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Morbid Anniversary

Well, today is the second anniversary of my dad's death.  I must say, I'm doing better than I expected.  Haven't had a breakdown once...but the day's not over yet.    I miss him a lot, and often wonder if he'd be proud of me.  I see mountains or architecture, or see a movie, and think I should tell him about that and then remember that he's not just a phone call away.

School's incredibly tough.  Why didn't someone try to talk me out of this?  I'm enjoying seeing women in the clinic.  There's nothing quite like touching a pregnant woman's belly and having a baby kick you back.  I get to do that all day.  So that's pretty damn cool.  Things are working out okay at the clinic.  The midwives there are having trouble letting me do my thing- they hover a lot- and take over often.  There have been many days when I thought my head would explode.  But all in all, I'd rather put up with that and see patients than not be able to take care of women. 

I'm sorry to everyone that I haven't kept in touch very well.  I hope you can forgive me for not returning emails and phone calls.  I'm just keeping my head above water most days. 

Spring break's around the corner, and my mom's coming up to see me.  I have so much to show her.  I can't wait.  Also, it'll be nice to have someone shower me with a little TLC for a few days. 

I love and miss you all.

Well, I'm in Gallup, New Mexico.  I've travelled out here (the border town between NM and Arizona) for a clinical site placement.  Tomorrow I start working (it's a learning experience- not for money) in a women's clinic.  YAY FOR PREGNANT BELLIES!  I must admit...I'm nervous.  I hear that this is a rough clinical site, and probably the most politically tense one.  Apparently, there's a lot of in-fighting amongst the midwives there.  So, LET THE GAMES BEGIN!  Anyway.  I'm a dork.  wish me luck. 

As I was driving out here, I was remembering the trip Rich, Mark and I took out to the Grand Canyon.  Good times, good times.  

I'm also a teaching assistant for undergraduate pharmacology and pathophysiology.  OH-MY-GOD!  Was I that whiney when I was that age?  I sure hope that someone would have kicked me in my teeth if I was.  Anyway.  I'm grading their papers, and it's amazing how half-assed some of them did their assignments.  Then when I give them a bad grade, they whine some more.  What the hell?!

Well, that's it for me, and about all I've been up to...studying and teaching undergrads.  I need to drink more.   

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I'm heading back to New Mexico today.  I must admit I've missed it.  I'm looking forward to school starting- but I'm not really prepared, so there's that.  I'll miss being home.  I have kind of an irrational fear about my mom dying or getting really sick while I'm gone.  I wasn't like that before my dad died.  Oh well.  It'll all come out in therapy.  Or be suppressed with drugs...More valium, please!

Anyway.  Love to you all.  Miss you like crazy.

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Question for the Day...

I've said it before, and I'll say it again...

It really is remarkable how music has the capacity to evoke such strong emotions.  Ever notice that?  I think it's freaking KYRAZY!

Keri and I had this discussion on our trip...why is it that we are attracted so music?  What is music about it that calls us to it?  Why is it that we may feel a strong attraction to power ballads (Mark), classical music (Ian), musicals (Keri), emo (Sarah) and absolute disgust for some other genres?  Is it just dependent on our stage of life?  Does it change over time? 

Whadda ya think?

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I'm slowly getting over my cold.  Thank GOD!  I'm a horrible patient. 

I've been reading a lot of my school work (like I should have for the past 3 weeks) and am slowly making progress.  I'm getting excited about the coming semester- I'll finally be in the clinic!  Lots of pregnant bellies!  My FAVORITE!!! 

Anyhooo...

I looked at flights from Louisville to Melbourne...just to get a ballpark figure of how many pennies I'll have to save.  Just in case you were wondering, I'll need to save about 170,000 pennies for a round-trip ticket to Melbourne, Australia.  That's $1700 for those of you who don't like math ("Ah, Boooooo!" as Ian would say).  So it looks like I'll be needing to do something more than just saving pennies.  I know!  I have an extra kidney!  I only need one, right?  I said, "RIGHT?"!!!  Kidney for sale!  Doesn't really have the same ring to it, does it?  I try.  A trip from Manchester to Melbourne is about $1000 just in case you Brits were wondering.  For the love of BOB!

Okay.  Now I'm getting silly.  I'll wrap this up. 

I need mailing addresses from everyone who went to Scotland.  I've got blackmail photos to send!  Mwaah Haaaah Haaaaaah!  Send them to my email address if you'd prefer not to post them on xanga.

Love to you all.

p.s. Yay for Colleen who doesn't have meningitis!  (There's always something to be thankful for.)

p.p.s.  I don't have meningitis either!