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| FANK KUIhey i just wanted to thank all of u who made my bday so blessed and memorable...u guys are so poetic in ur cards...u're melting my heart *kisskiss*
ok so for the record i know ppl keep asking me if i am really turning 19...NO it was a joke...i'm turning ...**
and stop asking me if i have a bf...i only date Jesus..hahah i know that's a good one...but it's true. and why is that i look like the type to have a bf??? what does that mean...????
anyways thank you for your wonderful hearts.
esp u younger ones u guys are so cute i want to squeeze ur cheeks...ask peter and jimmy what i do to them. | | |
| A PROMISE FROM THE GUY UPSTAIRSJeremiah 29:11-13
"FOR I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR U," DECLARES THE LORD," PLANS TO PROSPER U AND NOT TO HARM U, PLANS TO GIVE U HOPE AND A FUTURE. THEN U WILL CALL UPON ME AND COME AND PRAY TO ME, AND I WILL LISTEN TO U. U WILL SEEK ME AND FIND ME WHEN U SEEK ME WITH ALL UR HEART."
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| ChRiStMaS!!!MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!
i wish u all a blessed time with friends and family
and a celebration for the hope that we have in Him.
lets create eternal memories!!
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| FINALLY A NEW BLOG OF JUST SHOOTING THE CRAPyes, yes, i know my blog has completely molded...it's been so long...yeh yeh yeh but here's something to fill your boredom at work.
peeves...for today
-young healthy boys who dont get up to give their seat to old folks on the subway / bus....yesturday i wanted to smack some kid in the back of the head for not getting up when the old grandpa basically almost fell over. what's with this new generation?....but what's more sickening is seeing healthy working MEN do the same...*sigh* such a turn off...
-ppl who spit on the ground in public...it no wonder why some asian women prefer white men cuz of something called MANNERS!!!! eww...walking around spadina/ college area yesturday and some guy almost spat some yellowish goop on my leg...it was gross...
-girls who look at the mirror every 2 seconds.... do u really think majority of men really notice? my last bf couldnt tell whether i was wearing makeup, cut my hair, or even dyed it (except the time when i dyed it blonde), guys are ****...hahaha JUST JOKING MEN!!! no really..*cough*
i was watching "the break up" starring jen and vince yesturday and it really reminded me of how dense men can be sometimes...so typical...always missing the mark. actually i've actually met men who are quite the opposite...very clever when it comes to women. I think a lot of it has to do with not only relational maturity but personality and character. anyways is it just me or do other girls also always pick up on how men act all the time? or maybe i'm just being too observant? too detail oriented?
wanna know something sick? i live really close to brebeuf college so the bus stop i stood at yesturday was bombarded with HS students. Some lil boy hit on me on the bus. What's with me? the older i get the younger it is..?? *sigh* he looked like he was in grade 11...u know their voices are still changing?? eww.. I was like oh gosh please do not talk to me i can get charged. and girls are u aware of the pick up lines used by this new generation now?? i almost didnt get it...felt outdated...maybe i am. most of you do not see how i look and dress like when i go to school.. no make up, bum gear, hair not even brushed....maybe that explains why it takes only 10 min to get ready (wash up and put on clothes), but anyways i look even younger without make up not that i wear a lot when i do anyways. btw any make up artists out there who can give me a tip on how to wear ur makeup that makes u look older? i dont quite trust my mom...who doesnt really wear make up to begin with...
so to the guys out there: i'm really interested to know ..how do u know if a girl has a crush on u?? ur honest opinion. i'm asking cuz i've gotten some really weird shocking insane responses regarding this. like if she's wearing a low cut shirt then she definately likes me. *cough* i know...?
girls: do u think the older the more mature or is there a certain age where this correlation declines??
i have to go to Holts to get my jeans hemmed...*sigh* yes i actually went shopping!!! for those of u who know me...i'm not the typical girl who shops frequently becuz a) i dont have that kinda money to waste on myself although when i do i definately can blow 5bills within 30mins, and b) i tend to have this problem of spending it on other ppl or giving it away. anyways this month after having this job, i kinda...spent a bit okok A LOT...but on things i needed and ...some i wanted - but mind u it was quality over quantity. i could wait for it to go on sale but 24s go like this ---. what? it's hard for me to find pants that fit well usually if it fits my hips it's way too loose at the waist and lower back (if u have this problem speak with me i have a few items to share with u) see being a girl is annoying sometimes. well i still have 28 days for a full refund at Holts so....
