In exactly one week I will kind out whether I can graduate on time or not. How scary! I'm not done with my portfolio and its due on Friday for review before I am asked questions by a panel of people from the ElEd dept about it... I am totally freaking out that I am not gonna graduate in May '08. It would ruin so much if I didn't. I guess I should really stop worrying and just focus on getting everything done and done well.Thats all i can do.

I am also annoyed with ESU and their scheduling. Every time that it comes time to register, even though i am getting more credits, i am still one of the last people to get to sign up for classes? Whats up with that?! I need really specific classes for the spring, if i get in the program, if i wanna graduate on time and the later i sign up the less chance i am gonig to have to get all 6 classes. I guess i do have a tie with people who work with schedules so maybe that will help?

Other than that, things have been stressful around the aptartment but are getting better. Paul has been amazing the past month or so helping me not be so stressed and taking care of anything i ask him, or dont ask him, to do. I couldn't ask for anyone better. We are thinking about going to NY in the spring for a weekend. I'm excited about that. We always just hang out in g'burg or east burg. It will be nice to do something different. I'm trying not to get my hopes up for anything though, i dont want to get disappointed.

Anyways, i should stop procrastinating...i have a midterm tomorrow on a bunch of stuff i dont understand, a ElEd math make-up test on thursday morning and a chem test on thursday night. I need to get studying...

hmmm...its been over a year. weird.

I dont know what to say. I love it at ESU. My life is fantastic. I am in love. I'm enjoying myself. I have a great apartment. I have everything I could ask for...almost. Much more than I need, thats for sure. My family is awesome. I have so much but am somehow not totally happy again. I'm not depressed. I'm just not where I was even like a month ago. I just dont know? Maybe its just another phase and will go away soon?  

This is gonna be a crazy semester. I have 18 credits plus I am screening into the Elem. Edu. department, trying to take a little sister and working. It should be fun just lots of work. Lots of time. Lots of patience and energy. Lots of everything. At this point, its only the second week and homework is kicking my butt. I cant wait for what the semester brings...