Sticks and stones

I know its not a time right now for me to wish this but i wish i were dead. It feels like i shouldnt even be alive anymore or i should have never been born i have no one to talk, my best friend hates or thinks im a bitch and i dont even know what i did i cant even talk to my other best friend about it because she doesnt want to hear it nor does she care as she said. I dont even know what to do anymore i hate myself im ugly fat no one likes me im a fuck up i could never do anything right by next week the only thing i will have is a boyfriend maybe not even. I just dont get how i could try and be such a good friend to my friends and all they do is get mad at me im never good enough. I honestly wish to die that would make its easyer for everyone even me i wont have to wake up every morning and make sure everyone around me is happy or making sure no one feelings get hurt. even if i ran away it would be the same as dying because no one would notice if i were here or not im a gost to everyone, all my friends to is walk all over me and i take it so they do even more, Yea it would be better if i died ask anyone.

I like my drunk nights better then my sobber days.

you know whats pretty funny how now my "best friend" has "broken up" with her boyfriend who she claimed to love so much and couldnt help it but to ruin our friendship just to be with him and now after three months she dumps him im sorry love but who the fuck do you think i am and idot lol i know a liar when i see one and also i know you to well for you to tell me a good lie and also dont tell me one thing and then in a survy say your not single, first off your dumbass and also i hope it was worth ruining our friendship over this because it will never be back to the way it was. also if your telling him one thing and another to other people theres somthing wrong there so fuck you because i know you to well and i also know when you lieing.

i need a diet plan any wanna help??