days I have been getting back on track of not eating that much, and I hope it stays that way. 

   Intake for yesterday:  B-apple 80 cals

                                    L-some wheat thins 150 cals

                                    D- salad 150 cals                 total...about 380 to 400

So, I guess thats not too bad...and so far for today....

          B-slim fast meal bar 220 cals  (that should hold me over for quite a while)

      I hope everyone is doing great, and I can't wait to recieve comments of support and encouragement! bye bye!

Hi all....I have decided that I am not going to do the challenge anymore cause its too hard to do it when I am at home because I can't get on the computer everyday (lets just say that my living situation is kinda weird). But, I am however going to stay as good as possible to ana.  Its a lot harder cause I am always around family and people, but I am going to do the best that I can.  Wish me luck, and I will try to update whenever I can.  Lately I have been doing the slim fast plan cause with that at least Im not eating that much, but enough to keep everyone off my case.  So, we'll see.  I love you all and stay strong! Bye bye!

PS.  I got a new puppy!!! A chawawa! She is all white with a little bit of brown on her face.  As soon as I get pics uploaded to my computer,. I will post them.  Oh, and her name is Pixie! Hehe!

OMG!!!!! 

     I am so freakin horrible! i mean, utterly disgusting! Ok, so, I went home on monday night from college so that I could take a bunch of stuff home and then come back and get the rest.  Well, I dont' have access to the internet as easily back home as I do here in my dorm, so i wasn't able to get onto xanga the whole time!  And, to make things worse, I'm doing the challenege, so not feeling in xanga everyday, + not commenting to other girls lost me a lot of points.  Then, to top it off even more, my boyfriend became very suspicious about me not eating, so when I was with him, I had to eat, and I am with him all the time!!! Well, I wasn't supposed to be because his job just went full time, so he was supposed to work all day, so I wasn't going to be around him till the evening meaning I really wouldn't have to eat durning the day.  But, for some reason, he didn't work this week during the day, which meant we were together all the time...which meant I had to make it look like I want to eat a lot so that he does not suspect anything from me.  So, I know I had way too many calories, which resulted in gaining weight....i can really tell that I have gotten pudgyer!!!  And, I feel soooo gross!!! So, Im not even going to try to figure out how many calories I had, or how much exercise I didn't do cause I was so busy.  So, I know Im going to lose points, but that is just a loss that im going to have to take.....and do better from here on out, whether Im home or not.  And, my boyfriend is working full time starting monday, so I wont be seeing him all that much.  So, I just need to be really good to make up for the points that I have lost.  I really hope that this doesn't make anyone look down on my and think that I dont' have the will power, cause I know I do...It is just so hard when your whole freakin family eats all the time and centers their whole life around food!!!!!!!   Anyways, wish me luck girls.  I need as much as I can get!!  I love you all!