meeta404's Xanga

Friday, July 20, 2007

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 18:26:34 GMT

wow.

xanga...this still exists.

its quite interesting...ive had this xanga for 1021 days..a very long time..but I seem to have abandonded it...like a lot of other things in my life. Last time i posted something here..was about 2-4 years ago. Pretty much what happend in that time period is that i grew up. I just read all my past posts...& cant help thinking about how differently things have turned out from the way I expected. In some ways, I feel like ive missed out on a lot of memories & good times that i could have had. But in many other ways, I am grateful for the direction in which my life is heading.

Moving to old bridge gave me a clean slate, a completely new life. At first I regreted leaving everything that was so fammiliar to me in my life...it was like I was stripped of my safety blanket & throw into the wild (lol..weird way to describe it!) but its true...i couldn't help my feeling of helplessness/lonliness..it was a feeling that took a lot of time to shake off..but I eventally did. Now when I think about it im extremely lucky to have left when I did. I mean who really gets the chance to hide all their past mistakes & image behind and start high school with people who cant critisize becaiuse they know nothing about you. I get quite nostalgic when my friends talk about growing up together, but thats okay too. I mean it sometimes bothers me that they werent there for all my crazy/silly times, but that feeling passes more quickly everytime i get it.

Because i realize that ive been making memories for the past two years with these people..even though it doesnt seem like a lot of time...i think ive made some closer friends here than ive had in my thirteen years in jersey city.

I think growing up is tough. I remember when i used to be asked what i wanted to be when i wanted to grow up all the time & i always thought that i had plenty of time to figure it out. but now i realize, that time is running out. I mean im a senior now...& how much more time do i really have to make up my mind? Eventually...ill be grownup & that question wont apply to me at all...grr..that tends to scare me

I want to thank Amir at this point. I think he had a lot to contribute to everything pretty much. After spending 20 months with him..i feel as if he's an experience that ill always remember..and one that had a pretty significant impact on my character. I cant explain how or why, but he did. I guess anyone that a person is intimate with for such a long time changes them...not really changes, but impacts that person.

Well..that was a pretty long post..but yea...like ive said...its been a long time as well

I think i still like xanga.

<3 Dashy

***sidenote: HP party tonight!..lol*** XD

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 22:05:06 GMT

our aniverseryy + our first fight. how eventfull. but its all worked outt now, i guess i shouldnt hav blown up in his face, but what kud i hav done, he wouldnt listen. i guess it was my fault , i guess i should have explained, but w/e. who cares?

im not different, not at all. i didnt change, why do ppl keep saying that to mee. lets see, im a bit taller, a bit thinner.no, wait, alot thinner, but cmon, i still look the same, i guess. Im still the crazy perky Dashmeet. im a liitle lesss optimistic bout everything, but i guess thats whhat old bridge does to you, it sucks the fun out of you.

i should be shudying for AP, but whyt bother, kurkowski hates meeh, ill probally fail no matter how much i study. drivers ed test coming up soon, but y studdy for that. i just cant wait till break, sams coming over for the entire week + ill finally get to see my beloved miki, may b even su m others

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 19:11:43 GMT

everyhting is goingg sooo well here..friends ,klass...all that krap...but i still dont like it...its bin friggin 3 months...nd i still think this place is shit nd ill b bak in jc sooon.....theyree sooo much drama herend not the type i like to be apart of but still somehoww get involvedd in,./...stupid sophmores...id rather b a freashmman......theyre all soo old... nd i justt wish everything was gonnee, nd i were bakk homeeee.....i guess everyone has bin moved on, the only person i keep in kontact w/ is mik, but thats like barellyy....i hav alll the time in the world, but i just cant call them, i guess its all soo different now. Nd what suksss is that i wont be w/ sam for our 6 MONTH, which is tommorow........so i juss guesss im so pissed kuz im overloaded w/ krap..o yea...happy diwaliii

meeta

Monday, January 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 14:47:44 GMT

i like 2 say again 2 all of u ppl : buss incident w/ my skarf was totally nott funni (ahemm...ahem..henal) and also to those who keep reminding meeh about it

Friday, January 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 23:25:19 GMT

i luvvv GREEnDay...i cnt believe theyre having a concert in NJ!! i kno, im freaking out....but its not until a relli long time...i cnt wait.....but i luvvv my sis 4 gettin meeh tickets...yay!!!!

Monday, December 27, 2004

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 12:12:04 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im finally 13!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 17, 2004

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 16:38:35 GMT

a lot of ppl have the damn tendancy to make a bigg sumthing out of nothing nd den tell the wholle entire wurld bout it... but i dont relly kare, cuz i kno its nuttinn but shit....

Monday, December 13, 2004

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 16:10:27 GMT

well looks like things r going great with heefa and manuel, they relly hav bkum gewd friends...meeh on the other hand, i havent been here in a while, i guess i had a lot of time today since i wasnt at school nd throwing up in my house, i actually had fun. it was a drag having to take all this medicine..nd the coughin and sneezing but i had a lot of time to think..since i was home by myself...

meeta

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 14:57:12 GMT

yay....another break, just b4 thanskgiving.... we don have dat whole turkey thing this year, apparently my mom gave it away(wtf!!!!) and yea.....we are left turkeyless...lol....lelts see, we had international day today, that acts sucked...it was the most boring international day yet...it as completely horrible. the food ws okaii, nd i had 2 lyke walk in the rain nd by the time i g ot home my hair frizzed out,lol, but overall it was okay....im jus relly relly bord...well, yea...

Friday, November 19, 2004

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 19:20:36 GMT

i luuvvv fridays, we hav 2 bulshit free days.....well actually 1, kuz of the dam high tech test, well ive herd its easy so im not that worried,.....yes, i kno..im over that whole makeout comment he made, but im still pretty mad at him.... but ill get over it, hopefuullyy..i see alot of ppl dere, so im not the only freak whus getting dere relly reely early, nd freezing mya ss off in the kold, if it is kold..w/e.....im gonna go lyke watch tv....

meetA