i have to hook up with some really old friends this weekend ....i really hope ppl appreciate it when i make time for them. it actually hurts when they take it for granted becuz i really sacrifice alot for them.
i have to write a critical reveiw...C-L-A-R-K!!! (btw Clark did u find my tim huges CD in ur car? house? did dave take it that time to hamilton?) i think i need some help. i'm taking this course called rhetoric writing...it's not easy for me cuz i cant write...so i'm taking it knowing that it'll prob kill my already pathetic gpa to really learn and break out of this shell of "i cant write"...cuz i used to be pretty good at creative writing ..i actually got into the bluestocking at Havergal which only the best of the best get in... what happened??
so i started reading again...christian books... just finished Fit To Be Tied. If you married or single or thinking about marriage you should definately read this. It'll put u into perspective...well for me at least. I'm not dreading marriage but then again i'm not excited either...it's serious stuff that needs to be preceeded into very honestly. anyways currently reading john hagee's what every man wants in a woman and what every woman wants in a man...it's a light read...and it's funny yet edifying at the same time. I soemtimes watch him on tv....he's captivating when he speaks. i love his sermons. anyways also started reading fresh power. oh another thing...i spent so much money on books...u know they are soooo $$$. i'd borrow...but i like to highlight and make notes when i read becuz they speak to me.... hahha ok now i sound like a freak.
oh i almost forgot!! i watched THE BANQUET. what? with who? by MYSELF. annoying part...who killed her???? opps if u havent watched it but wanted to...pretend u didnt read this part ok? ok...maybe i'll write a critical review on this film with the topic of power..in the end u lose everyone and everything?
and lastly, my prayers were answered.. transitioning out of many ministries was quick and easy. This year I cut everything except for one.. SG co leading...becuz i want to be able to give 100%...ya know? quality over quantity...yes i need to spend some serious quality time with my SG girls and with God. And i need to be a great coleader... to support my leader and group in prayer and need to be accountable to God in my relationship with him becuz as Rawle said " ur walk with God reflects onto your group". What can u guys say about westside? Passionate, Powerful, Real, Transforming? well doesnt that sound like pastor paul? so back to my point how u are as a leader will pour out into ur group. anyhow i feel so much better and ready to co-lead now. Thank u to those who have advised me in this matter :) xoxo, ...props if u are a guy.
aight...if u've gotten this far in my long and random post then u need to GET A LIFE and do soemthing more productive with your time. GO BACK TO WORK!!!
prayer request: for discipline in time management and QT ...been struggling with solid QT lately.
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| TEARY GOODBYES, CHERISHED MEMORIES, AND MAKING ETERNAL HISTORYYESTURDAY....FRIDAY....was the saddest moment of my life this year yet it was also the most blessed marked moment for 2006...so this blog is dedicated to my small group.
Sometime ago in Mayish...
Rawle: ok so u guys are going to birth into 2 or 3 groups in May ok? what do u think?
Smallgroup: HAHA, Rawle ur funny...
Rawle: But we..
Smallgroup (SG): NO NO NO!!!!
Rawle: ok so...u have to eventually..
Smallgroup: we arent ready yet..we just added a new girl...we need a few more months
Jenny: ok guys Rawle is going to visit our group maybe this week or next week
but Rawle never came that summer...
Rawle and mich on the phone:
Rawle: so mich what does ur SG think about birthing??
Mich: *pause* Rawle, when u come to our small group just make sure u sit next to me, i'll protect u!!! but if u dont i cant garuntee much...just remember there are 12 of us and uh.. one of u.
Rawle: ....
and somehow our branching got pushed back to Sept.
