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Name: Kyla
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Oklahoma City
Birthday: 2/5/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: I love opera, musical theater, dancing, acting, eating, reading, singing, writing, playing with my pets. I really like taking my mini dachshund puppy to the lake. His name is Mozart (I'm a dork)I have a cat named Binks (yes, from Hocus Pocus).
Expertise: Singing, acting, debate, opera, musical theater, movies, television, and that's about all.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Member Since:
8/1/2005
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| why do i still have this thing???I really have no clue why I have this stupid thing anymore. I mean, the only reason I even have time to write in it now is because I'm on fall break. seriously. Besides, I like myspace better. Not going to delete it just yet, but I'm thinkin' about it. | | |
| State FairSo, going to the state fair tomorrow!!! I love the state fair. Not even gonna lie. I actually get a Sunday off which is awesome. | | |
| and sceneso, I gave up. I cannot make someone be my friend nor do I have the ability to try right now. I'm really truly hurt. Once hurt worse enough, but twice, it's killing me. The difference is that I guess he just decided he didn't want to be my FRIEND this time. Okay. I give up. I'm broken. I'll admit it. But I'll be fine. I know I will. I will always miss him and always love him on some level, but I can't make someone be my friend simply because I'm afraid of my life without them in it. I just don't know what's in store without him and that's thrilling and terrifying at the exact same time. I am loving every minute that I spend with my absolutely amazing friends though. They are the most incredible people anyone could ask for! They kick my ass when I need it and they support me when I need it as well. I am the luckiest girl in the world because of them. Thanks!!!
Ciao folks!! | | |
| Thank YouThe other night was bad. Really bad. Thank you mr. everclear. I needed him apparently. The only thng I remember about the evening is that he actually came when I needed him to. But, now it's back to not talking to me I guess. I'm trying to move on, but he'll enter my mind or I'll see him and all the work that I've done to get over him is gone. I don't want to get over him really. I mean I do. But how do you get over someone you're still so completely head-over-heels for? I know he doesnt feel the same way, and that makes the pain even worse. Maybe I should just delete his number and his email address. But what good would that be? I mean, I have his number and address memorized. And I do want to be his friend. I just don't think I'd be very good at it. He's also not realy allowing me to be his friend een though he says I'm still his best friend...what the fuck is going on?
I am really thankful that he came when I needed him to. It meant a lot.
By the way, Steve Irwin, the Crocodile Hunter, died today. How weird is that? He was killed by a stingray. Apparently the barb went through his heart...ouch
Wishing you all a less confusing life than my own....
ciao | | |
| yet again, let goThe last week and a half has been tumultuous to say the very least. I'm stressed beyond all belief. I haven't eaten in a long time simply because I have no time. Classes are starting to get to me. Recitals are starting to get to me. I seriously think I may have to take a leave of absence at Best Buy simply because I am barely able to function. It's partly my fault because I go out every night, but it's my senior year and I don't really want to give that up. Not just yet anyway. I really need to focus this year but there are times where I need to just unwind and I don't have any of that time right now. I just have to keep telling myself that I'm so close to being done. I mean I have 35 hours left and I'm doing 19 of those this semester. I am almost done.
My personal life is also going to shit right now. People, if you're going to be my friend, then be my friend. None of this wishy-washy shit anymore. It just doesn't fly. Okay? Good. I finally had to just give him control of our friendship and what happens with it. I was tired of trying so hard and him not trying at all.
I know I keep saying this, but I need London or New York. Hell, I would settle for Hong Kong, if I thought I could just start a new life. I'm sad to leave. But I know I'm ready. There is nothing here for me anymore. I made the mistake of staying here in the first place for all the wrong reasons. My fault. No one held a gun to my head. There are certain things I'm going to miss. But I need a new beginning. One that is centered around me and what I want for once in my life. Not what my grandparents or some boy want. I like this new independence. I feel in control once again. I know that I can do anything or go anywhere that I want after May. The only people I have to deal with are Mozart and Binks and they're not people. They're animals and therefore do not talk back to me. As long as I feed them and pet them, they like me.
Ciao | | |
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