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The Chance To Strikeout

I'm not sure how many people read my posts, so I guess that's why I don't update much. With school being out though, I have a lot of free time on my mind to think and ponder the oddities of life. So since the marathon race I've lost one toe nail, and in the process of losing another toenail. I don't think I'll do the race again like that. So to pass the time whenever I'm in Brownwood, I'm working as a baseball umpire. People use sports analogies to eplain life. Here's one that I wanted to ask xangaland. Here it is:

Is it better to (a) go up to bat. Receive three well-thrown pitches. Swing every time. And miss every time. Only to get struck out?

or (b) allow the next batter to take your place and give it a try all the while you're thinking, 'I bet I could do if I had the chance'.

I'm not sure if how I answer this is indicative of a life philosophy. I'm still thinking and pondering this issue. I mean, is it better to know you gave it your best and it wasn't good enough than to never know for sure if you are good enough but to still have that chance in your mind?

I think we constantly desire a chance to prove ourselves. To see what we're made of. To see if we have what it takes.

In dating, is it any consolation to say "Well, at least he/she knows me, what I'm like, what I'm about, what I believe, and he/she rejected me." I guess the flip side to that coin is "If only he/she would give me a chance and get to see the real me, then he/she would like me." ...

I think most of us desire that chance. But do we take it. Or let it pass by?

If you have thoughts on this, let me know! I hope everyone is having a great summer!

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4 days till I leave for New Mexico. I know I'm not gonna win the race. My goal is to be able to walk away having completed it. Other than that I don't know what really to expect. However, probably the greatest thing I'm looking forward to is getting my first ever Race Shirt. Those out there that race know the feeling. The etiquette. The understanding among competitors: Never wear a shirt in which you didn't race. This will be my first. Hopefully, the first in a growing collection. I will add pix if anyone is interested.

so Chirstmas was nice. as customary, I went and saw a movie. My sister and I were gonna go see The Ringer but at the last minute she ditched me to see a movie with one of her guy friends. So instead I saw Munich...I will probably post my thoughts on that movie but not on this site. I'm overhauling my website and that's where I will eventually post it.

So this Friday I get to go to one of my first official weddings. I missed out on all my close friends' weddings while I was gone so this should be nice. And then on New Years I get to go back to Camp Buckner for Reunion! And then come back to B-wood for good. I want to wish everyone in Xanga-land a Happy New Years! and stay-tune for my site!

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So, it's been a while since I've updated. Facebook is really the onle thing I keep current. It's a different animal so I'll put different info on here. I finally scheduled for the Spring Semester. I decided to change from a B.A. degree to a B.S. degree. That means more math and science courses. I haven't taken a math course since 1998. yeah....i know...

I've also decided to not continue my path as a "jack of all trades, master of none route." Instead I'm gonna try to specialize and focus on one thing instead of always leaving a back door and never focusing on one thing. One that means is that after I graduate from HPU and go to A&M, if God is still leading me to go to school for International Affairs I'll go. But until then, I'm focusing on the Viz program. Wish me well, cause I'm gonna need all the help and focus I can get. But I believe that as of right now, it's the best path for me in order for me to be the best steward of what God is doing in my life.

By His Grace and For His Glory,

jeff

I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Right now, my unit's mission and future location is still up in the air. I'll try to keep y'all informed on my situation. Once again, thanks for all your concern.

By His Grace and For His Glory,

jeff