As much as our SG "branching" (Hess, 2006- i hope u are reading this haha) was postponed to Sept, each of our hearts felt heavy, and the news saddened us, but it also pushed us into making the best out of our last few months together. And we continued to watched God at work in our SG of 12 girls ranging from 19yrs -? haha like i'll tell u, we truly experienced the biblical meaning of community, authenticity, acceptance, patience, power, miracles, joy and most of all LOVE.
When i decided to give up the life i knew for this eternal life that we share, i was walking blind on a single promise God made to those who chose to follow him. I chose to start from scratch; a new beginning that never ended. If it wasnt for SG, I wouldnt have grown as much as i did last year and this year. If it wasnt for SG, I wouldnt have been able to transform as much as i did. If it wasnt for SG, I wouldnt have had the strength and power to overcome my strongholds and achieve that next level with God. If it wasnt for SG, I wouldnt have experienced true fellowship. If it wasnt for SG, I wouldnt have known what it means to be real among 12 girls . And because of SG, I have known love.
I just want to thank all of u for such a blessed time together and for being 100% sincere, and accountable. Because of u guys I am so happy and excited to branch off into another SG so that I have the chance to share true community with those who are clueless of it, and to those who walk into salvation broken like us.
the truth is when u guys left my house friday night i did my usual: i started to clean up the kitchen and dishes (thanks to the peeps who helped). as i wiped the table where we sat, tears just started to stream down my face because i really REALLY began to miss u guys and i realized how much God loved me to allow me to become friends with u girls...and it amazing thinking back to my prayer last year Sept that God will send me christian friends that i could become close and real with becuz i felt a lil lonely back then. thank u for ur friendship that will last for all eternity.
Jenny: Jenny no words can justify the way i feel about u. U have shown me mercy, grace, patience, acceptance, and love this year. U're like my mentor, my friend, my occasional kick in the head, my strength, my neighbour, and my sister. Thank u for ur heart for God and ur authenticity for this group, and ur QUIRKINESS haha. Without u as a great leader i dont think our group would have bonded as much as we did. Thank u for being the example always. btw jenny i'm so angry at u for introducing melona bars...i think i am addicted...shame on u!!!
Hess: Shaniqua, my bredren, my sis, and my source of silliness and laughter. I am in gratitude for the generousity u have shared with me. I never forgot the times to willingly and SECRETLY paid for my broke student butt. and for all the rides u offered me without me really having to ask. it's like u are so sensitive to my needs... i know this is ur way of saying 143, so thank u for ur love, and also for the wisdom and kick in butts this year. I am so grateful to u and yes the verdict is u can officially pass as korean.
SYd: Ok u totally amazed me...actually i think u amazed everyone. I think about the first time meeting u and now...and all i can say is WOW. Syd ur on fire!!!! Ouch..ssss....hahahaha. Thank u for ur kindness syd and ur presence. U're like the quiet backbone of our group. u are so observant, slow to speak, quick to listen, and always down with everything....so easy to get along with. And thanks for always laughing at my cornyness.... u make me feel funny. :) u've become my fellow usher, friend, and sista.
Boyon: to the infamous pianist, the classy artist. boyon, it's been a journey getting to know u. U've changed so much and u seem so happy to be u. i'm so glad i've gotten the chance to know u better in this past half year. it's been so awesome watching u transform right before my eyes. maybe u dont notice it but u are so different than the first time i met u at Hess'. thank u for ur commitment to the group and for ur sensitivity and acceptance to me and the newer sisters that have joined our group. and thank u for opening up and for being so graceful...i think it's a piano thing...sicne we are splitting up in different groups and u dun come to westside i hope when we see each other sometime in the future u wont be a stranger!! ....btw u are still banned from tea.
Christina: do u remember ur first time sharing in jen do's living room while we were eating melona bars? u've come such a long way girl!!! it's too bad u missed our last meeting, u would have cried so much. it was so sad. anyways i really want to encourage u to continue ur walk with God. christina the changes in u are so evident that God is at work in ur life. And prayer is powerful, i think from ur case (u know what i'm referring to), we all experienced it as a group. i just wanted to thank u for ur willingness to open up to us, ur trust, and for ur honesty.
