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Name: Teresa
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 1/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: My interests are many, but a few are Tennis, Bowling, pretty much anything athletic or academic; different languages, different cultures, Grange, Campus Crusade for Christ, Circle K, and International Forum. I also love to work around animals and do farm chores. (Crazy I know.) :)
Expertise: languages
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
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AIM:  mefrancene
Member Since:
4/3/2005
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| A rant from a VERY frustrated person. I am mostly writing this because our phone is out and my cell phone service isn't very good here, so if you read this, just take it as a stress release from me, but any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks! :)
What do you do when your family is torn apart? Not by death or something tragic, but by the fault of the parents and the choice to favor one over others. This might seem harsh, but that is exactly what is happening to my family now. It has gotten so bad that I would rather stay at school than go home for even a weekend. This week is my spring break and I would rather be anywhere else than at home where I am not wanted. It's odd, but when I tell my dad my grades, all he says is that you need to do better. While when I am home and trying to write a term paper that is due the next day, my sister decides to come in the room and turn her music blaring loud and thus a fight ensues. While I try to get her to turn it down, my dad listens to us screaming, (while in his bedroom with the door shut) while my mom leaves the house to walk around outside it, so she doesn't have to deal with me. When I say deal with me that is exactly what I mean. I am always the one at fault, whether by choice or because that is always the common belief. I found out the day before my brother and I turned 23, that my sister was packing up our stuff. I then called my mom about it and her question was, can we get rid of your dresser? Then when I told her no, then she was like well maybe we'll just get rid of Terry's, (without even asking him). Thankfully, neither one of those things happened, but I come home for my dads' birthday to find out that all of our things where in boxes and my sister had completely taken over the room. Now I know that sometimes when one child goes off to college, then another sharing that room might change it, but my sister is 2 years older than Terry and I and she isn't in college! Granted Terry is stationed in North Dakota and I am home at least 5 months out of the year, not including the weekends I come home. My sister on the other hand has moved out whenever I come home, which she just stated doing this past Christmas break. She stays at a friends house for the time that I am home and then comes back when I go back to school. The reason you might ask? I am now allergic to cats and she lets the cat in our bedroom and let's him get on my bed to look out the window, hence why I am now allergic to cats! Anyway, I have my fan on at night to help me breath and she complains about it, even though I make sure it is not blowing her way at all. So anyway, the day after I get home for Christmas break, my MOM comes to me and wants Me to compromise! With having my fan off, while the cat will, supposedly stay out of the bedroom at night. I say supposedly, because that would never happen. My sister has never been held accountable for anything and as I have always said that if she could get away with murder, then she would. Which might seem like a harsh saying, but she once put grass in my bed, shortly after finding out that I was allergic to grass and I was so sick the next day that I couldn't go to school. What did she get out of it you might ask? My MOM told me she was going to wash my bed sheets. That was the ONLY thing that was said about it! This is only one example, but there where many more like this. This type of thing happens when a mother favors the only daughter she wanted and the dad won't say anything because he doesn't want to go against my mom. So life in general sucks right now, but I really can't wait until Sunday, when I get to see my extended family and I fly out to see my brother, whom I miss tremendously! Terry said that this is why you don't think about this stuff, but I don't know if that's just because he is a guy and chooses to ignore the situation, or the fact that he isn't the one home that is dealing with it. It's sad that I keep telling myself that one more year and I'll be graduating and possibly in another country and I won't have to live here anymore. Even though I know that I will my extended family, church family, and friends more than I can say. I don't know where God wants me, but I just hope it's somewhere with more happiness than there is here at my parents home.
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| Hannah Leigh Huff has arrived!!!!
Weighing in at 8 pounds 11 ounces and 22 inches long. She was born at 6:20 pm and (from what I've been told) has a full head of hair. : P Congratulations goes out to my cousins, Angela and Mike, on this most awesome day!
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| So it's back to Shawnee for another semester! Christmas vacation was such a stressful time and I can't say how glad I am that it's over. Terry didn't get to come home for Christmas and this year was the first time he hasn't been there.
