| stuff i wrote n stuff read emi dont use this much anymore...www.myspace.com/ban_me_again_dicks is what i use
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the sun sets on the mountain.
as my eyes set to you.
just as the sun falls into the mountain.
i fall into you.
yours truely intoxicated
intoxicated by you.
your eyes have never looked so at rest.
how ever did i end up in this fine mess.
im inside out for you.
outside but in for you.
and this time i think its true.
what i feel for a girl.
for you its true.
arms twisted up in eachother.
because i was reaching out in my sleep.
i was reaching for you.
and i sleep entwined with myself.
all bent up over you.
and its the empty space next to me that makes it so real.
im all wrapped up into this.
wrapped up into you.
arms entwined i collide every night.
into my dreams where you hold me tight.
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they fall from the grasp of eden
fallen from the skies to become heathens.
into the myst they strike without fear.
the darkened stars on thier wrists
for all to see thier wish.
they follow the hymn into the darkness.
to follow him.
they seek out his majesty.
to release him.
they mirror your apperance.
to blend in.
and strike when the lines are thin.
its spiritual terrorism.
and your thier next prey.
unless you fight against them.
to only fall another day.
unless you stay the course.
hell will reign with no remorse.
unless you walk into the light.
all will feel hells plight.
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i feel the teardrops from the sky
as the waves of a thousand darkened shards fill my eye
and i try.
i swear to god i try.
but sometimes its not good enough.
every moment of every single day.
my head fixed upon this falling star.
blackened to the core of its existance.
but still it shines.
and i know that sometimes i'll look like that.
as the darkened shards fill my eyes.
the sun comes out.
and washes away the lies.
seeing my true self.
falling to far from grace.
as these teardrops fall from the sky.
im blinded by the sunlight.
cleansing the lies.
my blood spilled all over the battle of life.
reach down to grab my heart.
but all i got was a handful of fears.
as night falls upon my new years.
this deaf raven now has ears.
he takes his broken wings.
and he'll walk up some stairs.
reaching up into the heavens.
to lay down and die.
laying down his life.
so that others may live and realize.
-andy-deaf raven-
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i'll have fun
crying myself to sleep tonight.
the bane angel and his sight has faught me hard tonight.
amongst the barracades we fight and fall.
dying everyday but no one will ever tell
a true battle that began in my heart.
picked up my sword.
and now its falling apart.
the soft voice in the back of my head.
all i fight for reminding what im dying for.
everyone gets wounded one way or another.
but nobody has to be a hero.
i try to tell myself that everyday.
drop to my knees and prey.
lord show me the way.
every i love you underlined in my head.
you are my torch in the dark.
you are my food when i starve.
you are my weapon when im dissarmed.
just take me home one day.
to the lady i left to fight for.
the woman of my heart.
that even war couldnt tear apart.
and im wounded but my skins just fine.
knowing i have a home and a reason to fight.
-Andy- and this world is so heavy it brings me to my feet.
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spitting blood into the face.
bringing honor with disgrace.
stabbing at the reflection in the water.
he tries to run away.
bound and gagged.
cut from stomach to throat.
he bleeds all his hope.
darkened skies remind him of his past.
ghosts that are mortal walk past.
damned in any way.
demons in his path.
holding out his heart.
already dead but im still breathing.
this is the message you wish you never heard.
im dead from head to toe.
but still i haunt this earth.
in search of revenge.
i grasp onto you with my roots.
pin you down.
and grab your throat.
whisper in your ear.
this was my dying hope.
as you scream i watch you bleed.
crimson moonlight all over me.
and i am pleased.
may the demon be released.
from within me.
rip into your flesh.
just to see you as me.
just to see you.
as you see me.
-Andy I wonder what it looks like from where she is sitting-
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trying to set my self free.
finding different places.
finding me.
now i lay my head down to sleep.
thinking of the dreams i used to sleep to.
i dont want to lose you.
but i need to find me.
and then we loose control.
i dont want to let go.
nosediving to the ground.
were making sounds
like were falling.
were falling down.
falling down.
but when your with me it keeps my feet ont he ground.
though my head is spinning and my hands are numb.
youve found whats inside of me.
and i hope your proud.
because i am for what youve done for me.
and now i sit back in my chair.
think of all the times youve made me feel lovesick.
the times you reached out for my hand when no one else was there.
this i'll share with you.
until its all said and done.
just remember these were our times.
and we did things right.
everything will be alright.
-Andy-Home isnt always home not even close-
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| one drink to remember
another to forget.
the world is full of me.
and i am full of regret.
so where do we go now.
do we keep going forward.
or should i turn around.
trying to find my true place.
stumbling passed the clouds.
and the people in my way.
i get to a roadblock.
a man says no exit this way.
and still i try.
walking across the world.
when will i find.
a place to call my own.
where i can keep my dreams.
and sleep with my heart inside of me.
and thaughts of you.
beside me.
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-andy
whats th epoint of going on?
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| spending the worst day of my life alone.
another day on this earth.
without a real home.
trying to find myself.
but ive found everybody else.
and sometimes.
i just wanna let go.
show everyone my scars.
and drink to being alone.
try to forget.
that rome wasnt built in a day.
but its hard to think that.
when today was so long.
where did i go wrong.
to end up alone.
will i die a stubborn old man.
or spend some time in the dark.
and die a young man.
with a broken heart.
i dont fear death.
its happened to me before.
you see the day i died.
was when my heart was torn.
but still i breathe.
still i feel.
still i love
still i hate.
and still i heal.
on this day i spent thinking of you.
-<3 ANDY
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| nothing like listning to music while owning.
so apperantly not that many people come here anymore because i have been getting less and less comments.
but you know what thats cool im comfortable with that...i can handle it ...
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| so anyways i went ona road trip the other day with jason...it was pretty fun we drove like 600 miles one way..oh yeah i stopped inf argo for like an hour too. if you wanna know aobut it just ask me because im uhh...doing something?
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