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Thursday, July 01, 2004

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 05:23:24 GMT

Trying to inhale, swallow, and embrace change is hard.
Especially when I know that these moments
will be pivotal in the forward movement of my life.

Thursday, July 01, 2004

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 03:02:55 GMT

I better marry a boy who is good with money, because I am not.
I would rather have things than I would rather have money. (Like books and fun stuff.)

Monday, June 28, 2004

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 07:45:11 GMT

Thank you friend, for your sweet, quiet conversation.

"I would like to beg of you, dear friend, as well as I can, to have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language."

-my dear Rainer Maria Rilke in Letters to a Young Poet

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 22:45:42 GMT

I am just so tired. I want to live in the mountains.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 01:14:01 GMT

For those of you who know what I'm talking about, my crave poster is up for sale.

For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, my crave poster is for sale.

There will be a picture soon.

Sizes can vary. The original one is 45" x 24". I can frame it.

Prices will vary.

Friday, June 25, 2004

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 04:06:32 GMT

Once I read in foreign books
of the time of Michelangelo.
That was a man beyond measure - a giant -
who forgot what the immeasurable was.

He was the kind of man who turns
to bring forth the meaning of an age
that wants to end.
He lifts its whole weight
and heaves it into the chasm of his heart.

The anguis and yearning of all those before him
become in his new hands raw matter
for him to compress into one great work.

Only God escapes his will - a God
he loves with a high hatred
for being so out of reach.

-Rainer Maria Rilke

Thursday, June 24, 2004

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 05:46:54 GMT

Today: five new books

Utopia by Thomas More

The Portrait of a Lady by Henry James

a biography on Auguste Rodin

The Book of Images by Rainer Maria Rilke

and there's one that's coming in the mail - another Rilke book (Letters on Cezanne)
I will soon have them all. I'm only a few short.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 04:09:58 GMT

I'm still missing quiet companionship.

I want to wake up early and take a walk. I don't want to laugh, nor to be unhappy. Just to be peacefully busy in thoughts and full sharing.

best friend for 7 years

Saturday, June 19, 2004

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 06:26:06 GMT

Maybe...

Oh man, oh man, oh man. Life is so big. I have so much to do. I want to do it all now! Let's go! I can't go to bed tonight! I have things to do! I want to get it all done! I can't work, I have things to do!

Life is just so big and I want all of it.

Friday, June 18, 2004

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 23:52:59 GMT

In the last three weeks I have bought 11 new books. Big ones. And today I bought two more books and a Damien Rice bag. I am very excited.

It is my responsibility, as a fellow being, to infect, not to call out defects.