Irene: u've got the kindest, warmest, and nicest heart. the first time i met u i could already be me and feel ur acceptance and grace. U bring the best bree and crackers ever. I'm so happy that u are in our new small group starting in Oct. u've got such a pleasant aura and i think that would be in perfect combo with my cheeziness and Karen's witts. I look forward to our fellowship cuz this will be such a great opportunity to really show u my shame, dirt, and grime...hahaha.
Suz: Did u know u have the nicest most graceful cello arm movements i've ever seen? I feel like a freak for watching ur arm during praise and worship. suz...i've grown so comfy around u. It's always so sweet to have u around and i never told u this but i always admired ur spiritual maturity and ur insights in our discussion and sharing. ur new SG is so lucky to have u leading, u speak with such faith and authority. yes i do listen intentively. unfortunately we wont be able to get to know each other's dirt and shame cuz i've always liked being around u. suz, i never thanked u for u consistent prayers.
Jen: it almost seems like SG evolved from hess' place to urs, then to mine. these 3 places have played such a great part in my memory of SG. It's such a warm, cozy feeling u know? and jen, when i told u i'm so going to miss reading magazines in ur bathroom (not that i go #2 or that i pee that long), but is it shameful to say that i just earnestly enjoy sitting on ur toilet seat and occasionally indulging ur stash of worldly trash!!!??? I just want to thank u for ur carefree spirit and generousity to me in the past when we were strangers. It's gotten so peaceful knowing ur jendoness i just wished we have more time. so lets make this school year even if we dun end up chilling that often in the library a time of prayer for each other in our studies.
Uni: EUNICE!!! i am so going to miss ur emails, ur spontaneity, ur creativity, and the food u bring..oh and ur room. uni, uni, uni, it's been such an adventure getting to know u and to be able to share the shame and joy with u. I cant wait for Irene's wedding cuz i know u got it all under ur belt. it's going to be a blast and it's going to be SG reunited!!!! haha. i wish i could have gotten to share with u more cuz once u get some uni u crave for more!!! I know i will still see u in P1, and sundays :)
Sahrah: i dont know how u are friends with Clark (j/k clark). I wish u the safest and most awesome trip with God in the UK this coming school year. Sahrah, i always wondered how u do it...u live so far and most of the time u subway it to my house...ur love for us, for our shared friendships, for our community is obvious. i just wanted u to know although u are far far away u will always be a member of our group, but not just any member but and old friend, a sister, and one of the "originals" haha. U will always be in our prayers so let not stop keeping in contact. hey we can fellowship via email!!!! and remember at times when u are desprete for help in the UK, God is ur bestest and most loyal friend, He will never forsake u cuz when we are unfaithful God still remains faithful. It's be a pleasure knowing, i know it sounds so clique-ky...but i really mean it. and thanks for all the school advice and for ur virulogy stuff. missing u already...take care and i'll be expecting in Xmas.
Helen: helen, the baby of the group. when i think of u i think of ur growth this year helen melon. ur trip to nicargua was so powerful, our prayers for u were answered and God is forever faithful. It's been so evident the path u are choosing at 19/20. I know what u have sacrificed for Him and He will honor that. I truly wish u the most unlimited heights with God this school year. May u continue to thirst for Him helen. And i have faith that ur new small group will refine u and amaze u in the adventure God has destined for u. U have great spiritual sisters by ur side with u and they will support in ur leadership for this new beginning.
Karebear: and last but not least my karebear and happybug (jenchau, 2006). I still owe u bubbletea...and i have a feeling there will be many opportunities to come. I'm am so excited to be growing with u kare. I'm so excited in what God has instored for our new SG this fall. I'm so excited to give back what i got from our SG of 12. I'm so excited period!!! God is so amazing isnt he? Kare i am willing to share my last 10% with u this coming year of joy, pain, and humility. let's be in unison in prayer for our new SG. I have faith that God will teach us so much this year and there will be so much transformation in all of us!! karebear u have taught me how to rebuke in love in the months we shared and i am so thankful for ur sincereity, warmth, wisdom, and ur HAPPINESS!!! I feel so blessed to be serving with u!!! Let's be honest and true with each other!!! btw every time i think of melona bars...u know what i picture??? | | |
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