wahoooooo....got to work out twice today...it is a great feeling. I feel it already. time to get back into shape and shed off the extra pounds from the holidays. It all started at the new york trip. "just a little more cake won't hurt". then came thanksgiving, "some extra turkey and stuffing won't hurt" x-mas...no need to say that i was the cookie monster.... and then new years...everyone taking you out to eat...man...well, i am back up and running in my workout regime. man foood is so gooooodddd.

I just noticed that all my quotes of endearment have one thing in common, can you guess? honey, pumpkin, cutie pie, sugar.....they are all forms of FOOD!!!! haha...man from now on i'm gonna call people, "twix" bc that is my favorite candy...bc BABE is for babe ruth and i don't really like that candy...haha....and if i call you tres leches...well, yeah, you'll understamd...ahha...ok...i think i am getting delirious.

I'm gonna miss u, twix. don't wanna go tommorow...................Marylyn

My stomach hurts, I'm tired, and i need to eat. *sigh* ok i am done complaining.

what's new in my life? well i have finally worked up the courage to quit at slick's. I can't necessarily call it courage, shall we say "selfishness". I worked there not really for the pay but bc of the friendships, the laughter, and the smiles that it brought upon my face. My co-workers and i got along so well and they made me laugh hysterically 24/7. i wil miss them dearly. Didn't want to quit bc i knew they depended on me. I didnt want to let them down. I did. I had to. School is my MAIN priority.

speaking of which, i have come to realize that showing your emotions is not a sign of weakness. I am tired of bottling up my emotions in fear of getting my heart trampled on, but when you show that you care they get reassurance of your genuine intentions. I may not show my feelings alot at times becasue i am independent or at least i try to be independent. all my life i whole heartedly believed that when you show that you care about a person you are letting your guard down and you become weaker, more dependent. Now, I say it like it is. If i feel it, I say it. Made many mistakes in the past. Didn't say all the things i wanted to say. didn't show my feelings, but i have learned from my mistakes. I can only pray that i will not let my pride overshadow and conceal my innermost emotions, from now on. I can't turn back time, but as life unfolds, day by day, i feel more and more blessed.

happy 22nd b-day don! I now that things were alittle rocky at first, but it all seemed to fall into place in the end, right? I'm not gonna say it. nope. not getting it out of me today...haha...

As i sit back and re-evaluate my actions and experiences, I have come to realize that you don't fully understand and appreciate other peole's efforts or unsuccessful efforts until you walk 10 miles in their own shoes. I have realized that time is everyone's arch enemy. we are constanly battleing the never ending war with it, and ultimately, it wins. no questions asked. period. I wish I had more time. More time to make my loved one's smile. hopefully, one day in the near future. i don't blame anyone.

I am excited, curious, and scared..............................Marylyn

As the christmas holidays are screeching to an end, i'm trying to take a step back and re-evaluate the last month af my life. it can be described in one word: WORK. haha. that's right. not love. not friends. not family. not life. for all that matters, i had no life. haha. well, this x-mas break has been a learning experience. working over 60 hours a week and then going home in an attempt to spend time with my family and significant others, really has been a challange. I'm going to slow down and start enjoying the last week or so of  my break because i'm just plain tired.

on another note, my girls, ly and thom, are coming back to houston. may the partying begin.

Still awaiting for an answer to the Conoco Philips internship. I need to find an alternative to my waitressing job because my mommy stays up late to ensure my safe return home, and at the wee hours that i stay at work, its a big burden for her. My mom is so good to me. I do undersatand her unconditional love for me and i hate to see her wait up becasue she has to go to work the next day. Although i am glad to see her warm nurturing face as i step foot upon my home, it tears me up onside to know that she is restlessly worried about my safety. I can't be doing this to her. i just wished that she would trust me when I say that i will be safe. I can't blame her though. One day when I have Kids of my very own, i will feel the pain and the worry that i am placing her through. So i have made my decision. I am quiting my jobs. Once I go back to school, if  don't get the internship, I will take the other job offer from GEMI, Global Energy Management institute. That will just have to do.

OoOoo. saw alot of old faces at Magnolia for the New Year. can't say I had the best time, but it was satisfactory. sucked though becasue we did our countdown in Donna's car whiile looking for parking in downtown. poopers!

I have been dating someone lately. I am dissapointed. you know who you are. you are wrong. drove all the way to see you and what happened? haha.....watever.

talked to an old friend yesterday. Hope that you are doing good. your phone sucks not mine. and oh yeah, my jokes....OOOmmmpphhhhh   all the way. lol

my New Year's Resolution:

make a 4.0

make GIS a more stable and flourishing organization

get back to my workout regime

make more memories with my family and friends that will last a lifetime

get an internship

study for my LSAT

take life a little slower.

spend more time with my family.

sorry for the long entry. alot has been happening nad i don't want to leave anything out. laters.....Marylyn