It was extremely difficult being home. I was home for only 2 days and then my sister moved out. I am now allergic to cats because my sister was constantly letting the cat on my bed, which is why I am now allergic to it. My sister does not know the meaning of compromise and it's even hared for me because I am more of a peacemaker. My relationship with my sister has gotten to the point where I am having asthma attacks because she is stressing me out so much. I don't get stressed that easy and when I do, it is usually because I am worried about someone else or they just don't listen or respect me or my emotions. This has only happened once before and I absolutely dislike how I had to end that friendship. I don't want to have to cut my sister out of my life because that is what is better for me. I just wish my sister and I could get alone, but a part of the problem is that she has never been held accountable for anything and that is what scares me the most. This situation is a lot different then the last one, but I don't want it to end the same way. The last time I lost a friend and even though he didn't respect my emotions I never wanted it to end the way it did and is probably one of the biggest things I regret. Sometimes when someone changes, it isn't always for the better.
So... After a very stressful vacation, it is so great to be back at Shawnee. It feels really odd to think that almost a year ago I was just leaving for Spain and now I am really close to graduating. In the last year I have been to these countries: Spain, France, Italy, and England. (Though I didn't get to actually see much more than the airport in some of them.) I did make a lot of really great friends and it's great to know people from all around the world. Right now I am looking for an internship and I am not sure where God will take me this summer.
It's really hard to think Terry and I will be the same age as our birthday and we won't even be together for it. I knew it would happen sometime, but it's just been really hard this past year. When I left for Spain in January last year, I came back on June 28th, and I didn't get to see my brother till the middle of August. We spent 7 months apart and then we only got to see each other for a week before we both left home again. Terry to be stationed at Minot Air Force base and me, to go back to school at Shawnee State and to start my senior year. It's been about 7 months again and this time I will be flying to North Dakota from February 10th to the 17th. So I will only get to see him for a week again, but I really can't wait! : ) My dad's birthday is February 15th and he will be 60! Terry and I are hoping our dad will get to go with me. (Even though we haven't told Dad that yet.) ; ) It's really crazy though because it is going to cost about the same as my round trip ticket to Spain as it is to fly 4 states away. Isn't that crazy!  It will also be a lot colder in North Dakota than it ever gets in Ohio. It will definitely be an interesting trip.
Well, that's all for now and I will hopefully be updating more often. I also will finally have the rest of the long awaited pictures from Spain up. : P
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| So, let's just say that my trip to the State Fair went great! I was able to spend some time with Dale, Abby, Kayla, and a few other friends from past years. I even got in a late night euchure game with Dale, Megan, and another guy on JFB. It was great to be there again, but it was also great to get to leave when I wanted to. It's funny, when you run into someone you didn't expect to, but should have known that God has a way of stepping in when you least expect it. Being back there brought back a lot of great and also a lot of not so great memories. That's what's so awesome about God though; he puts events in our lives to teach us something. I learned never to accept less than I deserve and expect to be respected just as I respect everyone around me. A friend once said that you have to let the good memories over shadow the bad and he was right, but he forgot one important lesson. Without remembering the bad memories, how do we learn from them? I have to say that I have forgiven everything that has happened in the past and if I hadn't the the anger would just fester and it would make me miss out on the opportunity to live a truly happy life. I learned a lot since last year and I thank God for all the opportunities he has given me. My trip to Spain was no picnic, but I can honestly say that God was with me every step of the way and I didn't panic once or became stressed out, except for finals. :) God has changed my life a lot in a year's time and I thank him for the change. Some people are put in our lives for a life time and others are just passing through.
One last thing before I call it a night....... I just found out that Terry is coming home on TUESDAY!!!!!!!! All I have to say is that I am beyond over excited that he is FINALLY coming home!!!! His flight arrives at Columbus airport at 11:50pm. He is flying United, so I hopefully he'll arrive on time. I work earlier that day, so I might be calling a few of you to help me stay awake on the way there or at least to help me keep my attention on the road because I might be too excited to really calm down while driving.
Well, that's all for now. Happy Birthdays go out to Jerrica and Dale, who are both turning 21! Have a great weekend and stay safe!
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